Anita Blake, Vampire Hunter Collection 6-10 by Laurell K. Hamilton
Authors: Laurell K. Hamilton
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what I’m saying, and you know it. You’re trying to live in some Ozzie and Harriet world, Richard. Maybe life used to work like that, but it doesn’t anymore. If you don’t give up on this, you’re going to get killed.”
“If I really thought I had to become a murderer to survive, I think I’d rather not survive.”
I glanced at him. His expression was peaceful, like a saint. But you only got to be a saint if you died. I looked back at the road. I could give Richard up, but if I left him, he was going to end up dead. He’d have gone in there tonight without anyone, and he wouldn’t have made it out.
Tears burned at the back of my eyes. “I don’t know if I’d survive it if you died on me, Richard. Doesn’t that mean anything to you?”
He kissed my cheek, and something warm and liquid seeped down my neck. “I love you, too.”
They were only words. He was going to get killed on me. He was going to do everything short of suicide. “You’re bleeding on me,” I said.
He sighed and leaned back into the darkness. “I’m bleeding a lot. Too bad Jean-Claude isn’t here to lick it up.” He made a bitter sound low in his throat.
“Do you need a doctor?”
“Get me home, Anita. If I need a doctor, I know a wererat that makes house calls.” He sounded tired, weary, as if he didn’t want to talk anymore. Not about the wounds, or the pack, or his high ideals. I let the silence grow and didn’t know how to break it. A soft sound filled the quiet dark, and I realized that Richard was crying. He whispered, “I’m sorry, Stephen. I am so sorry.”
I didn’t say anything because I didn’t have anything goodto say. Just lately I had noticed that I could kill people and not blink. No attack of conscience, no nightmares, nothing. It was like some part of me had turned off. It didn’t bother me that I was able to kill so easily. It did bother me that it didn’t bother me. But it had its uses, like tonight. I think every last furry one of them had believed I’d do it. Sometimes, it was good to be scary.
9
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I T WAS 4:40 in the morning when Richard carried the still unconscious Stephen into his bedroom. Blood had dried the back of Richard’s shirt to his skin. “Go to bed, Anita. I’ll take care of Stephen.”
“I need to look at your wounds,” I said.
“I’m all right.”
“Richard . . .”
He looked at me, half of his face covered in dried blood, his eyes almost wild. “No, Anita, I don’t want your help. I don’t need it.”
I took in a deep breath through my nose and let it out. “Okay, have it your way.”
I expected him to apologize for snapping at me, but he didn’t. He just walked into the other room and closed the door. I stood there in the living room for a minute, not sure what to do. I’d hurt his feelings, maybe even offended his sense of male honor. Fuck it. If he couldn’t take the truth, fuck him. People’s lives were at stake. I couldn’t give Richard comforting lies when it could get people killed.
I went into the guest room, locked the door, and went to bed. I put on an oversized T-shirt with a caricature of Arthur Conan Doyle on it. I’d packed something a little sexier. Yes, I admit it. I could have saved myself the trouble. The Firestar was lumpy under the pillow. The machine gun went under the bed within reach. I laid an extra clip beside it. Never thought I’d need that much firepower, but between assassination attempts and packs of werewolves, I was beginning to feel a little insecure.
When I shoved the silver knives half under the mattress so Icould get to them if I had to, I realized just how insecure I was feeling. But I left the knives out. Better insecure and paranoid than dead.
I got my stuffed toy penguin, Sigmund, out of the suitcase and cuddled under the covers. I’d had some vague idea that spending the night at Richard’s house might be romantic. Shows how much I knew. We’d had three fights in one night, a record even for me. It
“If I really thought I had to become a murderer to survive, I think I’d rather not survive.”
I glanced at him. His expression was peaceful, like a saint. But you only got to be a saint if you died. I looked back at the road. I could give Richard up, but if I left him, he was going to end up dead. He’d have gone in there tonight without anyone, and he wouldn’t have made it out.
Tears burned at the back of my eyes. “I don’t know if I’d survive it if you died on me, Richard. Doesn’t that mean anything to you?”
He kissed my cheek, and something warm and liquid seeped down my neck. “I love you, too.”
They were only words. He was going to get killed on me. He was going to do everything short of suicide. “You’re bleeding on me,” I said.
He sighed and leaned back into the darkness. “I’m bleeding a lot. Too bad Jean-Claude isn’t here to lick it up.” He made a bitter sound low in his throat.
“Do you need a doctor?”
“Get me home, Anita. If I need a doctor, I know a wererat that makes house calls.” He sounded tired, weary, as if he didn’t want to talk anymore. Not about the wounds, or the pack, or his high ideals. I let the silence grow and didn’t know how to break it. A soft sound filled the quiet dark, and I realized that Richard was crying. He whispered, “I’m sorry, Stephen. I am so sorry.”
I didn’t say anything because I didn’t have anything goodto say. Just lately I had noticed that I could kill people and not blink. No attack of conscience, no nightmares, nothing. It was like some part of me had turned off. It didn’t bother me that I was able to kill so easily. It did bother me that it didn’t bother me. But it had its uses, like tonight. I think every last furry one of them had believed I’d do it. Sometimes, it was good to be scary.
9
----
I T WAS 4:40 in the morning when Richard carried the still unconscious Stephen into his bedroom. Blood had dried the back of Richard’s shirt to his skin. “Go to bed, Anita. I’ll take care of Stephen.”
“I need to look at your wounds,” I said.
“I’m all right.”
“Richard . . .”
He looked at me, half of his face covered in dried blood, his eyes almost wild. “No, Anita, I don’t want your help. I don’t need it.”
I took in a deep breath through my nose and let it out. “Okay, have it your way.”
I expected him to apologize for snapping at me, but he didn’t. He just walked into the other room and closed the door. I stood there in the living room for a minute, not sure what to do. I’d hurt his feelings, maybe even offended his sense of male honor. Fuck it. If he couldn’t take the truth, fuck him. People’s lives were at stake. I couldn’t give Richard comforting lies when it could get people killed.
I went into the guest room, locked the door, and went to bed. I put on an oversized T-shirt with a caricature of Arthur Conan Doyle on it. I’d packed something a little sexier. Yes, I admit it. I could have saved myself the trouble. The Firestar was lumpy under the pillow. The machine gun went under the bed within reach. I laid an extra clip beside it. Never thought I’d need that much firepower, but between assassination attempts and packs of werewolves, I was beginning to feel a little insecure.
When I shoved the silver knives half under the mattress so Icould get to them if I had to, I realized just how insecure I was feeling. But I left the knives out. Better insecure and paranoid than dead.
I got my stuffed toy penguin, Sigmund, out of the suitcase and cuddled under the covers. I’d had some vague idea that spending the night at Richard’s house might be romantic. Shows how much I knew. We’d had three fights in one night, a record even for me. It
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