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green, but the whole thing is stained black with permanent marker now. I stare at the Patti photo grid and frown. Sometimes it would be nice to just have a mirror.
The doorbell rings. I hear Mom get up, and listen to her exchange cautious pleasantries with Mateo. I wonder if sheâs running through a catalogue of faces, trying to recall if she should know this boy from school plays or games or field trips. I wonder if she is afraid my heart will be on my sleeve, or if sheâd rather see it broken than not beating at all. I wonder if sheâs hoping heâs a promise of better days.
I donât let myself wonder anything else.
âWeâre watching Alexâs game. Back later,â I say without stopping, pulling Mateo outside with me. His hand stays in mine a second too long. My skin tingles like a new lifeline was carved with the trace of his finger.
âI like soccer,â he says to break the silence. âI played when I was younger. But then I got too busy with cooking and school, plus I play basketball too. Still like to watch, thoughâ¦â
His head bobs with the beat of some pop-ish love song on the radio. The window is down. I let my hand surf waves of warm air. This is what life felt like, I think, back before it happened. This. Normal. Happy.
We pull into the parking lot just as Nat is stepping out of her car.
âNatalie, right?â Mateo says, flicking his head in her direction. Her hair is pulled back in a high ponytail. Sheâs wearing a green and yellow Hornets T-shirt, which is what all the girlfriends on Alexâs soccer team wear to games. She waves.
âMateo?â she asks, and Iâm reminded just how talented of an actress she is. âNat. Nice to see you outside of a kitchen. Hey, Anna.â
I give her a quick squeeze, like this is what we do.
âYeah, nice to see you girls in Technicolor,â he says with a grin.
Nat throws back her head and laughs. It reminds me of Sameera.
âI like him,â Nat says, as if Mateo isnât standing right next to me. She winks and walks ahead of us. I shake my head and make a mental note to strangle her later.
The team is already on the field, doing their ritual warmups. I know the whole sequence from when Joe used to play. They lift their legs in a sort of high march-skip, moving toward the bleachers and then dropping to the ground for five push-ups before gathering into a circle to dodge and weave in place. I look over at Mateo and roll my eyes.
âI used to find this hilarious. They look ridiculous out there.â
âUsed to?â He cocks his eyebrow. âCome to a lot of games with Nat? Or did you have a boy on this team too?â
âNat. I donât have another connection to soccer,â I say a little too quickly. I donât glance over, but I know Natâs shot me a curious look. Weâve always been able to do this tooâfeel what the other is thinking without having to confirm it. I lean against her as an answer.
âNat and Alex have been together a long time. That equates to a lot of âGo Hornetsâ cheers along the way. Itâs like a prerequisite of being a best friend, you know, to be the supportive wing-woman. I could probably go out there and play as good as those boys just from watching. Or not, since I spend most of my time buying popcorn, eating the popcorn, buying more popcorn, and then running for a slushie because salt levels have caused my body to go into full dehydration mode. Yup. Love soccer games.â
I pull my sleeve up for a second, glance at the reminder I wrote to keep from yapping away.
And what I donât want to say is this: sitting beside Nat on the third row of cold metal bleachers brings me back to last year, when Alexâs team broke out of its normal warm-up to form a human version of the number four. They stood there, staring straight ahead, while the speaker above announced a moment of silence for Joe
Matt Kadey
Brenda Joyce
Stephen G. Michaud, Roy Hazelwood
Kathy Lette
S. Ravynheart, S.A. Archer
Walter Mosley
Robert K. Tanenbaum
T. S. Joyce
Sax Rohmer
Marjorie Holmes