The Eternal Wonder by Pearl S. Buck Page B

mother loved to tell him fondly. “I think you were born knowing how to read.”
    To write books—that would give meaning and purpose to all that he might experience! When he was five, he had wanted to learn to play the piano, and he played it well now, but it was not his work. Composition, perhaps, might be, but not merely to play the works of others, however great, and he had composed music just as he had written poetry. But books, solid books, putting into permanent and lasting form what he knew by experiences and could therefore communicate. He saw books, already written, standing in a stately row upon a shelf, living their own life long after he was dead. With this solemn and imposing vision clear in his mind, he drifted into sleep. The coals in the fireplace died to ashes and outside the snow continued to fall.
    HE WAS WAKENED, SLOWLY AND GENTLY sometime in the night, by a hand stroking his thighs and moving, ever so slowly, ever so gently to his genitals. At first he thought it a dream. He was beginning to have strange new dreams, not often, for his rapid and extraordinary physical growth, combined with his incessant reading and studying, his obsession with learning everything as quickly as possible, had consumed his energy. But he wakened suddenly when he felt his body respond to the moving hands. He sat up abruptly, and by the light of a newly lighted fire, he was face-to-face with Sharpe. They stared at each other for a long instant, Sharpe smiling, his eyes half-closed. He was wrapped in a red satin robe.
    “Leave me alone!” Rann muttered between his teeth.
    “Do I frighten you, dear boy?” Sharpe asked softly.
    “Just leave me alone,” Rann repeated.
    He pushed Sharpe from him and wrapped the blanket about his lower body.
    “I introduce you to love,” Sharpe said gently. “There are many kinds of love. All love is good. I learned that in India.”
    “I am going home,” Rann said sternly. “Kindly leave the room so that I can dress.”
    Sharpe stood up. “Don’t be absurd. The snow is two feet deep.”
    “I’ll walk it.”
    “You are being childish,” Sharpe said. “We were talking of experience. All evening—we were talking of the necessity of experience. When I offer it to you in the form of a sophisticated love, as old as Greece itself and of Plato, you are afraid. You want to run home to your mother.”
    “Perhaps you are right, Dr. Sharpe. Perhaps I am being childish. There is really no reason for me to go home in a snowstorm. It’s just that this has taken me quite by surprise and I do not wish to pursue the subject any further, so it seems best that I leave.”
    Sharpe sat in the chair by the fireplace and watched Rann. “Again I say, don’t be absurd. The snow is nearly two feet deep. You have said you don’t wish to pursue the subject any further, so that’s all there is to it. I’ll go to bed and leave you quite alone. After all, I have my own pride, you know.”
    “I’m sure of that, Dr. Sharpe, and I’m equally sure I can believe you will not bother me again.”
    “You can be sure of that, Rann. Now I’ll go to bed. Good night, dear boy, and I’m sorry, or perhaps I’m sorry for my sake and not for yours, that things cannot be different.”
    When Donald Sharpe left the room, Rann tried to put the events of the evening into some sort of order so he could understand what had happened. It was of no use, for he could not understand. He was desperately tired, he was sick with anger, with disappointment, and to his astonishment and horror, he burst into weeping as soon as he put out the light and drew the covers about his shoulders. He had not wept since his father died, but these were bitter tears too. He had been wounded, he had been insulted, his body violated—and he had lost the friend in whom he had believed with all his heart and soul. Moreover—and this shocked him to new knowledge of himself—his body, while he slept, had physically responded to the stimulation.