Stacyâs extraordinary look when she got back from vacation. Completely renewed! Sheâd been a middle-aged middle-class frump, worn down by four kids, and now her short cut had transformed her into a pretty, sporty, go-get-âem blonde. At the time I suspected her of having cut her hair in order to distract attention from some successful cosmetic surgeryâthatâs what all my friends do when theyâve had a faceliftâbut, once Iâd satisfied myself that her face had not undergone any sort of surgical act, I acknowledged that she had found the ideal hairstylist.
âIdeal, darling, absolutely ideal. The Atelier Capillaire on the rue Victor Hugo. Iâd already heard about it a while ago but you know how it is, same thing with our hairdressers as with our husbands: we can go for years thinking weâve got the best one around!â
I refrained from making any sarcastic remarks about the vanity of the name of the placeââCapillary Studio,â indeedâbut just wrote down that I had to ask for David and tell him Stacy sent meââHeâs a genius, darling, an absolute genius.â
That very evening, I warned Samuel about my upcoming metamorphosis.
âI think Iâm going to change my hairstylist.â
He looked at me with surprise for a few seconds.
âWhat for? Youâre fine as you are.â
âOh, yes, I know youâre always pleased with me like this, you never criticize me.â
âYou can fault me with being an unquestioning admirer . . . But what is it you donât like about your look?â
âNothing in particular. I just need a change.â
He took careful note of my declaration as if beyond its frivolity lay some deeper consideration; and his watchful stare drove me to change the topic of conversation and then to leave the room, because I had no desire to offer myself up as subject matter for his perspicacity. While my husbandâs redeeming feature may be his extreme attentiveness toward my person, at times this weighs upon me: my most insignificant words are parsed, analyzed, decrypted to such a degree that to make light of it I often tell my girlfriends that I feel like Iâve married my psychoanalyst.
âDonât complain!â they all say. âYouâve got money, heâs good-looking, heâs intelligent, he loves you, and he listens to everything you say! What more do you want? Children?â
âNo, not yet.â
âThen youâve got every reason to be happy.â
Every reason to be happy. Are there any other platitudes I hear more often than this one? Do people say this just as often when referring to others, or do they just use it for my sake? The moment I start expressing myself with even a hint of freedom, I get the phrase tossed into my face: âYou have every reason to be happy.â Itâs as if people were shouting at meââShut up, you have no right to complainââthen slamming the door in my face. And yet I have no intention of complaining, Iâm just trying to give accurateâand humorousâexpression to slight feelings of discomfort. Maybe itâs something to do with the tone of my voice, similar to my motherâs, a little damp and whiny, that gives people the impression Iâm complaining? Or could it be that my status as a rich well-married heiress precludes me from sharing any sort of complex thoughts in public? Once or twice I was afraid that in spite of myself I might let my secret transpire through my words. But this fear hardly lasted longer than a shiver, for I am sure that I can control myself to perfection. With the exception of Samuel and myselfâand a few specialists, silenced by professional discretionânot a soul knows of my secret.
Thus, I went to the Atelier Capillaire on the rue Victor Hugo and, honestly, I had to keep focused on the miracle theyâd performed on Stacy in order to put up with the
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