right a tight-lipped man and his son argued over car insurance.
âIâm sorry,â Haslam said, catching my eye, keeping his voice low. âThis seems soâI donât knowâcrazy. Going to work, going to lunch, with Valerie missing.â He shook his head and repeated the word. ââMissing.â It sounds so stupid, so melodramatic.â He rubbed his forehead with his hands, circling his temples with his fingertips. âI canât do any good staying home. I know that. This morning I drove around before I went to the office, looking for her. And why would she hang out near my office unless she wants me to find her? And if she wants me to find her, why doesnât she come home?â
He had a faint nervous tic on the left side of his jaw. On closer inspection he fit pretty neatly into the âdistraughtâ category. He just put up a better front than most.
He extended both hands, stared at them like they belonged to somebody else, and folded them on the table. Then he sucked in a couple of deep breaths. âExcuse me,â he said, his voice calmer. âIâm Preston Haslam. Thatâs how I meant to start.â
His handshake was firm and cool.
He leaned closer to me, spoke softly and quickly. âIâm grateful to Jerry for hiring you. But now that Iâm backâI mean, Jerryâs a kid. Iâd like to join him or replace him or whatever. No conflict of interest. We both want you to find my daughter. Iâd just like to, well, take over. His family wouldnât miss the money or anything, but itâs not right. They shouldnât be paying for my family. Okay?â
âDid you talk this over with Jerry?â
âYeah. Sure. Can I write you a check or what? Jerry said five hundred for a retainer.â He had his checkbook out on the table. He hunched over it like he was hiding evidence of a drug deal.
âLetâs talk first,â I said to slow him down. I wondered if he always spoke at top speed or if it was another sign of nervousness. âWhen did you see Jerry?â
âI see him all the time. Heâs out in the driveway trying to make his old hulk of a car work. I wave to him in the morning and heâs still there at night.â
âDo you think he could be feeling, uh, guilty about Valerie?â
His hand hesitated over the checkbook. âWell, if he did, that would make two of us,â he said, glancing up abruptly. Beneath the glasses he had soft brown eyes, long-lashed. âLook, you want a drink? Iâm going to have a bourbon and water. I donât usually, butââ He waved and the waiter flew over, took my order for a screwdriverâorange juice for breakfast, right?âand Haslamâs Jim Beam.
âWhy should Jerry feel guilty?â Haslam asked, picking up where heâd left off. âHeâs a terrific kid, like a brother to Valerie.â
I said, âWhy do you feel guilty?â
He finished writing, ripped the check out, and replaced the folder in his breast pocket. âBecause I didnât know,â he said more slowly. âIâve been in Chicago the past week, on business.â
âYour wife didnât mention it?â
âMy wife is notâwell, sheâs not in good health. I try to avoid traveling, but sometimes I have to go.â
Our drinks came with the soup. The screwdriver was strong. Haslam drank his bourbon like a thirsty man.
âWhat is it you do?â I asked. Iâm always interested in the occupations of people who can write five-hundred-dollar checks without looking worried, and pay tuition at places like the Emerson.
âInvestments,â he said. âStockbroking, analysis. A little work with the commodities market. Thatâs why I had to be in Chicago. Itâs mostly plodding stuff, but Iâm good at it. I canât let this business at home get to me at work,â he said as if he was trying to convince
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