assigned to them had
chosen to rescue Tora first since he was Wray's successor, leaving
his younger brother to fend for himself until they could return.
They did not return in time.
"I'm so sorry , Wray." Kim found herself turning to him and the sadness in his eyes
caused her heart to ache. He had truly loved his son. "How old was
he?"
"Ten."
"His mother must have been heartbroken." Kim
knew what Wray had told her about Tornian females, but she still
found it hard to believe they had no feelings for their
offspring.
"Adana died not long after she presented
Van." Wray told her, thinking about his Empress. Would she have
been heartbroken at Van’s death as Kim seemed to think, or would it
have not mattered to her since her duty was done? Looking at Kim,
he could see she was truly upset he had lost offspring. Van
mattered to her even though she had never known him. If Van had
been hers, she would have been heartbroken.
"I... “Kim didn't know what to say, didn't
know how she felt. On one hand, she was sorry that Adana had died.
Wray had to have cared about her. On the other, she was relieved
that she wasn't still in his life. Tears
of shame filled Kim's eyes at her selfish thoughts. Wray had lost a
female, had lost a child and all she could think about was how it
affected her . S he hadn't changed at
all.
Wray wished he could take back his words and
actions. He hadn't meant to speak to her so harshly, hadn’t meant
to tell her about Van. He didn't talk about him. Not to Grim. Not
even to Tora.
He had been proud when Adana had chosen him
as her male, but he'd also known that it had more to do with him
being Emperor than him being a worthy male. Kim saw him as a worthy
male, but his actions weren't those of one. Would she forgive
him?
"I am sorry , Kim."
He said, moving cautiously towards her. "I should not have acted
like that. I should not have spoken like that to you."
"You were afraid I would drown."
"Yes, but that is still no excuse for what I
did."
"What did you do , Wray?"
"I touched you in anger. I shook you." Wray
felt his shame grow. "I upset you."
“That’s not why I’m upset , Wray.”
“It’s not?”
“No, I’m upset because you lost your
offspring because you lost your female… and because I’m
relieved.”
“What do you mean?” Wray looked at her
shocked.
“I’m sorry you lost your son , Wray. I can’t imagine how terrible that must have
been for you. It’s something I never want to experience, but I’m
also crying because I’m relieved that I don’t have to compete with
one of your females… and that shames me. If I truly loved you, I
would want you to be happy even if it wasn't with me.”
Wray didn’t know what to say. Never had a
female expressed herself to him thusly. That she would want him to
be happy… no matter who he was with . It was not only shocking, but also unheard of. A female always
expected to be the center of a male’s life, even though she would
not remain in it. She expected him to be gentle with her at all
times. He could never raise his voice to her, especially in anger
or she would become upset and seclude herself but those things had
not upset Kim. What upset her was that he might find her
lacking when compared to Adana.
“Kim…” Wray wrapped his arms around her
pulling her close again. “You mean so much more to me than Adana
ever did. Don’t you know that?” Bending his knees so he could look
her in the eye, he continued. “Have I failed you by not making you
understand how important you are to me? How much you mean to
me? If I have then the shame is mine, not yours.”
“I know what you’ve told me , Wray it’s just…”
“Just what , little
one?”
“Your world is so different than mine that I
sometimes find it hard to believe, like a mother abandoning her
child. It’s not that it doesn’t happen on Earth and it’s not like
there aren’t females who are with a male because of what he can
give her, but it’s not the norm and
chosen to rescue Tora first since he was Wray's successor, leaving
his younger brother to fend for himself until they could return.
They did not return in time.
"I'm so sorry , Wray." Kim found herself turning to him and the sadness in his eyes
caused her heart to ache. He had truly loved his son. "How old was
he?"
"Ten."
"His mother must have been heartbroken." Kim
knew what Wray had told her about Tornian females, but she still
found it hard to believe they had no feelings for their
offspring.
"Adana died not long after she presented
Van." Wray told her, thinking about his Empress. Would she have
been heartbroken at Van’s death as Kim seemed to think, or would it
have not mattered to her since her duty was done? Looking at Kim,
he could see she was truly upset he had lost offspring. Van
mattered to her even though she had never known him. If Van had
been hers, she would have been heartbroken.
"I... “Kim didn't know what to say, didn't
know how she felt. On one hand, she was sorry that Adana had died.
Wray had to have cared about her. On the other, she was relieved
that she wasn't still in his life. Tears
of shame filled Kim's eyes at her selfish thoughts. Wray had lost a
female, had lost a child and all she could think about was how it
affected her . S he hadn't changed at
all.
Wray wished he could take back his words and
actions. He hadn't meant to speak to her so harshly, hadn’t meant
to tell her about Van. He didn't talk about him. Not to Grim. Not
even to Tora.
He had been proud when Adana had chosen him
as her male, but he'd also known that it had more to do with him
being Emperor than him being a worthy male. Kim saw him as a worthy
male, but his actions weren't those of one. Would she forgive
him?
"I am sorry , Kim."
He said, moving cautiously towards her. "I should not have acted
like that. I should not have spoken like that to you."
"You were afraid I would drown."
"Yes, but that is still no excuse for what I
did."
"What did you do , Wray?"
"I touched you in anger. I shook you." Wray
felt his shame grow. "I upset you."
“That’s not why I’m upset , Wray.”
“It’s not?”
“No, I’m upset because you lost your
offspring because you lost your female… and because I’m
relieved.”
“What do you mean?” Wray looked at her
shocked.
“I’m sorry you lost your son , Wray. I can’t imagine how terrible that must have
been for you. It’s something I never want to experience, but I’m
also crying because I’m relieved that I don’t have to compete with
one of your females… and that shames me. If I truly loved you, I
would want you to be happy even if it wasn't with me.”
Wray didn’t know what to say. Never had a
female expressed herself to him thusly. That she would want him to
be happy… no matter who he was with . It was not only shocking, but also unheard of. A female always
expected to be the center of a male’s life, even though she would
not remain in it. She expected him to be gentle with her at all
times. He could never raise his voice to her, especially in anger
or she would become upset and seclude herself but those things had
not upset Kim. What upset her was that he might find her
lacking when compared to Adana.
“Kim…” Wray wrapped his arms around her
pulling her close again. “You mean so much more to me than Adana
ever did. Don’t you know that?” Bending his knees so he could look
her in the eye, he continued. “Have I failed you by not making you
understand how important you are to me? How much you mean to
me? If I have then the shame is mine, not yours.”
“I know what you’ve told me , Wray it’s just…”
“Just what , little
one?”
“Your world is so different than mine that I
sometimes find it hard to believe, like a mother abandoning her
child. It’s not that it doesn’t happen on Earth and it’s not like
there aren’t females who are with a male because of what he can
give her, but it’s not the norm and
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