Astoria,â the agent said. âBeyond that, I canât tell you much more than that he signed his name William Mueller. No local address and no next of kin.â
âCould he be going up north to find work in the woods?â
âNot likely. He looked pretty well off. Wore an expensive business suit and carried a briefcase.â
âDoes he have any baggage? A suitcase, trunk?â
âNothing but the briefcase. Why do you ask?â
âSeems a bit strange,â the Captain commented. âA well-dressed man heading north with no baggage, no particular destination. And on the
Caspar
? Whatâs he look like?â
âHeâs about your height, gray haired, thin. He sounds educated and speaks in a very low voice.â The agent paused. âCome to think of it, I canât remember his face except that it seemed kind of pale. Heâll be boarding around noon so youâll see for yourself.â He paused again. âBy the way, he wants a cabin to himself on the lee side of the ship. Says he has an aversion to the wind.â
The Captain explained that since he had never expected to see a passenger again, all the cabins had been taken over for use as paint lockers and general stowage rooms. âWhether or not an accommodation can be made ready on the lee side depends on the whim of the wind. At this time of year, thatâs about as trustworthy as the
Caspar
herself.â
The agent laughed and said he didnât see why it should make much difference anyway.
Though the Captain enjoyed meeting new people, especially from far off places and with interesting backgrounds, the prospect of a stranger aboard, whose suspect appearanceaugured trouble, exacerbated his present frustrations. And heâd had enough of those. He had been on the move since before dawn hurrying about from the engine room to the machine shop, to the welders, to the company office and back, lifting, carrying, and overseeing things too urgent to be relegated to anyone but himself. In addition to all this, he had personally taken on the job of cleaning and preparing the passengerâs cabin for occupancy. A younger man would have found the work hard, the problems difficult. At his age, they were nothing less than exhausting. Now he wished only to rest and to lose himself for a time in dreamless sleep.
From the bridge came the muted clang of the shipâs clock. Twelve-thirty. He yawned and closed his book. Two, maybe three hours before sailing. He yawned again, deeply, and shut his eyes. Instantly a kaleidoscope of ghastly scenes flashed through his mindâred flames leaping from the forward hold, a manâs arm being torn off in the gears of the windlass. Nameless fears projected themselves visually as infantile memories emerged in vivid detailâa snarling beast springing at him from a dark doorway, a dead man sprawled in a gutter. . . . It was as if all the terrifying experiences in his life were disgorged en masse onto his unprotected consciousness. He longed to rest, and above all, to halt the unprecedented torrent that swept out of nowhere, and like the descending course of his life, raced on without cause or purpose. He was too tired to move and too mentally drained to break the savage continuum.
Yet, despite his inner turbulence, he was not unaware that these rampant feelings, unleashed in a moment of high vulnerability, were the accumulated anxieties of a lifetime of hurrying about, of getting things done, of keeping himself busy searching for answers. With a supreme effort, heopened his eyes. The brilliant sunlight, the comforting reality of the windblown smoke now thinned to a light brown haze, and the tarpaulin covered forehatch battened down and ready for sea, quickly dispelled the morbid flux within him.
A feeling of tranquility came over him, and with it, an almost mystic sense of expectation. It was as if he were on the verge of a momentous revelation in which the
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