dinner. Mrs Waterman had left it immaculate, but not a thing was started for breakfast. Not even the stove was lit. It was still full of yesterday’s ashes and barely warm to the touch. It would take some time to rake it out and lay it, light it and wait for it to heat – too long for a hot breakfast of any sort before school. Even tea and toast required the use of the stove.
Charlotte controlled her temper with difficulty. If she could have been granted one wish, other than Pitt being home, it would have been to have Gracie back. Just her cheerful spirit, her frankness, her refusal ever to give in, would have made it easier.
But she wasn’t, and Charlotte could never be anything but happy for her that at last she had achieved the dreams that had once seemed impossible to her.
‘I’m sorry,’ she said to Daniel and Jemima, ‘but we’ll have to wait until tonight for something hot. It’ll be bread and jam for us all this morning, and a glass of milk.’ She went to the pantry to fetch the milk, butter and jam without waiting for their response. She was already trying to find words to tell them that she had to leave and go to Ireland. Except that she couldn’t, if she didn’t find someone totally trustworthy, and how could she do that in half a day? It would have to be a matter of thinking of someone they could stay with. As an absolutely final resort she could take them to Emily’s home for the servants to look after, until Charlotte could get back from Ireland, or Pitt from France – or even Emily herself from Paris.
She came back with the milk, butter and jam, and put them on the table. Jemima was setting out the knives, and spoons for the jam; Daniel was putting the glasses out one at a time. Charlotte felt a sudden tightening in her chest. How could she have contemplated leaving them with the disapproving Mrs Waterman? Blast Emily for being away now, when she was so badly needed!
She turned and opened the bread bin, took out the loaf and set it on the board with the knife.
‘Thank you,’ she accepted the last glass. ‘I know it’s a little early, but we had better begin. I knew Mrs Waterman was going. I should have been up sooner and lit the stove. I didn’t even think of it. I’m sorry.’ She cut three slices of bread and offered them. They each took one, buttered it and chose the jam they liked best: gooseberry for Jemima, blackcurrant for Daniel – like his father – and apricot for Charlotte. She poured the milk.
‘Why did she go, Mama?’ Daniel asked.
For once Charlotte did not bother to tell him not to speak with his mouth full. His question deserved an honest answer, but how much would he understand? He was looking at her now with solemn grey eyes exactly like his father’s. Jemima waited with the bread halfway to her mouth. Perhaps the whole truth, briefly and without fear, was the only way to avoid having to lie later, as more and more emerged. If they ever found her lying to them, even if they understood the reason, their trust would be broken.
‘Mr Narraway, your father’s superior, called a few evenings ago to tell me that your father had to go to France, without being able to let us know. He didn’t want us to worry when he didn’t come home—’
‘You told us,’ Jemima interrupted. ‘Why did Mrs Waterman go?’
‘Mr Narraway came again yesterday evening, quite late. He stayed for a little while, because something very bad had happened to him. He has been blamed for something he didn’t do, and he is no longer your father’s superior. That matters rather a lot, so he had to let me know.’
Jemima frowned. ‘I don’t understand. Why did Mrs Waterman go? Can’t we pay her any more?’
‘Yes, certainly we can,’ Charlotte said quickly, although that might not always be true. ‘She went because she didn’t approve of Mr Narraway coming here and telling me in the evening.’
‘Why not?’ Daniel put his bread down and stared at her. ‘Shouldn’t he have
Charlotte controlled her temper with difficulty. If she could have been granted one wish, other than Pitt being home, it would have been to have Gracie back. Just her cheerful spirit, her frankness, her refusal ever to give in, would have made it easier.
But she wasn’t, and Charlotte could never be anything but happy for her that at last she had achieved the dreams that had once seemed impossible to her.
‘I’m sorry,’ she said to Daniel and Jemima, ‘but we’ll have to wait until tonight for something hot. It’ll be bread and jam for us all this morning, and a glass of milk.’ She went to the pantry to fetch the milk, butter and jam without waiting for their response. She was already trying to find words to tell them that she had to leave and go to Ireland. Except that she couldn’t, if she didn’t find someone totally trustworthy, and how could she do that in half a day? It would have to be a matter of thinking of someone they could stay with. As an absolutely final resort she could take them to Emily’s home for the servants to look after, until Charlotte could get back from Ireland, or Pitt from France – or even Emily herself from Paris.
She came back with the milk, butter and jam, and put them on the table. Jemima was setting out the knives, and spoons for the jam; Daniel was putting the glasses out one at a time. Charlotte felt a sudden tightening in her chest. How could she have contemplated leaving them with the disapproving Mrs Waterman? Blast Emily for being away now, when she was so badly needed!
She turned and opened the bread bin, took out the loaf and set it on the board with the knife.
‘Thank you,’ she accepted the last glass. ‘I know it’s a little early, but we had better begin. I knew Mrs Waterman was going. I should have been up sooner and lit the stove. I didn’t even think of it. I’m sorry.’ She cut three slices of bread and offered them. They each took one, buttered it and chose the jam they liked best: gooseberry for Jemima, blackcurrant for Daniel – like his father – and apricot for Charlotte. She poured the milk.
‘Why did she go, Mama?’ Daniel asked.
For once Charlotte did not bother to tell him not to speak with his mouth full. His question deserved an honest answer, but how much would he understand? He was looking at her now with solemn grey eyes exactly like his father’s. Jemima waited with the bread halfway to her mouth. Perhaps the whole truth, briefly and without fear, was the only way to avoid having to lie later, as more and more emerged. If they ever found her lying to them, even if they understood the reason, their trust would be broken.
‘Mr Narraway, your father’s superior, called a few evenings ago to tell me that your father had to go to France, without being able to let us know. He didn’t want us to worry when he didn’t come home—’
‘You told us,’ Jemima interrupted. ‘Why did Mrs Waterman go?’
‘Mr Narraway came again yesterday evening, quite late. He stayed for a little while, because something very bad had happened to him. He has been blamed for something he didn’t do, and he is no longer your father’s superior. That matters rather a lot, so he had to let me know.’
Jemima frowned. ‘I don’t understand. Why did Mrs Waterman go? Can’t we pay her any more?’
‘Yes, certainly we can,’ Charlotte said quickly, although that might not always be true. ‘She went because she didn’t approve of Mr Narraway coming here and telling me in the evening.’
‘Why not?’ Daniel put his bread down and stared at her. ‘Shouldn’t he have
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