paper.â
âWell, I was just trying to be helpful.â
âI know,â Potter said, trying to control his temper. He kissed her on the nose. âThe thing is, youâre supposed to just relax .â
She shrugged, and went to the living room.
Potter went busily about his preparations, but couldnât help being a little annoyed that Marilyn wasnât sitting back and reading the Sunday paper. She just smoked a cigarette and looked out the window, and occasionally paced around the room, like she was nervous.
Potter tried to concentrate on the omelettes. He was just doing cheese this time, nothing too fancy or outrageous. Just plain cheese omelettes, and a very nice chablis.
They ate in the living room, on the coffee table. Potter played a Vivaldi record. The sound of order, tradition. Sunlight streamed in the room, as if Potter had ordered it. He felt expansive.
âHowâs that for an omelette?â Potter asked.
âOhâitâs fine. Just fine. Really it is,â she said in an unconvincing abstract voice.
Potter wondered if heâd put too much Tabasco into the mix.
He swigged from his glass of chablis, and tried to concentrate again on his own omelette. It seemed quite fine to him, but you never knew about other peopleâs taste; some people simply liked things bland. A little too much Tabasco could put them off entirely.
Marilyn picked her way through about a third of her omelette, then put down her fork. There were tears in her eyes. Jesus. Potter knew he hadnât put that much Tabasco into the thing.
âWhat is it?â he asked.
She shook her head. âNothing.â
Potter took a deep breath, and exhaled very slowly. Trying for calm. He lit a cigarette. Marilyn wadded her paper napkin and dabbed at her eyes.
âIâm sorry,â she said.
âBut why?â he asked gently. âWhy are you sorry? Why are you sad? Isnât everything OK?â
âYes,â she sniffed. âItâs fine.â
âSo?â
âSoâI donât know. I guess thatâs it.â
âThat everythingâs fine?â
âYesâI meanâno. Itâs that it has to end, sooner or later. Sooner or later it wonât be fine. Itâll be lousy, and itâll end.â
âWell, I guess everything has to end,â Potter said. âBut Marilyn. For godsake. Why spoil the beginning by thinking about the end?â
âI donât know,â she said. âI donât mean to.â
They sat for a long time, while the music played on, and then finally it stopped and the needle slipped onto the black interior circle of the record, scratching.
Potter had to make himself lift off the arm of the player.
Marilyn blew her nose, and forced a smile. âIâm sorry,â she said.
âItâs OK, really it is.â
âNo, itâs my fault for thinking that way.â
âGoddamn it, will you just forget about it!â
âYou donât have to yell at me!â
Potter closed his eyes, and breathed deeply. âIâm sorry,â he said.
âItâs OK. Iâm sorry too.â
âOK,â he said.
âOK,â she said.
Potter decided that instead of meeting Marilyn after her Existentialism class Wednesday night, it might do both of them good if he just went out on his own, and he arranged to have a beer with Gafferty. The beer became many beers.
âWhy is it,â Potter asked, âthat a man and a woman canât just get along?â
âTrouble in paradise, eh?â
In the first flush of his affair with Marilyn, Potter had told Gafferty he had found just the woman he was looking for.
âNothing big, yet. Just the old warning signs.â
âAh, well. Maybe itâll all blow over. Iâve ridden out many a storm myself.â
âJesus, I guess so. That must really be rough. I mean, with nine kids, you canât just walk out.â
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