chest heaving.
A pinprick of light blinks into existence above her head, like the first star in the night sky. She makes a wish, chances a look down. Sees only darkness. Maybe she imagined the footfalls, after all. Maybe she only dreamed the heavy breathing, thebroken headlamp, the long, shadowy legs rooted just outside the circle of her light. She keeps climbing.
Soon she can see her hands on the rungs, her knuckles white when they close around the cold steel. She can almost feel the rosy warm touch of the sun on her cheeks. She tells herself,
The burning in your arms and legs is nothing to what youâd feel if you were burning up in the fire. Nothing like what Johnny felt
.
When she finally reaches the top she stands, hollow and heaving, on the ledge beneath the Plexiglas and wire grating of the trap door that covers the escapeway. Through the glass she can see the rafters of the building that houses the escapeway. Her hands find the trap doorâs latch. She pushes up.
Nothing happens.
Roxane tries again, heaving with her shoulder. The trap door is stuck. She knows something must be wrongâthe escapeway is always open. She pulls a flashlight out of her pocket and shines it through the Plexiglas, shimmying along the ledge, twisting the beam this way and that to try to see whatâs blocking the trap door. The light refracts strangely around the trap doorâs edges, turning thick and sluggish like the Plexiglas is coated with lacquer.
âItâs ice,â Roxane realizes. Frozen shut. Maybe a water main broke; maybe there was a leak in the roof. The mechanics were supposed to check the escapeways but so many things had been going wrong in the mine lately that they must have forgotten.
Sheâd have to wait.
Eventually, when they couldnât find her underground, the Mine Rescue teams would search. Theyâd check everywhere. Nobody disappears in a goldmine.
Except the shadowy man
, Roxane thinks. Did she hear the scrape of a boot on the rungs of the ladder, just outside of the light that arcs down from the trap door? She looks down into the darkness. Wonders if someone is staring up at her.
âWycliffe?â she calls.
Thereâs no one
, she tells herself.
Wycliffe is dead
.
She could climb back down the ladder, use the breather to get back to the refuge. But the fire might be worse; she might get lost in the smoke. She knows now that she should have stayed, clayed up the door like Wycliffe said. But she couldnât stand the thought of being trapped inside the rock while the world outside was burning. Itâs better to be trapped by ice than by rock, she thinksâat least thereâs light.
But it isnât sunlight. The golden fluorescence shining down through the Plexiglas turns the skin of her hands sickly yellow, making her feel like an insect suspended in amber. She remembers what Gloria said:
You can put whateverâs in your head into that dark space in front of your eyes. And once itâs there it never goes away again
.
Is it Johnny on the ladder? Roxane wonders. Is he the one whoâs been stalking her in the dark?
A boot scrapes on the rungs again. And now she can hear the deep, wheezing breaths of someone just below her, just out of sight.
âJohnny?â she whispers.
â
It was only a few days after her seventeenth birthday that she found out she was pregnant with Johnnyâs child. Theyâd only had one night together. And now he was leaving for California; heâd be gone for months. He wasnât returning her calls.
Sheâd climbed over the wire fence that marked the borders of her parentsâ land, ran out into the forest, first following an old bridle-path, then the pipeline, the sand smooth and firm beneath her feet. She stopped to catch her breath only when she couldnât breathe, lying with her shoulder blades pressed upon a bare slope of granite, her flesh and the rock made unbearably hot by the sun. If she
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