wear my nicest outfit with my best perfume. If I could get him crazy about me, maybe he would just have the urge to give me the bite I so desperately desired.
I got in the car and drove off to school. I got out of the car and smelled the crisp air as I made my way up to the door. Kids were laughing, people were getting along, and everything was great. I made my way to my locker and skipped over to James, who was already standing there waiting for me.
“What are you so happy about?” he asked me, smiling.
“Oh nothing, just thinking,” I said.
“Oh yeah? About what?”
“You giving me the bite,” I said.
He covered my mouth to hold back anything else that I was going to say.
“You know you can’t mention that here,” he said frantically.
I pulled his hand off my mouth.
“Relax,” I said. “Nobody heard me. I want it though, and I need it.”
“I don’t think you understand what it even means. You aren’t ready for it. Nobody is ready for it.”
“Why aren’t I ready for it? You don’t think I’m tough enough to take it?”
“It isn’t about being tough enough to actually receive it. It is about the things that come with it. The things you lose.”
“Like what?” I asked.
“Like your family, your friends. Everything is lost when you become like this. You have to leave everyone behind and it isn’t an easy thing to do. We have all done it and it took years for those scars to even begin healing.”
I looked into his eyes and I could see his emotion. He was genuinely afraid of what would happen to me if I did lose these things. Even though I was distanced from my parents, I still loved them. I cared about them and just thinking of one day up and leaving them without any explanation started to sink in. Maybe I wasn’t ready for this.
“Fine,” I said. “Maybe now isn’t the time, but I still want it someday.”
“I know you do. If the day comes where it is meant to be, then I will do it. I feel like I should be the one to give you it.”
“I love you,” I said.
“I love you with all of my heart,” he said, gazing into my eyes.
He gently grabbed my hand and kissed it. It still amazed me when I felt his lips against my skin. It was like a cold can was being softly pressed against you. Even though his skin was cold, I still felt his warmth with every touch.
“I should get going. The bell is going to ring soon,” he said.
He walked away and I couldn’t help but smile. Why was I so lucky to find such an amazing person? Someone who would love me unconditionally.
“So,” I heard someone say.
I turned around to see Ariel standing there.
“Are you going to give me the dish about you and James already?” she said playfully.
“Well, he is pretty amazing,” I said smiling. “Everything is going great.”
“That’s good. We have been wondering about him for a while.”
“What do you mean?”
“Well, nobody knows much of anything about him and Emma. They come and go and don’t talk to many people. I mean, James doesn’t even show up every day for classes. Seems like he comes to see you then just leaves like it’s nothing at all.”
“They are kind of shy,” I said, trying to pull the attention away. “I’m sure it’s all good.”
“Whatever you say, girl. Just be careful. A guy that handsome is bound to have broken some hearts along the way.”
The bell rang and we started to make our way to class. I had never thought to ask James about his past relationships. He had been around for a long time, and I am sure he has loved other women.
I started feeling sick from the idea of it all. He was mine, and what if he left me for somebody else?
“I have to go see the nurse,” I said to Ariel as I started walking that way.
I felt physically sick, as if I had the flu. I made my way to the nurse’s office and opened the door.
I saw Cara already in
I got in the car and drove off to school. I got out of the car and smelled the crisp air as I made my way up to the door. Kids were laughing, people were getting along, and everything was great. I made my way to my locker and skipped over to James, who was already standing there waiting for me.
“What are you so happy about?” he asked me, smiling.
“Oh nothing, just thinking,” I said.
“Oh yeah? About what?”
“You giving me the bite,” I said.
He covered my mouth to hold back anything else that I was going to say.
“You know you can’t mention that here,” he said frantically.
I pulled his hand off my mouth.
“Relax,” I said. “Nobody heard me. I want it though, and I need it.”
“I don’t think you understand what it even means. You aren’t ready for it. Nobody is ready for it.”
“Why aren’t I ready for it? You don’t think I’m tough enough to take it?”
“It isn’t about being tough enough to actually receive it. It is about the things that come with it. The things you lose.”
“Like what?” I asked.
“Like your family, your friends. Everything is lost when you become like this. You have to leave everyone behind and it isn’t an easy thing to do. We have all done it and it took years for those scars to even begin healing.”
I looked into his eyes and I could see his emotion. He was genuinely afraid of what would happen to me if I did lose these things. Even though I was distanced from my parents, I still loved them. I cared about them and just thinking of one day up and leaving them without any explanation started to sink in. Maybe I wasn’t ready for this.
“Fine,” I said. “Maybe now isn’t the time, but I still want it someday.”
“I know you do. If the day comes where it is meant to be, then I will do it. I feel like I should be the one to give you it.”
“I love you,” I said.
“I love you with all of my heart,” he said, gazing into my eyes.
He gently grabbed my hand and kissed it. It still amazed me when I felt his lips against my skin. It was like a cold can was being softly pressed against you. Even though his skin was cold, I still felt his warmth with every touch.
“I should get going. The bell is going to ring soon,” he said.
He walked away and I couldn’t help but smile. Why was I so lucky to find such an amazing person? Someone who would love me unconditionally.
“So,” I heard someone say.
I turned around to see Ariel standing there.
“Are you going to give me the dish about you and James already?” she said playfully.
“Well, he is pretty amazing,” I said smiling. “Everything is going great.”
“That’s good. We have been wondering about him for a while.”
“What do you mean?”
“Well, nobody knows much of anything about him and Emma. They come and go and don’t talk to many people. I mean, James doesn’t even show up every day for classes. Seems like he comes to see you then just leaves like it’s nothing at all.”
“They are kind of shy,” I said, trying to pull the attention away. “I’m sure it’s all good.”
“Whatever you say, girl. Just be careful. A guy that handsome is bound to have broken some hearts along the way.”
The bell rang and we started to make our way to class. I had never thought to ask James about his past relationships. He had been around for a long time, and I am sure he has loved other women.
I started feeling sick from the idea of it all. He was mine, and what if he left me for somebody else?
“I have to go see the nurse,” I said to Ariel as I started walking that way.
I felt physically sick, as if I had the flu. I made my way to the nurse’s office and opened the door.
I saw Cara already in
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