Shadow: Cerberus MC Book 3 by Marie James Page A

ask with a yawn.
    “I already changed him.” I look at him for the first time since waking up. He looks as tired as I feel.
    “You changed him?” I don’t mean to sound shocked, but I never took him for the diaper changing kind of man.
    “I’m perfectly capable of changing a damn diaper, Misty.” And there’s the man that’s been here since I showed up yesterday. “Sorry,” he says quickly. “I’m just tired as hell.”
    “Welcome to my world,” I say as I lay Griffin between my legs and fix the blue blanket around him.
    “How long did it take you to figure the diaper out?”
    He laughs quietly. “Let’s just say I’ve diffused bombs faster.”
    I chuckle. I would’ve paid money I don’t have to have been a witness to that.
    He yawns loudly. “We need to talk,” he says rubbing his eyes.
    “Why don’t you lie down,” I say patting the empty bed beside me. “We can talk while I feed him.”
    I’m not looking forward to this at all, but I knew it was coming eventually. He walks around the end of the bed and lays down, hands behind his head. I turn my eyes away from the sliver of exposed abdomen, reminding myself he’s not mine to look at like that.
    “I hate taking those stupid pills,” I say absently. “They make me feel like a zombie.”
    He laughs softly. “It’s only temporary. You won’t be any use to him if you’re in the hospital.” I can’t tell if it’s another jab at my ability to take care of Griffin. He’s implied more than once already that he doesn’t think I’m capable.
    “I don’t know how to be a good mother to him. I don’t know how women do this on their own,” I confess.
    “I’m not going anywhere, Misty. I’ll always be here for him. You don’t have to do anything alone.” I look over at him to find his eyes closed.
    Him . Not both of us. I don’t know what I expected. I knew I wouldn’t just show up and fall into his welcoming arms. I wonder what’s tiring me more, the fact that I just had a baby or the emotional exhaustion from being here with Shadow. If anything, they’re at least tied for first place.
    “You hate me,” I say softly. Why prolong the inevitable. Might as well lay all the cards on the table and talk about the proverbial elephant in the room.
    “Did you trap me on purpose?” There it is. The question I’m sure he’s been wanting to ask me since I showed up.
    “No.”
    “You lied to me.”
    “I did.”
    “Why else would you tell me you were on birth control if it wasn’t to put yourself in this position?”
    I don’t even bat the tears away. My emotions are all over the place, but he seems to know exactly what to say to bring them out into the open.
    “This is exactly where I wanted to be,” I say flatly. “Sitting in bed, helpless, with a man who would rather spit on me than look at me. That’s exactly what I wanted when I lied that night. I wanted my parents to force me into an abortion. Sitting on that table at Planned Parenthood, discussing how it would only cost eight hundred dollars and an hour to kill my baby is exactly what I had in mind.”
    I’m trying to keep my voice down so I don’t startle Griffin, but it’s damn near impossible.
    He sits up quickly in the bed.
    “You were going to have an abortion? Rather than call me and ask for help, you were going to kill our son?”
    I huff out a sardonic laugh. He really is fucking clueless.
    “Did you think I wasn’t good enough to know I had a baby on the way?” His voice is escalating as well.
    “I was no more than a quick fuck for you, Shadow. An easy piece of ass you couldn’t even be bothered to stick around until morning for.”
    “I had club shit I had to take care of that night, Misty. I don’t expect you to understand.” He slams his back against the headboard making Griffin jolt suddenly in my arms.
    “That’s right. I’m just some stupid young thing dumb enough to spread my legs for you. I don’t have the ability to understand a damn thing