dyke-side, on the empty road, between fields of corn blowing like water, I suddenly yelled, âOh you bastards! You awful bloody bastards! You didnât need to have started it. And you could have stopped it before you did. God? Ha! There is no God.â Two horses grazing over a hedge looked up and whinnied.
âHow did you get on over at Ferry?â Mr Ellerbeck asked when, that evening, he walked in from Malmerby.
âWell, I learnt one thing,â I said â â that Iâm not cut out for a preacher. I expect your Super will be round to tick you off when complaints come up the line with the rations.â
âHe had his tea at Lucy Sykesâs,â Kathy cried. âShe asked him in. Heâs been quiet ever since, because heâs fallen in love with her.â
âSheâs a fine strong girl,â Mr Ellerbeck said. âAnd she gets a lot out of that old organ at Ferry. Good Christian upbringing, too. Weâll ask her over to the Sunday-school anniversary and thatâll give you another chance to have a look at her.â
It never seemed to have occurred to the Ellerbecks that I might have been married.
In London Iâd sometimes exchanged a word with the family next door on one side and nodded to the couple on the other, but, if Iâd passed whoever lived beyond that, I shouldnât have known them. Yet here,within twenty-four hours of my performance at Barton Ferry, word had got around about tea at the Sykesâs.
âHear youâre haring round the countryside looking over the girls. Thinking of settling down in Oxgodby then?â Moon said slyly. âBetter keep it quiet that youâre wed: every second chap round about has a shot-gun.â
Even Alice Keach had heard, but she put it more obliquely at the end of a conversation that had begun by her asking if Iâd wanted to be an artist.
âNo,â I said. âNever thought of it. Didnât know what I wanted to be. I only knew what I
didnât
want to do. I didnât want to be an engine-driver, a policeman or a rent-collector or have anything to do with the sea.â
âWhat about the Church? You would have made a good clergyman.â
âGood heavens! Really! Thatâs almost the last thing Iâd be any good at. Not my style at all.â
âBut you would have listened. You
do
listen. And you know how to be still. Donât you know that, when people are with you, they donât feel they have to say something? I mean just say anything to fill in silences. Were you always good at listening? When you were a little boy?â
âMy sisters used to say my ears were too big: that meant that I was
too
good a listener. Iâm sorry â I know thatâs not what you mean. Well then, maybe I was. My mother was a quiet woman. Sheâd sit for an hour sewing or darning and not a word. Sometimes sheâd pucker up her mouth and glance at one or the other of us. And, if anything had upset that one at school, sheâd hear it all out and then ask one or two questions so, in the end, you found youâd answered yourself. Is that what you mean?â
âYes,â she said. âThatâs exactly what I mean; I should like to have known her. And Mr Birkin â back to parsons. I hear you were a Great Success at Ferry â¦â
She said this as she rose from the pew to go. âAnd that youâve fallen in love.â Sheâd gone before I had time to reply; her gay laughter slipped back through the open door.
Well, she was right. Iâd fallen in love. But not with sweet Lucy Sykes.
You might wonder what I thought about during the many hours I spent up on that scaffold. Well, obviously, the work itself, the vast painting I was uncovering. But also about the nameless man whoâd stood where I stood. Not his technical abilities although, quite properly, these were extremely interesting to me. For instance, he had a very very good line
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