earth could have kept her off that ladder once she decided it sounded fun.â
âWell, Iâm very sorry to have you go. But I have to say, I think she will be much more comfortable with you beside her.â
Louisaâs smile was sweet, her eyes a bit teary. âThank you,â she said, clasping his hands gently, âfor understanding.â She wrapped him in a quick, affectionate hug that surprised the breath out of his body.
Lady Irving was already summoning the capable Simone, who at once began to give orders to have trunks packed and the carriage brought round.
And that was that.
Before the afternoon was out, James saw them on their way, crammed into the carriage like tinned fish so that Juliaâs injured foot could be propped up on the opposite seat. Poor girl; she leaned hard on him to walk to the carriage, and thanked him sweetly although he could see she was in pain.
âIâll never be a baboon again,â she promised.
He laughed, and apologized again to her, and to Lady Irving and Louisa.
The betrothed couple parted with a proper kiss on the cheek; honestly, he had been so distracted, he didnât even try to embrace Louisa in a more romantic way. He was too busy thinking of how heâd fallen short as a host, and as a future husband.
He had failed to keep them comfortable, entertained, and safe. He had failed even to keep them there . He didnât think they had taken it amiss . . . but still, would any of them want to come back, ever?
He remembered the warm, fragile feeling of Juliaâs body, leaning against his for support as she walked out to the carriage. He remembered Louisaâs hug of affection.
He wished they would all come back, so he could try again, and get it right this time.
Chapter 9
In Which Portugal Is Lost
To Juliaâs dismay, her ankle took weeks to mend.
The first week was unbearable. She spent what felt like every waking minute trapped on a sofa or lying in her bed. She could hardly believe her own stupid clumsiness, which had caused them all to leave Nicholls early and miss out on so much of Jamesâs company.
The second week began as badly, but then it brought a letter from James that Louisa read aloud to the family. The letter mentioned Juliaâs name twice and inquired very kindly about her health. That day actually went pretty well.
Weeks three, four, and five of Juliaâs convalescence brought more letters for Louisa. She no longer read them aloud to the family. She hummed through the days, wrote long letters to James, and seemed delighted when she received a replyâwhich she always did, promptly.
She happened to open one of Jamesâs letters once in Juliaâs presence, and Julia caught a glimpse of what looked like a list.
âExcellent,â Louisa had breathed, skimming the missive.
âWhatâs excellent?â Julia had been unable to resist asking.
Recalled to herself, Louisa flushed. âI just had some questions for James. Relating to, um, Nicholls.â
Julia instantly lost interest. She didnât want to hear about Nicholls, about Louisaâs and Jamesâs future life together. She couldnât bear the thought of Louisa leaving her, though she knew that was illogical and inevitable.
And maybe she didnât quite like to think of James married, either. Werenât they all content and happy as they were? Couldnât things just continue on like this? Why did everyone have to keep talking about him and Louisa getting married all the time?
It was six weeks and two days before Julia was able to test her ankle again. Six weeks and two days since sheâd seen James, hurt herself, and left Nicholls.
Six weeks and two days of being a fool.
Usually she loved autumn, but this year, it seemed melancholy. She missed Jamesâs face, his voice, his smile.
She missed seeing him frown at her when she said something outrageous (usually unwittingly), or making him smile when she
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