this. Iâd told him, âYou know you upset the whole balance of our friendship by telling her that. Suddenly, she was the skinny starlet, and Mary and I were the chubby girls who wore baggy clothes because we hated our big boobs. She made us feel like shit and ordered us around.â
Quentin smiled at me and said, âI donât think anyone could order you around.â
He was right.
I told Jessica, âThis is ridiculous. You broke up with Quentin. Itâs not like he broke your heart or anything. Youâve dated a bunch of guys since. And itâs not like Iâm mad at Mary for going after Christian. He was my first boyfriend, remember?â
âThatâs your business. I donât want you with Quentin.â
I softened for a moment. âDo you still have feelings for him? If you really do, Iâll back off.â
âNo.â Jessica wrinkled her nose. âHeâs too short for me. I just donât want you with him.â
âJessicaâ¦â I took a deep breath, preparing to reason with her.
Then I heard my mother call out for me.
Sheâd never left her room during our parties beforeâeven if there was a band playing and kids all over the house. No one had known she was there until that night when she stumbled into the living room like a zombie, moaning, âCassandra! Wesley!â
Jessica craned her neck to look through the doorway at Mom in her stained blue nightgown and tangled blond hair sticking up every which way. âOh my god,â Jessica snorted, stifling a giggle.
I wanted to tell her to shut up. I wanted to slap her. Instead, I raced into the living room, telling myself: Get the situation under control. And donât cry. Whatever you do, donât let them see you cry.
Everyone had backed up, giving my crazy mother a wide berth, like she was an animal who might attack. I put my arms around her skinny body and tried to steer her toward the hallway that sheâd come from, saying, âMom, let me get you back to bed.â
She refused to move. She reached up to pet my hair and said, âCassie, get your brother. I took too many pills. He needs to drive me to the hospital.â
When it came to my mother, Iâd dealt with a lot, but nothing that bad. I froze, stammering, âMama, Wes isnât here.â
Confusion filled her gray eyes. âGet Wes. We need Wes!â she insisted loudly.
We really fucking did need Wes, but he wasnât there. I had to handle it.
âAdrian, I need you to give me a ride. Everybody else needs to get out of here now!â I barked.
No one needed to be told twice. The house cleared and Adrian and Quentin helped me lead my dazed mother to Adrianâs car. I stayed calm. I didnât even cry when the doctors told me theyâd have to pump Momâs stomach.
I didnât cry until I called Wes to tell him about it and he told me that he wasnât going to come home for the holidays.
âNo,â I bawled. âYou have to. I need you. Everything is falling apart.â And I went on to explain about Quentin and me and how Jessica insisted I break it off.
âJessicaâs just jealous,â he assured me. âSheâll get over it. Iâm glad youâre with Quentin. You keep an eye on him and Adrian because they need it. You watch over everyone for me until I come home, Cassie. Be the guardian angel.â
Every time I talk to him he says that, âTake care of everyone for me, Guardian Angel.â And Iâm trying, but I really donât know if I can do it. I really wish that heâd just come home and Iâd have someone to watch over me for a change.
11.
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Iâd shown Liam the
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