became as restive and indecisive as an army with no option of retreat.
What Seyit Lutfullah really wanted was the power to unlock the mystery of the universe and thus gain spiritual control over matter. âGold is not to be made in an alembic but forged of the soul. How much of it is already in the earth? The problem is to produce it without using our hands,â he would say.
But when leading experiments in the secret laboratory behind Aristidi Efendiâs pharmacy, surrounded by alembics and vials and various bottles and stills, he was ready to try anything, aswere all the others; heâd present Aristidi Efendi with questionable formulae fished from old manuscripts, and heated arguments would ensue, often lasting days.
Through these battles, Aristidi Efendiâs well-mannered European patience and indulgence were challenged by Seyit Lutfullahâs humility, as well as his proud and powerful hold on the spiritual world, and the two opposing powers swirled around each other as if melding in a great cauldron set over an open fire. All I remember of the great debates I myself witnessed are Lutfullahâs favorite terms: âpurification,â âputrefactionâ âthickening,â âmarriage,â âbirth,â âdissolution,â and âconnectionsâ; they shimmered like doors to a greater world, answering only to powerful displays of will.
And yet we have all witnessed, in the most unexpected of circumstances, such doors bursting open before us. Aristidi Efendi (who liked to claim all the glory for these experiments, despite the fact that they were funded mainly by Abdüsselam Bey) was working alone one night when an alembic cracked and his laboratory went up in flames. Only an hour later did the fire department and neighborhood volunteers make it to the scene and find the body of Aristidi Efendi half-consumed by the fire. It was February 1912 , and with Aristidi Efendiâs death all effort to make gold in an alembic came to an end. And so the only hope that remained for the small group was the treasure.
VIII
But why have I burdened my chronicle of the Time Regulation Institute with these distant reveries? And why have I allowed myself to be seized by these shadows of the past? People today fail to grasp the importance of such questions. They overlook the truths and absurdities that lie beneath. I myself am now far too old to take pleasure in visits to the past or even, for that matter, from simple reminiscing. But even so, there is no disputing the fact that from the moment Halit Ayarcı came into my life I became a new man. I became more at ease withreality, more accustomed to confronting it. Indeed the man created a whole new life for me. I now feel distant from all these characters and long-ago events; a part of me has turned away from the past, though I still claim it as my own. But however I might regret it, I cannot explain myself without looking back. I lived among these men for years and with them chased after their dreams. There were times when I even dressed like them, adopting aspects of their personalities. Without my quite knowing, I would on occasion even
become
Nuri Efendi or Abdüsselam Bey or, yes, even Seyit Lutfullah. They were my models, the masks I hardly knew to be masks. I would don one personality or another before heading out to mingle with the crowds. And still today when I look in the mirror I can see these men reflected in my face. First I see Nuri Efendiâs indulgent smile, and then Lutfullahâs deceitful gaze, and I shudder at the thought of the horrible things I might have done. Or I am devastated to detect the desperate jealousy and impatience of my father. I can see these menâs traits in my attire too. The moment I put on a suit sewn for me by one of those celebrated tailors, I can be no other than Abdüsselam. And just the other day I noticed I needed new spectacles: off I went to look for a new pair with gold
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