it was listed the name of every pilot in the group who had ever had a confirmed claim in Korea. Small red stars marked them. There were separate columns for aircraft destroyed, probably destroyed, and damaged, but it was only the first column that really counted. His eye moved down the trail of names. Many of them he did not recognize. They had left the group long before. Some belonged to dead men. There was Robeyâs, with five stars after it. Nolan had three. Bengert, seven. Imil, six. Tonneson had thirteen, two full lines on the board. And there was his own name with one, and Pellâs. Cleve had seen men come in every day to glance at this board and admire their names on it. It was the roll of honor. Hunter had once told him that he would rather have his there than anything else in the world. It was absurd, and yet impressive.
Anything that men would willingly die for had to be considered seriously. From this board, perhaps, or one like it, could come names a nation would seize in its appetite for heroes. For a truly singular record there might be lasting fame.
Abrupt voices interrupted his thoughts. They had seen something up north. Cleve moved quickly to the radio. He turned up the volume.
â. . . at twelve oâclock, Blue Lead,â somebody said.
âRoger, I have them.â
âFour more at ten high.â
It was garbled for a moment. They were all talking at once.
âThey look like MIGs.â
âI donât have them now.â
âOne oâclock! One oâclock!â someone called.
There was brief, unbearable silence. Then, âTheyâre MIGs! Drop tanks, Blue.â
The air filled with voices blocking one another out. He heard other flights cleaning up their airplanes and joining the fight. He had a sensation of drowning, of everything starting to go the wrong way. He felt a terrible impotence. The transmissions overlapped crazily It was difficult to follow what was happening, but somebody had gotten one. He heard a sharp call:
âHeâs bailing out! There goes the chute!â
He sat quietly, overcome with depression. He tried to rationalize: it was over so little, like a child who has not been invited to a party, brooding. Nothing would help him, though. He listened in despair. The cries of those triumphant beat on him like waves of nausea.
Colonel Imil came in. He frequently dropped by to check on a missionâs progress if he was not flying himself.
âHello, Cleve,â he said. âHowâs it going up there?â
âTerrible.â
âWhat do you mean? Whatâs wrong?â
âNothing. Theyâre in a fight.â
âA big one?â
âItâs hard to tell, Colonel. It sounds pretty big.â
âThey get any?â
âOne at least,â Cleve said. âMaybe more.â
âNothing wrong with that.â
They sat listening together, but not much came over the air. The fight had already begun to dissipate. Like a storm, it was preceded and followed by incongruous calm. The colonel tried the volume control. It was full high.
âIt must be over already,â he said. âDo you know who got them?â
âCouldnât hear.â
âWhoâs flying?â He walked over and read a scheduling board. He grunted. âNobody much. Maybe Moncavage did some good. Heâs got a chance with that line-up, anyway.â
âMaybe,â Cleve said. âMy flight is up there.â
âWhich is that? DeLeo?â
Cleve nodded.
âI canât place him right off. He hasnât done much, has he?â
âNot yet.â
âIs he any good?â
âIf he gets the chance.â
âWell, weâll see. Maybe this was it for him.â
âHeâs due.â
Imil gestured toward the claims board.
âThatâs what I judge by,â he said. âThatâs where it shows. You
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