Becca?”
“Yes, definitely.” I bent down and kissed her forehead. “Ya know, you’re growing up so fast.”
“Oh please.”
“Before long you’ll be grown up, married, moving away.” I said, laughing.
“Not likely. I don’t think I’m ever going to find a guy now.”
“David’s available. Hey Amber, your brother and my sister, what do you think?”
“He’s not the only one available in our family.” was Amber’s reply.
“Eww.” Bridget said, laughing. “Not happening. No offense.”
“What is it with you Lang women? What, I’m not good enough for any of you?”
“No.” Bridget told her.
“Goodnight. I love you, Bridget.”
I think she may have actually hurt Amber’s feelings the way she said that. That poor girl has no prospects at all. Not even a bratty little boy that may change as he gets older. At least Bridget may one day grow to like David. Amber doesn’t have that.
“Hey,” I stopped in front of Amber’s bed and knelt down. “You’re a sweet girl, Amber. Some day someone is going to be lucky to be with you.”
“Just not you.” she mumbled.
“I’m in love with someone else.”
“If you weren’t, would I even have a chance?”
“Um,” Would she have a chance? I don’t know her well enough to say yes, but I don’t know enough to say no, either. “Maybe when you were older.”
“Good. So I’ll just wait.”
“Don’t hold your breath, Amber.”
“Hey,” She reached out and grabbed my hand as I was standing up. “I’m glad you’re happy, Becca. Even if I can’t be.”
“Goodnight.”
I went into our room and undressed. I’m sleeping naked. That’s all there is to it. I’m a little nervous about that, but I want to be naked with my girlfriend. Maybe she’ll get naked, too. I can dream.
“I feel bad for Amber.” I said. Probably not the best way to get Tasha in the mood for anything. “I know how much it sucks to want to be with someone you can’t be with.”
“But you are with me.” she said. Her hand moved over and rested on my stomach. “You were talking about me, right?”
“I love you, Tasha.” I started crying hard. “It was so hard before you, but now I don’t think I could live without you. Please don’t leave me.”
“I won’t.”
“I can’t do this without you.”
“Becca,”
“I feel like I’m barely holding on anyway.”
“I’m right here.”
“I thought it would be so much better when Dad got here. I thought he’d take over and... and... but he’s just...”
“Too worried about your mom.”
“No, he’s just... he’s not tough enough for this, Tasha. I can’t believe it, but he’s not. He can’t make hard decisions.”
“He’s going through a hard time right now.”
“We all are. I just want him to be my Dad. Instead he’s just this guy that wanders around and doesn’t know what to do.”
“He loves you guys.”
“I know. I love him, you know this isn’t about that. He just... I just wish he’d take charge.”
Thursday, May 12 th
“Hey Dad, Tasha and I are going on a supply run.”
“You sure? I can go with you.”
“No, that’s okay.” I grabbed her hand. “It’ll be like a date.”
“Be careful.”
“I think we’re going to look for one of those little propane camp stoves and some bottles of propane. David was telling me about them, I think I know what to look for. If we stop using the stove so much maybe we can at least let the oven last a while longer.” The tank out back may be big, but it’s not going to last forever.
“Good idea.” he mumbled without any emotion.
I went up to our room and changed to some better shoes, put my hair in a pony tail, grabbed a backpack and the guns. I went down to Bridget’s room and knocked. I heard laughing from inside. I knocked again and she told me to come in.
“Hi.” I said, sticking my head in. Her and David were in there alone. They were sitting on opposite sides of the
“Yes, definitely.” I bent down and kissed her forehead. “Ya know, you’re growing up so fast.”
“Oh please.”
“Before long you’ll be grown up, married, moving away.” I said, laughing.
“Not likely. I don’t think I’m ever going to find a guy now.”
“David’s available. Hey Amber, your brother and my sister, what do you think?”
“He’s not the only one available in our family.” was Amber’s reply.
“Eww.” Bridget said, laughing. “Not happening. No offense.”
“What is it with you Lang women? What, I’m not good enough for any of you?”
“No.” Bridget told her.
“Goodnight. I love you, Bridget.”
I think she may have actually hurt Amber’s feelings the way she said that. That poor girl has no prospects at all. Not even a bratty little boy that may change as he gets older. At least Bridget may one day grow to like David. Amber doesn’t have that.
“Hey,” I stopped in front of Amber’s bed and knelt down. “You’re a sweet girl, Amber. Some day someone is going to be lucky to be with you.”
“Just not you.” she mumbled.
“I’m in love with someone else.”
“If you weren’t, would I even have a chance?”
“Um,” Would she have a chance? I don’t know her well enough to say yes, but I don’t know enough to say no, either. “Maybe when you were older.”
“Good. So I’ll just wait.”
“Don’t hold your breath, Amber.”
“Hey,” She reached out and grabbed my hand as I was standing up. “I’m glad you’re happy, Becca. Even if I can’t be.”
“Goodnight.”
I went into our room and undressed. I’m sleeping naked. That’s all there is to it. I’m a little nervous about that, but I want to be naked with my girlfriend. Maybe she’ll get naked, too. I can dream.
“I feel bad for Amber.” I said. Probably not the best way to get Tasha in the mood for anything. “I know how much it sucks to want to be with someone you can’t be with.”
“But you are with me.” she said. Her hand moved over and rested on my stomach. “You were talking about me, right?”
“I love you, Tasha.” I started crying hard. “It was so hard before you, but now I don’t think I could live without you. Please don’t leave me.”
“I won’t.”
“I can’t do this without you.”
“Becca,”
“I feel like I’m barely holding on anyway.”
“I’m right here.”
“I thought it would be so much better when Dad got here. I thought he’d take over and... and... but he’s just...”
“Too worried about your mom.”
“No, he’s just... he’s not tough enough for this, Tasha. I can’t believe it, but he’s not. He can’t make hard decisions.”
“He’s going through a hard time right now.”
“We all are. I just want him to be my Dad. Instead he’s just this guy that wanders around and doesn’t know what to do.”
“He loves you guys.”
“I know. I love him, you know this isn’t about that. He just... I just wish he’d take charge.”
Thursday, May 12 th
“Hey Dad, Tasha and I are going on a supply run.”
“You sure? I can go with you.”
“No, that’s okay.” I grabbed her hand. “It’ll be like a date.”
“Be careful.”
“I think we’re going to look for one of those little propane camp stoves and some bottles of propane. David was telling me about them, I think I know what to look for. If we stop using the stove so much maybe we can at least let the oven last a while longer.” The tank out back may be big, but it’s not going to last forever.
“Good idea.” he mumbled without any emotion.
I went up to our room and changed to some better shoes, put my hair in a pony tail, grabbed a backpack and the guns. I went down to Bridget’s room and knocked. I heard laughing from inside. I knocked again and she told me to come in.
“Hi.” I said, sticking my head in. Her and David were in there alone. They were sitting on opposite sides of the
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