his thoughts of Marion to pay much attention to Mrs. Vaughn. Although Marion had not repeated the mischief of creating that replica of herself so alluringly arranged on the bed in the rental house, Eddie’s own manipulations of Marion’s pink cashmere cardigan, which was redolent of her delectable scent, continued to satisfy the sixteen-year-old to a degree that he had never been satisfied before.
Eddie O’Hare inhabited a kind of masturbatory heaven. He should have stayed there—he should have taken up permanent residence. As Eddie would soon discover, to have more of Marion than what he already possessed would not content him. But Marion was in control of their relationship; if anything more was to happen between them, it would happen only upon Marion’s initiation.
It began by her taking him out to dinner. She drove, without asking him if he wanted to drive. To his surprise, Eddie was grateful to his father for insisting that he pack some dress shirts and ties and an “ all-purpose” sports jacket. But when Marion saw him in his traditional Exeter uniform, she told him that he could dispense with either the tie or the jacket—where they were going, he didn’t need both. The restaurant, in East Hampton, was less fancy than Eddie had expected, and it was clear that the waiters were used to seeing Marion there; they kept bringing her wine—she had three glasses—without her having to ask.
She was more talkative than Eddie had known her to be. “I was already pregnant with Thomas when I married Ted—when I was only a year older than you are,” she told him. (The difference in their ages was a recurrent theme for her.) “When you were born, I was twenty-three. When you’re my age, I’ll be sixty-two,” she went on. And twice she made a reference to her gift to him: the pink cashmere cardigan. “How did you like my little surprise?” she asked.
“Very much!” he stammered.
Quickly changing the subject, she told him that Ted had not really dropped out of Harvard. He’d been asked to take a leave of absence— “for ‘nonperformance,’ I think he called it,” Marion said.
On every book jacket, in the part about the author, it always stated that Ted Cole was a Harvard dropout. Apparently this half-truth pleased him: it conveyed that he had been smart enough to get into Harvard and original enough not to care about staying there. “But the truth is, he was just lazy,” Marion said. “He never wanted to work very hard.” After a pause, she asked Eddie: “And how’s the work going for you?”
“There’s not much to do,” he confided to her.
“No, I can’t imagine that there is,” she replied. “Ted hired you because he needed a driver.”
Marion had not finished high school when she met Ted and he got her pregnant. But over the years, when Thomas and Timothy were growing up, she had passed a high-school equivalency exam; and, on various college campuses around New England, she’d completed courses part-time. It had taken ten years for her to graduate, from the University of New Hampshire in 1952—only a year before her sons were killed. She took mostly literature and history courses, many more than were necessary for a college degree; her unwillingness to enroll in the other courses that were required had delayed her getting a diploma. “Finally,” she told Eddie, “I wanted a college degree only because Ted didn’t have one.”
Thomas and Timothy had been proud of her for graduating. “I was just getting ready to be a writer when they died,” Marion confided to Eddie. “That finished it.”
“You were a writer ?” Eddie asked her. “Why’d you stop?”
She told him that she couldn’t keep turning to her innermost thoughts when all she thought about was the death of her boys; she couldn’t allow herself to imagine freely, because her imagination would inevitably lead her to Thomas and Timothy. “And to think that I used to like to be alone with my thoughts,” she told
Eddie O’Hare inhabited a kind of masturbatory heaven. He should have stayed there—he should have taken up permanent residence. As Eddie would soon discover, to have more of Marion than what he already possessed would not content him. But Marion was in control of their relationship; if anything more was to happen between them, it would happen only upon Marion’s initiation.
It began by her taking him out to dinner. She drove, without asking him if he wanted to drive. To his surprise, Eddie was grateful to his father for insisting that he pack some dress shirts and ties and an “ all-purpose” sports jacket. But when Marion saw him in his traditional Exeter uniform, she told him that he could dispense with either the tie or the jacket—where they were going, he didn’t need both. The restaurant, in East Hampton, was less fancy than Eddie had expected, and it was clear that the waiters were used to seeing Marion there; they kept bringing her wine—she had three glasses—without her having to ask.
She was more talkative than Eddie had known her to be. “I was already pregnant with Thomas when I married Ted—when I was only a year older than you are,” she told him. (The difference in their ages was a recurrent theme for her.) “When you were born, I was twenty-three. When you’re my age, I’ll be sixty-two,” she went on. And twice she made a reference to her gift to him: the pink cashmere cardigan. “How did you like my little surprise?” she asked.
“Very much!” he stammered.
Quickly changing the subject, she told him that Ted had not really dropped out of Harvard. He’d been asked to take a leave of absence— “for ‘nonperformance,’ I think he called it,” Marion said.
On every book jacket, in the part about the author, it always stated that Ted Cole was a Harvard dropout. Apparently this half-truth pleased him: it conveyed that he had been smart enough to get into Harvard and original enough not to care about staying there. “But the truth is, he was just lazy,” Marion said. “He never wanted to work very hard.” After a pause, she asked Eddie: “And how’s the work going for you?”
“There’s not much to do,” he confided to her.
“No, I can’t imagine that there is,” she replied. “Ted hired you because he needed a driver.”
Marion had not finished high school when she met Ted and he got her pregnant. But over the years, when Thomas and Timothy were growing up, she had passed a high-school equivalency exam; and, on various college campuses around New England, she’d completed courses part-time. It had taken ten years for her to graduate, from the University of New Hampshire in 1952—only a year before her sons were killed. She took mostly literature and history courses, many more than were necessary for a college degree; her unwillingness to enroll in the other courses that were required had delayed her getting a diploma. “Finally,” she told Eddie, “I wanted a college degree only because Ted didn’t have one.”
Thomas and Timothy had been proud of her for graduating. “I was just getting ready to be a writer when they died,” Marion confided to Eddie. “That finished it.”
“You were a writer ?” Eddie asked her. “Why’d you stop?”
She told him that she couldn’t keep turning to her innermost thoughts when all she thought about was the death of her boys; she couldn’t allow herself to imagine freely, because her imagination would inevitably lead her to Thomas and Timothy. “And to think that I used to like to be alone with my thoughts,” she told
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