white.
âThereâs no inside handle,â Nancy said.
The doorframe was slightly lower and narrower than the other doors because it matched the cupboard door on the other side of the fireplace. It was a pretend door in a way that sheâd liked as a child. It looked like a cupboard but wasnât. It was like the bell pushes in each room that looked as if they would ring like a bell, but theyâd all been disconnected and didnât make any sound anywhere. She still liked to push them.
She thought her way into the room. About eight foot long by six foot across, a tiny window near the top of the far wall, no fireplace. Apart from the new little kitchen and the lobby it must be the only room without a fireplace downstairs.
âThere were always boxes of crisps in there and it smelled of apples, even when theyâd all been eaten. Sacks of potatoes. I think thereâd been meat in there once. Did it get used as a cold store for meat?â
Bernie had looked away now, her mouth covered by a hand. She was blinking a lot, as if there was a light shining into her eyes, but the sun had even left the rooftops now.
âAre you crying?â
âGo in the room.â
Nancy scraped her chair back, opened the door and walked into the room. It still smelled of apples.
âYou donât remember anything do you?â said Bernie.
Nancy shook her head, âNothing else. I really donât, except it was kept locked a lot.â She didnât think that sheâd ever looked out of the window. Sheâd never been tall enough. She walked across now and saw the vegetable bed, overgrown with tassels of fennel, in front of the hedge. A sparrow flew out, tweeting. In Michigan sheâd been astonished by scarlet blackbirds, black squirrels and actual chipmunks which ran across the ground in front of you. Sheâd forgotten how pretty a sparrow was.
She turned back to the table. Bernie had gone, but that didnât surprise her. She became overwhelmed by the fear that Bernie was standing on the other side of the door, ready to close it on her. There was no door handle after all. She lunged for the doorway and stepped through with a sense of relief but, as she shut the door on the icy room, she realised that she must have forgotten something about that room. Something had made her not want to get shut in.
She sat back at the table. She would ask Bernie but knew that she had failed the test. Elian had gone on at length about how normal Bernie had been, how heâd never have suspected, how she hid or coped with her âmental health problemsâ well. Nancy wasnât so sure. There were glimpses of that other Bernie, asking the unanswerable, disappearing from the room. She wasnât going to chase Bernie around the house.
She realised with a start that she didnât know where Hurley was. She checked the front room and the best room, then the bedrooms. From Hurleyâs back bedroom she saw them coming back through the archway. Hurley sat on the back door step watching Donn fill the peat basket outside the back door. Nancy exhaled and tried to relax her shoulders. She went back to the parlour trying to think about the last time sheâd not consciously thought of him or been brought back to the thought of him somehow.
Nancy boiled the kettle in the kitchen and was about to offer Donn a cup of tea when she realised that Hurley and Donn were talking. Neither of them had said more than half a dozen words a day to her, or to Elian, unless they were absolutely forced to. What on earth could two such silent people have to say to each other?
She gazed out at them in surprise before finishing her own cup of tea. At the table she pulled the chair up by the window so it didnât squeak on the tiles and sat down as slowly as she could. And then she listened.
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