pulled a Meg Ryan.” He's referring to the diner scene in
When Harry Met Sally
when Meg Ryan fakes an orgasm. While it does sound amusing, I am resolute in thinking I made the right decision today.
“Cody, this was my first time seeing Kira in two months. She just got back from Russia. I needed to see my best friend today,” I insist. I'm not going to give him the pleasure of knowing that it sounds like I would have had fun with them too. Even so, between the two options, Kira was the better choice.
“So now that Kira is back from Russia, you aren't going to hang out with us anymore?” This seems a bit extreme. It was only ONE DAY, and it was the first chance I had to hang out with Kira in two months. Regardless, I can sense that Cody and Shane are feeling neglected.
“No, that's not true. What are you guys doing tomorrow?” As a good friend, I need to make sure everyone feels included.
“We really wanted to show you
28 Days Later
, so we didn't see it today. Let's see it tomorrow!” Apparently I have not dodged that bullet. But, I figure I can do this with them as a way to make up for today.
“Alrighty, sounds like a plan,” I say, knowing this will be the best way to make the boys feel better.
“It's a plan!” Cody says enthusiastically. “I'll give you a call tomorrow!”
Almost as soon as I get off the phone with Cody, I receive a phone call from Ramon, who wastes no time getting to the point. “Mackenzie, you know that we are just friends, right?”
“Yes, I do know that,” I say, resigned.
“I think of you as a friend, that's it. Alicia showed me the conversation you two had online. She made up what I said,” Ramon injects. I feel like my balloon has been popped. Suddenly I land back on Earth from the high I was in with Kira, and it's startling.
“Okay, bye.” I drop my cell like it's a poisonous snake, and is responsible for the words that just came out of it. But, as soon as it lands, I pick it back up and call Kira. Thank goodness Kira is back! I've needed a girl who I could confide in. I feel like I've been lost in a swamp as I try to wade through this confusing world of boys all on my own.
I tell Kira all that Ramon just said, and I find that I am actually not crying or anything. It's like I'm numb.
Kira says, “Yeah, it just didn't seem right that he liked you, but he didn't want to be with you.”
Right now, I feel like a fool. I looked like a fool when he gave me massages, and I look like a fool now because I still like Ramon even though he hasn't liked me back for many months. “What I need to do is seriously forget about him. Whenever I see Ramon, I just can't stop liking him. Until I find a new guy to invest my interests in, I need to stop hanging out with, or even talking to, Ramon. I won't be able to move on unless I find someone else to like, and that's not possible until I stop talking to Ramon.”
He will keep unintentionally hurting me if I don't stop liking him
.
“Once you start liking a guy, you have trouble stopping,” Kira agrees with me. “You're right, just be a woman about it and don't yell his head off or something,” she says seriously.
“Of course I will be good to Ramon, but I am still really mad at him. He fucking led me on all summer, and then hooked up with this other chick.”
Resolutely, I call up Ramon and ask him to meet up with me. And so I find myself facing Ramon at Pureza Elementary. The part of the campus we meet at has a nice patio that is surrounded by grass and buildings, making it very private. There is a metal overhang to protect the patio from the outside elements, and lunch tables are set in rows. I sit myself down on top of one of the tables.
In just a few precious minutes, I tell Ramon that I am hurting myself by talking to him. Until I get a crush on someone else, I won't be able to get over him. And so, we need to stop talking until I do. While I am telling Ramon this, I can feel my face turning hot, and by the end my face is
When Harry Met Sally
when Meg Ryan fakes an orgasm. While it does sound amusing, I am resolute in thinking I made the right decision today.
“Cody, this was my first time seeing Kira in two months. She just got back from Russia. I needed to see my best friend today,” I insist. I'm not going to give him the pleasure of knowing that it sounds like I would have had fun with them too. Even so, between the two options, Kira was the better choice.
“So now that Kira is back from Russia, you aren't going to hang out with us anymore?” This seems a bit extreme. It was only ONE DAY, and it was the first chance I had to hang out with Kira in two months. Regardless, I can sense that Cody and Shane are feeling neglected.
“No, that's not true. What are you guys doing tomorrow?” As a good friend, I need to make sure everyone feels included.
“We really wanted to show you
28 Days Later
, so we didn't see it today. Let's see it tomorrow!” Apparently I have not dodged that bullet. But, I figure I can do this with them as a way to make up for today.
“Alrighty, sounds like a plan,” I say, knowing this will be the best way to make the boys feel better.
“It's a plan!” Cody says enthusiastically. “I'll give you a call tomorrow!”
Almost as soon as I get off the phone with Cody, I receive a phone call from Ramon, who wastes no time getting to the point. “Mackenzie, you know that we are just friends, right?”
“Yes, I do know that,” I say, resigned.
“I think of you as a friend, that's it. Alicia showed me the conversation you two had online. She made up what I said,” Ramon injects. I feel like my balloon has been popped. Suddenly I land back on Earth from the high I was in with Kira, and it's startling.
“Okay, bye.” I drop my cell like it's a poisonous snake, and is responsible for the words that just came out of it. But, as soon as it lands, I pick it back up and call Kira. Thank goodness Kira is back! I've needed a girl who I could confide in. I feel like I've been lost in a swamp as I try to wade through this confusing world of boys all on my own.
I tell Kira all that Ramon just said, and I find that I am actually not crying or anything. It's like I'm numb.
Kira says, “Yeah, it just didn't seem right that he liked you, but he didn't want to be with you.”
Right now, I feel like a fool. I looked like a fool when he gave me massages, and I look like a fool now because I still like Ramon even though he hasn't liked me back for many months. “What I need to do is seriously forget about him. Whenever I see Ramon, I just can't stop liking him. Until I find a new guy to invest my interests in, I need to stop hanging out with, or even talking to, Ramon. I won't be able to move on unless I find someone else to like, and that's not possible until I stop talking to Ramon.”
He will keep unintentionally hurting me if I don't stop liking him
.
“Once you start liking a guy, you have trouble stopping,” Kira agrees with me. “You're right, just be a woman about it and don't yell his head off or something,” she says seriously.
“Of course I will be good to Ramon, but I am still really mad at him. He fucking led me on all summer, and then hooked up with this other chick.”
Resolutely, I call up Ramon and ask him to meet up with me. And so I find myself facing Ramon at Pureza Elementary. The part of the campus we meet at has a nice patio that is surrounded by grass and buildings, making it very private. There is a metal overhang to protect the patio from the outside elements, and lunch tables are set in rows. I sit myself down on top of one of the tables.
In just a few precious minutes, I tell Ramon that I am hurting myself by talking to him. Until I get a crush on someone else, I won't be able to get over him. And so, we need to stop talking until I do. While I am telling Ramon this, I can feel my face turning hot, and by the end my face is
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