donât know if itâs Mac or not.â
âItâs Mac, if itâs Apple. What software?â
âI donât know. I donât know these kind of things, Lewis.â
âWell, it doesnât matter. Itâs all more or less the same in a WP programme. I can familiarise myself with it in two minutes. Itâs a good idea, isnât it?â
She smiled at me and said: âMaybe itâs better if Alice helps me . . .â
âBut then she wonât be able to get on with her translation, Valentina. Thatâs stupid. I canât translate your book, but I could help you with typing.â
âNot really, darling. It has to be Alice . . .â
I hated her going on about wanting Alice. I wanted her to want me. âLet me try,â I said. âLetâs try tomorrow, and if Iâm no good you can get someone else.â
âPerhaps I can still type with just my left hand?â
âNo, you canât. This system will be much faster, and itâs nearly August. Weâve only got about a month left.â
She sighed at that point. Her sighs were very heavy, like some of the grimy Russian air was still in her lungs. Then she said to me in a whisper: âYouâve forgotten one thing, Lewis.â
âNo, I havenât,â I said. âWhat have I forgotten?â
âIâm writing in French.â
It was true. I had forgotten that. Once again, Iâd ignored what was prime. An English boy struggling with Le Grand Meaulnes would be a pitiful assistant to a French novelist. I couldnât believe Iâd suggested such an idiotic thing. My love for Valentina was turning me into a moron.
I got up and walked around the room, looking at Valentinaâs things â her hairbrushes and her lamps and her photograph frames and her pots of flowers â and noticing that they were all heavy and expensive. I wanted to hurl one of them at the wall.
After a bit, Valentina said: âDonât be upset, Lewis. You can help me in other ways.â
âI wanted to be your secretary!â I shouted.
âNever mind about that,â said Valentina, trying to soothe me. âNow I want to ask you something important. Come here, darling, please.â
I could tell it was going to be something about Alice and it was, so I didnât move, but just stayed looking at all the perfume bottles on Valentinaâs dressing table and at her mirror, which was draped with beads and chiffon scarves.
Valentina wanted to know why Alice was angry with her. I wasnât interested in this and I didnât want to talk about it, but eventually, with my back turned, I said: âYou shouldnât take any notice of Aliceâs moods.â
âBut what have I done to her?â
âNothing. Sheâs always a bit like that, wanting to do things on her own. Itâs just her stubborn Scottish character.â
âBut you know Iâm very fond of Alice, darling. And if sheâs going to be so cross all the time, Iâm going to be unhappy.â
âDonât be,â I said impatiently. âSheâs just like that . Thereâs no point in being upset.â
âThe thing is . . . I donât know what Iâve done.â
âYou havenât done anything. I told you. Itâs Aliceâs way . . .â
âBut it never was before. And when she goes out alone, like that, where does she go, Lewis?â
âI donât know. She maybe goes to a café or to the park, or something. Sheâs fond of just sitting and thinking, which is why Dadâs building the hut for her.â
âBuilding a hut?â
I hadnât intended to mention this. I suppose I brought it up to distract Valentina from her questions about Alice and return her to some subject that had more to do with me, but as soon as I said it I regretted it.
âDonât mention it to Alice,â I said.
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