Ruby’s shoulder and tried giving her a kiss, but Ruby turned her head away abruptly. “What do you want me to say, Ruby?”
That made the fire inside her blaze even brighter. Ruby knew she acted ridiculously. Jealousy made a fool of her. But for some reason, she couldn’t fight back the emotion. She squirmed, trying to get away from Evan’s embrace, but her struggle was futile. She was no match for Evan’s strength and conviction.
Ruby stopped and looked him in square in the eye.
“I want the truth about you and Maxine.”
“There was nothing between us,” he insisted. “Even if there had been something, why would I lie?”
“Because maybe you still have feelings for her? Maybe deep down, you want an actual submissive who knows what the hell she’s doing.”
“What?” Evan’s laughter irritated her. “No, sweetheart, the only feelings I have are for you. Only you. She’s got absolutely nothing on you, submissive or not.”
Ruby stared at him, desperately wanting to believe the words spoken. But if she hurt this much now only a few weeks into this relationship, how would she deal with anything worse? Being around Evan did something to her senses, her emotions, and to her heart. It scared her.
Ruby shook her head, blinking back the tears. “I’m sorry. I don’t know what got into me, Evan.” She took a deep breath. “But this is too much for me to take.”
Evan glared at her. “What the hell does that mean?”
“I mean this is who you are. This is what your world has always been like. Who am I to think I can fit in to your life… your lifestyle? Things like this are going to keep happening and I don’t think I can handle it. You’re famous and could have any woman you want. Women are begging to have even one night with you. I should’ve never agreed to—”
“Don’t even say it.” He took Ruby’s hand and put it to his chest. Ruby could feel Evan’s heart beat against her palm. “You’re scaring me. This sounds like you’re about to end things between us. I can’t believe you don’t see how much I’ve fallen in love with you.”
She shook her head. “It’s too difficult, Evan. I thought I could do this… I wanted to do this, but I can’t. Try to put yourself in my place. Would you be able to deal with other men constantly on me? I’m so confused. I don’t know what I was thinking coming into this. I let myself get caught up in all the infatuation and excitement.”
Evan’s grip tightened on her shoulder as he pulled Ruby to face him. Evan stared at her hard, glaring as he spoke through his teeth, “What exactly are you saying?”
Ruby looked down at her hands for a long moment, then finally looked back into Evan’s stare. Her eyes glistened, but she didn’t cry.
“My feelings for you are what have me so terrified,” she said. “If I didn’t love you so much I wouldn’t be backing out now before it’s too late.”
Evan stared at her in disbelief. “Backing out?”
“I’m sorry,” Ruby whispered, casting her eyes back down to the ground.
“Stop, Ruby. I won’t let you back out now, or ever. I can’t. There’s no turning back for me. You need to understand that I love you. I love you!”
Evan leaned over and kissed her forehead, then her cheeks and all around her mouth.
“Evan,” Ruby whispered.
He continued to kiss Ruby’s mouth, deepening the kiss further.
“Evan.” Ruby pulled away. “I love you, too. But that is what scares me to death. I don’t want my heart broken. You have the power to do so.”
Evan moved a piece of hair behind Ruby’s ear. “I won’t abuse that power. You have to have some faith in that.” Evan kissed her again, then held her face in his hands. “Trust that I will protect our love with everything I have.”
A smile slowly lifted the corners of Ruby’s lips. “You see how crazy you make me? Do you see how insane my jealousy just got? You really want a part of this insanity?” Ruby giggled lightly.
Evan
That made the fire inside her blaze even brighter. Ruby knew she acted ridiculously. Jealousy made a fool of her. But for some reason, she couldn’t fight back the emotion. She squirmed, trying to get away from Evan’s embrace, but her struggle was futile. She was no match for Evan’s strength and conviction.
Ruby stopped and looked him in square in the eye.
“I want the truth about you and Maxine.”
“There was nothing between us,” he insisted. “Even if there had been something, why would I lie?”
“Because maybe you still have feelings for her? Maybe deep down, you want an actual submissive who knows what the hell she’s doing.”
“What?” Evan’s laughter irritated her. “No, sweetheart, the only feelings I have are for you. Only you. She’s got absolutely nothing on you, submissive or not.”
Ruby stared at him, desperately wanting to believe the words spoken. But if she hurt this much now only a few weeks into this relationship, how would she deal with anything worse? Being around Evan did something to her senses, her emotions, and to her heart. It scared her.
Ruby shook her head, blinking back the tears. “I’m sorry. I don’t know what got into me, Evan.” She took a deep breath. “But this is too much for me to take.”
Evan glared at her. “What the hell does that mean?”
“I mean this is who you are. This is what your world has always been like. Who am I to think I can fit in to your life… your lifestyle? Things like this are going to keep happening and I don’t think I can handle it. You’re famous and could have any woman you want. Women are begging to have even one night with you. I should’ve never agreed to—”
“Don’t even say it.” He took Ruby’s hand and put it to his chest. Ruby could feel Evan’s heart beat against her palm. “You’re scaring me. This sounds like you’re about to end things between us. I can’t believe you don’t see how much I’ve fallen in love with you.”
She shook her head. “It’s too difficult, Evan. I thought I could do this… I wanted to do this, but I can’t. Try to put yourself in my place. Would you be able to deal with other men constantly on me? I’m so confused. I don’t know what I was thinking coming into this. I let myself get caught up in all the infatuation and excitement.”
Evan’s grip tightened on her shoulder as he pulled Ruby to face him. Evan stared at her hard, glaring as he spoke through his teeth, “What exactly are you saying?”
Ruby looked down at her hands for a long moment, then finally looked back into Evan’s stare. Her eyes glistened, but she didn’t cry.
“My feelings for you are what have me so terrified,” she said. “If I didn’t love you so much I wouldn’t be backing out now before it’s too late.”
Evan stared at her in disbelief. “Backing out?”
“I’m sorry,” Ruby whispered, casting her eyes back down to the ground.
“Stop, Ruby. I won’t let you back out now, or ever. I can’t. There’s no turning back for me. You need to understand that I love you. I love you!”
Evan leaned over and kissed her forehead, then her cheeks and all around her mouth.
“Evan,” Ruby whispered.
He continued to kiss Ruby’s mouth, deepening the kiss further.
“Evan.” Ruby pulled away. “I love you, too. But that is what scares me to death. I don’t want my heart broken. You have the power to do so.”
Evan moved a piece of hair behind Ruby’s ear. “I won’t abuse that power. You have to have some faith in that.” Evan kissed her again, then held her face in his hands. “Trust that I will protect our love with everything I have.”
A smile slowly lifted the corners of Ruby’s lips. “You see how crazy you make me? Do you see how insane my jealousy just got? You really want a part of this insanity?” Ruby giggled lightly.
Evan
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