loved.
“That’s when he told me his first time had been a disaster, too.” Rix shook his head sadly. “Huv said the girl he slept with had also been a virgin, so the two of them hadn’t known what they were doing. She didn’t have the control to slow down or stop when he pleaded with her. He said he cried the whole time.”
Picturing a younger version of Huv with fear in his eyes and tears of pain streaming down his cheeks, Lexy felt his heart contract.
In contrast, Rix wore a fond smile. “I told Huv sex was terrible and I never wanted to do it again. He said he’d felt the same way at first, but he promised it got better. It wasn’t going to hurt like that again. Huv told me the secret to good sex was to learn what you were doing and stay in control. There’s no pleasure in ignorance and helplessness. Then he gave me a whole lecture on how to go about it.” Rix winked. “It worked too. I’ve loved sex ever since.”
Lexy tried to return the Allurian’s grin, but his mind was busy putting together the pieces. He’d worked so hard not to overanalyze his relationship with Huv that he’d kept his eyes too tightly shut. At heart, Huv was an honest man, and he’d given Lexy plenty of warning along the way.
I can’t. I don’t know what I’m doing here. I don’t know what to do. Huv had told him again and again. Whereas Huv had been insatiable and aggressive with Lexy the woman, he’d been meek with Lexy the man, always waiting for him to make the moves. With another male, Huv was a virgin all over again. He’d needed gentling, maybe a little romance. Instead, Lexy had rushed full speed ahead, assuming Huv could keep pace with him.
Of course, there was an element of dominance and submission to their relationship. Even two Cedecians interacted differently when their genders reversed. It was inevitable that aggression levels and attitude changed as hormones and muscle mass did. Huv might naturally be more submissive toward another male. But this went beyond that.
To a large extent, this was about control. Lexy had reveled in his ability to make Huv lose control during sex, not realizing how frightening that was for him. Huv evidently could deal with it while Lexy was female, but adding another unknown to the mix was too much. And why wouldn’t it be? Lexy had never offered Huv the greatest safety net of all. He’d never confessed his love.
“You’ll work it out,” Rix said quietly.
Lexy arched his eyebrow at him.
In response, Rix shrugged. “I recognize that look of determination. Just let me know if there’s anything I can do to help.”
A plan began to form in Lexy’s mind. “I don’t suppose you’d give me the pass code to your house? Maybe clear out Friday night without tipping off Huv?”
Rix appeared to think about it for a moment before reciting his door code. “Just don’t burglarize me, okay? I’ll feel really stupid if you do.”
“Don’t worry. I’m not a crook. Although it’s tempting, seeing as you never invite me inside.”
“Oh, yeah.” Rix glanced around, appearing to take in his location blocking the doorway. “Sorry about that.”
Lexy waved that away and turned to leave.
“One more thing,” Rix added.
He waited.
“So when can I start with the sausage jokes?” Rix’s grin turned boyish and wicked. Obviously, his humor had returned.
Lexy groaned. “You do know I can beat you up in this form.”
“I thought Huv was the only one you wanted to pound?”
Biting his lip so he wouldn’t laugh, or possibly scream, Lexy walked away. When he got back into his car, he saw the raunchy Allurian gesticulating again. And there was no mistaking what he was pantomiming now.
* * * *
The sun had already set when Huv got home Friday night. Usually at this time, he’d have cadged a home-cooked meal from Lexy or been out on the town with him. Instead, Huv had eaten at a greasy diner alone, postponing his return to the townhouse as long as possible. He didn’t
“That’s when he told me his first time had been a disaster, too.” Rix shook his head sadly. “Huv said the girl he slept with had also been a virgin, so the two of them hadn’t known what they were doing. She didn’t have the control to slow down or stop when he pleaded with her. He said he cried the whole time.”
Picturing a younger version of Huv with fear in his eyes and tears of pain streaming down his cheeks, Lexy felt his heart contract.
In contrast, Rix wore a fond smile. “I told Huv sex was terrible and I never wanted to do it again. He said he’d felt the same way at first, but he promised it got better. It wasn’t going to hurt like that again. Huv told me the secret to good sex was to learn what you were doing and stay in control. There’s no pleasure in ignorance and helplessness. Then he gave me a whole lecture on how to go about it.” Rix winked. “It worked too. I’ve loved sex ever since.”
Lexy tried to return the Allurian’s grin, but his mind was busy putting together the pieces. He’d worked so hard not to overanalyze his relationship with Huv that he’d kept his eyes too tightly shut. At heart, Huv was an honest man, and he’d given Lexy plenty of warning along the way.
I can’t. I don’t know what I’m doing here. I don’t know what to do. Huv had told him again and again. Whereas Huv had been insatiable and aggressive with Lexy the woman, he’d been meek with Lexy the man, always waiting for him to make the moves. With another male, Huv was a virgin all over again. He’d needed gentling, maybe a little romance. Instead, Lexy had rushed full speed ahead, assuming Huv could keep pace with him.
Of course, there was an element of dominance and submission to their relationship. Even two Cedecians interacted differently when their genders reversed. It was inevitable that aggression levels and attitude changed as hormones and muscle mass did. Huv might naturally be more submissive toward another male. But this went beyond that.
To a large extent, this was about control. Lexy had reveled in his ability to make Huv lose control during sex, not realizing how frightening that was for him. Huv evidently could deal with it while Lexy was female, but adding another unknown to the mix was too much. And why wouldn’t it be? Lexy had never offered Huv the greatest safety net of all. He’d never confessed his love.
“You’ll work it out,” Rix said quietly.
Lexy arched his eyebrow at him.
In response, Rix shrugged. “I recognize that look of determination. Just let me know if there’s anything I can do to help.”
A plan began to form in Lexy’s mind. “I don’t suppose you’d give me the pass code to your house? Maybe clear out Friday night without tipping off Huv?”
Rix appeared to think about it for a moment before reciting his door code. “Just don’t burglarize me, okay? I’ll feel really stupid if you do.”
“Don’t worry. I’m not a crook. Although it’s tempting, seeing as you never invite me inside.”
“Oh, yeah.” Rix glanced around, appearing to take in his location blocking the doorway. “Sorry about that.”
Lexy waved that away and turned to leave.
“One more thing,” Rix added.
He waited.
“So when can I start with the sausage jokes?” Rix’s grin turned boyish and wicked. Obviously, his humor had returned.
Lexy groaned. “You do know I can beat you up in this form.”
“I thought Huv was the only one you wanted to pound?”
Biting his lip so he wouldn’t laugh, or possibly scream, Lexy walked away. When he got back into his car, he saw the raunchy Allurian gesticulating again. And there was no mistaking what he was pantomiming now.
* * * *
The sun had already set when Huv got home Friday night. Usually at this time, he’d have cadged a home-cooked meal from Lexy or been out on the town with him. Instead, Huv had eaten at a greasy diner alone, postponing his return to the townhouse as long as possible. He didn’t
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