tattered scarecrow in my worn, out of fashion, clothing that’s too large for me and my uneven, straggly haircut. The last time I had my hair done by a professional was when I was still in college. That’s a sad testament to my life. “What kind of stone is this?” “Hang on a minute.” I go to my coat and rummage through my pocket until I land on my calendar. Hidden under the plastic flap is the note I found on the necklace as well as my father’s notes. I hand them to Kade and let him read them. He recites the first one out loud. “‘To the keeper: wear at all times. Let not it fall into false hands lest ye face universal destruction.’ Have you ever exposed this to heat, cold, darkness and light?” “At first I exposed it to sunlight and it changed colors. After that, I just put it around my neck and wore it all the time. It frightened me so I was afraid to do anything else.” “This is what they’re after,” Kade says. “That was my thought, but why not just knock me down and take it? They have to know I have it. They could search me and find it in a matter of seconds.” “Good question. You just blew my theory.” “And what the heck is it anyway?” “Not sure. But it may have been important enough for your family to die over.” This conversation addles me too much to sit. I hop to my feet and pace. The first place I land is at the window. Then a thought strikes me. “We need to look out the front. I bet there are footprints there, too.” Kade moves like a panther, smooth and with stealth. His shirt clings to his muscle clad body and my own body responds. I hate myself at this moment. I shouldn’t be thinking of this right now. I just put his life in danger by telling him about me. I need to focus. He’s booted up with a jacket on and out the front door. In scant minutes he’s back inside, depositing his outerwear and heading to his office. I follow him. His hands speed across the keyboard, almost as fast as mine would and I ask myself if there’s anything he’s incapable of. Yes. Preventing my imminent death. “Same as in the back. Footprints but no evidence of anyone producing them.” “I’m not surprised.” “Emmalia, this makes no sense.” “I really hate that name.” “Emmalia?” “Yeah. When I came up with the idea to join the convent, I needed to change my name, so I came up with Emmalia. Emmalia Bradford. I found some skeezy dude in Chicago to create fake ID’s for me. A birth certificate and passport. He even had a way of getting me a bona fide social security number. Then I had him forge a baptismal certificate for me. He said that was the first time he’d ever been asked to do that, but I needed it to get into the convent. So now I even have a legal Colorado ID under that name. Juliette doesn’t exist at all anymore. Of course, her existence was wiped away when they wiped away my family. And it kills me because I feel like I’m fading away.” He’s sitting in the chair at his desk and he grabs and pulls me into his lap. He holds me tight as he says, “You’re not fading away. I know you’re here. Ethel knows you’re here. The people at the animal shelter know you’re here and all the other places where you spend hours volunteering. Even at the convent.” His arms are comforting and I take solace in them for the moment. I’ve been alone for so long that for this brief period I allow myself to forget my horrid past. My voice is muffled, my mouth pressed against his chest when I answer, “I’m tired of being Emmalia. And I’m tired of being scared. Sometimes when I go to bed, I pray that I don’t wake up.” Hands grip my shoulders and give them a firm shake. “Don’t say that. Ever! Life is precious, Juliette. Savor every minute. Do you think your family would want you to feel this way?” I lift my head and our mouths are mere inches apart. What would it feel like for his lips to press against mine? His eyes are so clear. A