Self's Murder by Bernhard Schlink Page B

“Drive! Drive, damn it! As fast as you can!”
    I didn’t react immediately, but then I saw the yard gate beginning to swing shut, threw the gear into reverse, and made it out just in time, with only a few scratches to the front fenders. Samarin was running alongside the car, trying to get the door open. “Faster!” Welker kept shouting, holding on to the door from inside. “Faster!”
    I floored the gas pedal and raced over the Schlossplatz into the Schlosstrasse. “Quick, give me your cell phone!” Welker said, reaching over to me.
    “I don’t have one.”
    “Damn!” He slammed his fists down on the dashboard. “How can you not have a cell phone?”
    I pulled into a parking lot in the Hebelstrasse and stopped in front of a public phone where he could use my phone card. “Not here! Let’s go where there are lots of people!”
    It was Sunday noon and the parking lot was still empty. But what was he afraid of? That Samarin and a few young men in suits would turn up and abduct him? I drove to the Schwetzingen train station, which wasn’t exactly pulsating with life, but there were taxis, a waiting bus, a newsstand, an open ticket counter, and some passengers. Welker took my phone card, his eyes darting in all directions, and went to a phone. I saw him pick up the receiver, insert the card, dial a number, wait, and begin to talk. Then he hung up and leaned against the wall. He looked as if he would collapse if the wall weren’t there.
    I waited. Then I got out and walked over to him. He was crying. Crying silently, tears running down his cheeks, gathering on his chin, and dripping onto his sweater. He didn’t wipe them away. His arms hung limply at his sides, as if bereft of all power. He suddenly noticed that I was standing in front of him. “They’ve got my children. They drove off with them half an hour ago.”
    “Drove off? Where to?”
    “Zurich, back to their boarding school. But they’ll reach the boarding school only if I go back to Samarin.” He straightened up and wiped away his tears.
    “Please tell me what’s going on. What are you mixed up in? What is this all about?”
    “As a private investigator, are you pledged to silence? Like a doctor or priest?” But he didn’t wait for an answer. He began to talk and talk. It was a cold day, and after a while my legs and stomach began to hurt from standing. But his flow of words didn’t stop, and I didn’t interrupt him. A woman wanted to use the phone, so we got back into the car. I started the engine and put the heater on high, whatever the damage to the environment. He ended up weeping again.
     
     
     

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Double insurance
     
     
    H is story began in August 1991. There had been a failed military putsch in Moscow. Gorbachev’s star was on the wane, Yeltsin’s on the rise. Gregor Samarin had proposed that Weller & Welker send him to Russia to look into investment opportunities; the failed putsch signified that the fate of Communism was sealed and that the triumph of capitalism was unstoppable. This was the perfect moment, he argued, to make investments in Russian enterprises, and with his knowledge of Russia, its language, and its people, he could guarantee Weller & Welker a competitive edge.
    Until then Samarin had been a jack-of-all-trades at the bank: chauffeur and errand boy, a handyman at the bank and the apartment, someone who could help out as a teller and with the bookkeeping and filing. He had completed high school but had not been interested in continuing with his studies—nor did anybody encourage him to. Even as a schoolboy he had made himself useful, and it was quite convenient that he was even more available now. He lived in the servant’s room in old Herr Welker’s house in the Gustav-Kirchhoff-Strasse and was paid a modest salary and given a little extra whenever he wanted to buy something or go on vacation. But he rarely asked for anything. He had studied Russian at school because of his mother, and he