out a long sigh. âI know,â she says, clutching her coffee cup with both hands. âItâs a terrible thing.â
I look at her. Which terrible thing is she talking about? Lord knows thereâs so many, itâs hard to pick just one. Iâm fretting over that antenna and how it attracted the lightning, but still I shouldnât have made Lottie bake those pies. Iâm thinking on Lottie staying at Melissaâs and what if they become better friends than me and Lottie, but Iâd rather be her second best friend than have her move away. And on top of that, on top of all of that, Melissaâs got me soâs I have to think twice about Eddie every time I see him.
Everything normal is slipping away. Donât tell me not to worry. How can I not worry with this mishmash of troubles?
My chest heaves with a long sigh. I got to pick one thing to stew over and right now, thatâs Lottie and her family.
âWhat are they going to do, Momma?â My eyes get wet as I wait for her answer, but I donât let myself cry.
She sits down and puts her hand on top of mine. She shakes her head. âI donât know.â
My heart twists when she says that. When somethingâs fixable, grown-ups say hopeful things like, âItâll be okay,â or âDonât you worry yourself over that,â but when a grown-up says âI donât know,â you got yourself something to worry about. I hang my head. âWhat can I do?â
Momma reaches over and rubs my shoulders before getting up. âYou can pray for them,â she says. She pats me on the back and leaves the room.
I sit there, holding the pen. Oh, Lord, I say. Not out loud, âcause He can hear you when youâre talking just in your mind. But I donât get no further than that. I donât know what to ask Him to do.
Then it comes to me. Mr. Townsendâs writing letters, but no oneâs writing back. He doesnât know Melissaâs secret. I grab a pad of paper and start a letter to our newspaper. I know they help people, âcause they always got those funds going at Christmas and during hurricane season for people in need.
When I grab the newspaper, it falls open to Todayâs Word: jubilant, which means joyful, full of happiness. I tear jubilant out and add it to my word collection. Even though I am the exact opposite of jubilant, I can see itâs a good word. It sounds like candy, something colorful and sweet you can chew on for a long time.
Flipping around the newspaper, I find the place they list the names of the writers. One manâs name is on top. I figure heâs the most important person at the paper, so I address my letter to him and write the first sentence: My best friendâs house got struck by lightning and they are people in need.
I describe Lottieâs family and how they are all split up right now and how they canât possibly move because that would be the worst thing in the world. Describing the lightningâs easy; describing everything else is harder. I use my best handwriting.
I look the letter over real good. Only one thingâs missing now. I dash out of the kitchen and into the dining room where Momma keeps my school picture in a frame. Sliding it out carefully, I run back and seal my picture and my letter in an envelope. Tomorrow morning, I will mail it.
23
I am inside the cave, listening. The river bubbles nearby. A heron cackles as he flies over. Then the breeze rustles through the trees; thatâs my favorite part because of the hollow sound it makes inside the cave.
Iâm here because Iâm thinking. School is fixing to start in a few weeks. I make a list in my head of the good things and a list of the bad things. Good things: riding the busâI never done that before. Sharing a lockerâme and Lottie will be lockermates and weâre going to put up one of those little chalkboards inside and write each other notes.
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