hell am I supposed to face him again after last night? The alternative sounds worse though, avoiding him forever. Not to mention impossible.
I just need space for a little while to let everything blow over. Maybe that’s what he needs, too. It’s obvious he’s confused, he doesn’t really want me, not for anything other than a quick fuck. Guys like Ethan don’t just wake up one day and decide that they want a woman for more than a one night stand. Last night I’d gotten emotionally drawn into a fantasy when he’d said he hadn’t been with anyone else since we’d met. But, there’s no way it’s more than just a phase.
I’m hard to get, that’s why he thinks he wants me so badly. If I give it up he’ll be bored with me before our clothes are back on. And, since a fun, dirty time is never going to happen it’s better if I give him space. He can bang whoever he needs to until he’s okay with us just being friends. The idea of him with another girl brings bile into my throat.
What have I gotten myself into?
Chapter 15
Ethan
“So are you going to tell me what happened?” I flinch at Lee's accusatory tone.
“Nothing happened,” I grumble defensively as I fill a coffee mug and hand it to her.
“Then why did Abby sneak out of here at 6am like she was doing the walk of shame?” I flinch again. My heart sunk when I woke up to a cold bed instead of Abby still curled up beside me. I’d tried to convince myself that she just needed to get to the library really early. But, Lee confirmed my sneaking suspicion that Abby had, in fact, been avoiding me.
“Honestly, nothing happened. She was drunk and we kissed. She wanted more but I told her ‘no’. Then she fell asleep. That’s it,” I explain somberly.
Now I’m really glad I didn’t go through with sex like she had wanted. If she’s going to avoid me over a little kissing and grinding she probably would’ve been moved out by the time I woke up if we had fucked.
“Wow, there are so many things that don’t seem to belong in that sentence coming out of your mouth,” Lee marvels. “First of all, you kissed ?”
“Yeah, we kissed last week, too,” I admit.
Lee's mouth hangs open in disbelief.
“I thought that was the number one unbreakable rule in your book. I mean, your ‘one night only’ rule has exceptions if the girl seems capable of not forming an attachment. But, I thought that Jamie, that girl in high school you were obsessed with, was the only girl you’d ever kissed.”
“Ugh, yes, alright. I don’t know, there’s just something about Abby,” I rub my face in frustration. I hardly understand this myself, how does Lee expect me to explain it to her?
“And, since when do you turn down sex with a drunk chick?”
“That was a first,” I nod in agreement.
“So, do you like her?” She asks incredulously.
I fidget under her scrutiny. Lee has been my best friend since the minute she was born. There’s never been anything I haven’t told her. But, it feels like putting words to what I’m feeling towards Abby will give her the power to break my fucking heart. Who am I kidding, we’re already there.
“Yeah, I do.”
Lee chokes on the coffee she just took a sip of.
“Holy shit, have you told her?”
“No, she’s like a skittish stray cat. I don’t want to make any sudden movements and scare her away,” I say with a laugh.
Lee laughs and nods.
“Well, just give her time. I’m sure she’ll come around.”
Abby didn't respond to any of my texts today, including the witty zombie apocalypse ones that usually get her. I decided to cook dinner for her anyway in the hopes that she'll decide to come by. Since I can't actually cook anything, other than bacon and eggs, I decided to buy a frozen lasagna and garlic bread. It seemed easy but also gave the impression that cooking her dinner took some thought on my part. I never thought I'd be this awkward guy trying so hard to impress a girl. A tentative
I just need space for a little while to let everything blow over. Maybe that’s what he needs, too. It’s obvious he’s confused, he doesn’t really want me, not for anything other than a quick fuck. Guys like Ethan don’t just wake up one day and decide that they want a woman for more than a one night stand. Last night I’d gotten emotionally drawn into a fantasy when he’d said he hadn’t been with anyone else since we’d met. But, there’s no way it’s more than just a phase.
I’m hard to get, that’s why he thinks he wants me so badly. If I give it up he’ll be bored with me before our clothes are back on. And, since a fun, dirty time is never going to happen it’s better if I give him space. He can bang whoever he needs to until he’s okay with us just being friends. The idea of him with another girl brings bile into my throat.
What have I gotten myself into?
Chapter 15
Ethan
“So are you going to tell me what happened?” I flinch at Lee's accusatory tone.
“Nothing happened,” I grumble defensively as I fill a coffee mug and hand it to her.
“Then why did Abby sneak out of here at 6am like she was doing the walk of shame?” I flinch again. My heart sunk when I woke up to a cold bed instead of Abby still curled up beside me. I’d tried to convince myself that she just needed to get to the library really early. But, Lee confirmed my sneaking suspicion that Abby had, in fact, been avoiding me.
“Honestly, nothing happened. She was drunk and we kissed. She wanted more but I told her ‘no’. Then she fell asleep. That’s it,” I explain somberly.
Now I’m really glad I didn’t go through with sex like she had wanted. If she’s going to avoid me over a little kissing and grinding she probably would’ve been moved out by the time I woke up if we had fucked.
“Wow, there are so many things that don’t seem to belong in that sentence coming out of your mouth,” Lee marvels. “First of all, you kissed ?”
“Yeah, we kissed last week, too,” I admit.
Lee's mouth hangs open in disbelief.
“I thought that was the number one unbreakable rule in your book. I mean, your ‘one night only’ rule has exceptions if the girl seems capable of not forming an attachment. But, I thought that Jamie, that girl in high school you were obsessed with, was the only girl you’d ever kissed.”
“Ugh, yes, alright. I don’t know, there’s just something about Abby,” I rub my face in frustration. I hardly understand this myself, how does Lee expect me to explain it to her?
“And, since when do you turn down sex with a drunk chick?”
“That was a first,” I nod in agreement.
“So, do you like her?” She asks incredulously.
I fidget under her scrutiny. Lee has been my best friend since the minute she was born. There’s never been anything I haven’t told her. But, it feels like putting words to what I’m feeling towards Abby will give her the power to break my fucking heart. Who am I kidding, we’re already there.
“Yeah, I do.”
Lee chokes on the coffee she just took a sip of.
“Holy shit, have you told her?”
“No, she’s like a skittish stray cat. I don’t want to make any sudden movements and scare her away,” I say with a laugh.
Lee laughs and nods.
“Well, just give her time. I’m sure she’ll come around.”
Abby didn't respond to any of my texts today, including the witty zombie apocalypse ones that usually get her. I decided to cook dinner for her anyway in the hopes that she'll decide to come by. Since I can't actually cook anything, other than bacon and eggs, I decided to buy a frozen lasagna and garlic bread. It seemed easy but also gave the impression that cooking her dinner took some thought on my part. I never thought I'd be this awkward guy trying so hard to impress a girl. A tentative
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