ingredients⦠nothing artificial!â He wagged his un-Allan-like, graceful finger at me that had once been as pudgy and short as our motherâs. âNo drugs.â He nodded and leaned back.
I opened my mouth but didnât speak. Only my legs were working. My feet, under the table, crossing and uncrossing.
Allan laughed loudly and talked on about the Friends of Beccari and their grand design to âchange things back a bit,â as he put it. Politics, religion. Abruptly, he returned to his vehement attack on society. And, just as quickly and firmly, I believed none of this was true; it wasnât really happening, or, if it were, someone, maybe my real brother, Allan, just outside the door, was having a tremendous laugh at my expense. This private club wasnât anything to be suspicious about, the book at my knee could be anythingâa volume of Jane Austen, an old company ledgerâand there were only regular things around, things of this world: servants, billiards, tennis, a swimming pool. Here I was, alone, in Honduras with someone who only vaguely favored my brother as, perhaps, hundreds of people do. And all this absurd Beccari stuff. You want to be this? Read a book and⦠what? Wish? Add and subtract? Take peyote? Join our secret society? Conspiracy, plot, the convolutions of the late twentieth century. I was deeply confused. Iâd left Houston only five hours earlier.
âLook at India,â Allan was saying calmly. âChrist, what a mistake to let the coloreds have it. What would it be like if we were still in charge, old sport? Just think of it!â Then, there was a low voice from the door and we both turned to see the same liveried servant whoâd brought me in and, behind him, two military officers in uniform.
âAh, ha.â Allan smiled and stood. âIâll be back in a few minutes. These Americans,â he nodded toward the doorway, âshow up for strategy sessions now and again. Several of our chaps are really quite something in military ops. Me, Iâm plodding along. Sadly itâs necessary these days. Nothingâll come easy, I fear. Anyway, weâre glad to oblige. Those bloody âNigger-aguansâ are giving us hell.â With a pat on my shoulder, he went through the door and they walked a ways down the hall. I could still hear their mumbled voices.
But I paid little attention. Instead, without a single completed thought, I stood and put the book in my pocket. Edging quietly around the table, I took two steps and opened the French doors. Again, I didnât pause to think but crossed the lawn, passed the empty tennis court, and intersected the gravel drive near the gate. The whole way, from the doors to the street to a bus stop down the hill, I imagined the tall angular men standing at the French doors watching my descent. And one of them was most certainly my brother, Allan, his hand on the shoulder of an American Army colonel. The look on his face the old look of disappointment. Youâve no patience, heâd chide. Whereâs your self-control?
You know me, Dave. Iâm a mediocre scholar, a better-than-average carpenter, someone whoâs meticulous about income taxes, my childrenâs education. So you know I didnât run off into Tegucigalpa in shambles, in the state of one of our young protagonistsâfeverish from starvation, in a rage over money, gasping from the final stages of tuberculosis. True, I was terrified at what Iâd done by taking the book, my mind running in highest gear. Downtown I stepped off the bus in front of a hotel, and realized Iâd left my suitcase in that room near the door. Fortunately, I had my travelerâs checks and passport in my coat pocket so I managed to check in. Later I hurried out, away from the book, and bought a couple of shirts, some underwear, and an inexpensive nylon overnighter.
But I was distraught, dismayed. Fully dressed, I sat on the balcony, the
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