past the arch into the glare of a long corridor studded with doors. Unlocking one at the end, he shoved me in, over a heap of legs stretched out on the floor.
A wave of grumbling met me. âTake more care!â
âKeep your damn boots to yourself!â
âHush up, there. Settle down.â
Somebody pointed to the corner in which a bucket leaked in stinking pools onto the floor.
âI canât sit there.â
âThen stand.â
Within a minute the mass of bodies had settled back to how they were when I came stumbling in. I leaned against the wall, realizing with a fearful drop in spirits that, just as my entrance into the cell meant nothing to anyone in it, so my disappearance from the life outside meant nothing to anyone either. As easily as those on the communal farm had accepted that Iâd been âsentâ, so theyâd accept that I would not come back. Already I could hear the whisper with which they would distance themselves from any more thought on the matter. âPavel? A shame. Heseemed a nice enough boy. But he must have done
something.
â
Such was the power of Father Trofim. After all, everyone knew Galina was good and loyal. They had no reason to think worse of me. But still I knew that almost all of them would find it easier to think that she and I (and all the hundreds of thousands of others) had betrayed Father Trofim, rather than risk for a moment daring to think that things were the other way round: that
he
had betrayed
us.
And I admit I didnât feel that my life was over. (Maybe I was too young.) Deep down, I still believed that somebody â soon â would take the trouble to review my case and listen to my story. I couldnât for a moment really believe that I had been shunted, like some old railway truck, into the dead-end siding of quite the wrong life. Indeed, after the storm of beatings, there was a strange sort of tranquillity about the cell, as if the very stones of its walls were telling me, âFor now, the worst has happened. Leave anguish to others. Itâs safe to shut your eyes.â
So, in fits and starts, I slept.
By morning the seat of my trousers was stuck to the floor. The stench from the bucket was making me, and those around me, retch. Each time one of the other prisoners came over to add to the overflowingpail in one way or the other I struggled manfully to get further away, but found myself firmly held in place by the press of bodies around me.
Forty-two men in a cell with bed boards for six.
No. Forty-five. Three darkened heaps Iâd taken to be bundles of possessions suddenly stirred into life.
âHow many new in the night?â
âJust the boy.â
They all knew where to look. The one whoâd asked the question spoke directly to me. âYes, yes. Itâs not a dream. Everything around you is real.â
Someone else asked, âSentenced?â
âTen years,â I told them in tones of deep self-pity, and was astonished to find my words greeted with incredulity and laughter.
âTen years!â
âTen!â
A young man with scrubbing-brush hair and freckles over his broad face was staring at me with envy. âOnly
ten
?â
âItâs a boyâs sentence,â someone beside him explained.
He gave me a scowl so deep that youâd have thought I chose my own sentence. âLucky to be so wet behind the ears,â he growled. âTen years indeed!â He caught my stare. âYes! Look me in the eye! Iâmgiven twenty-five for âhaving an underground weapons arsenalâ. Know what that means?â
I shook my head.
âIt means that when they turned the ridges of our cabbage patch, they found some rusty old knife.â He groaned. âTwenty-five years! All of us! Mother, sisters â everyone!â
Beside him on the bunk, a gaunt-faced man said, almost conversationally, âOnce, if a man were given such a sentence, the crowds would
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