guess when she didnât it seemed only respectful. He didnât desire her, so I didnât. She wasnât even illicit anymore, merely passé. I knew they werenât done with one another, not really, but he wanted to live in this illusion of complete erasure of her, and I complied. Through simple will he made a new, diminished world and walled her out of it, and then we lived there together, he and I, with his wounds.
In the middle of October , we went for a week to the Pharaohâs estate. Savier âPharaohâ Ramses was the last of the Jail Blazers, the gifted but misbehaving old guard who had taken the team to the Western Conference finals in â99 and 2000 but bottomed out the franchise by the mid-aughts. Pharaoh had been a high draft pick during the teamâs decline, but he was one of those talents who never became more than a sideshow collection of impressively mismatched skills. He was six-nine with guard speed and a great handle, but had no half-court game: he was too weak for the post and he couldnât shoot. He was technically still with the team, but heâd not been on the active roster at all the previous season. The official reason was a slow-healing knee injury, but the rumor was that he and his bloated salary were getting pushed out. All summer Iâd seen his classic Pontiac convertible with its âPH4R40â license plate haunting the playersâ garage. Ras, his Antiguan driver, liked to dispense paternal advice to me about car wax, and Pharaoh became a sort of mentor to Calyph, gifting him with the nickname Yoshi, or Young Sheed. The team probably wouldâve given Calyph a bonus just for staying away from Ramses, but with their matching knee injuries and defiant on-court attitudes, there was no keeping them apart.
I arrived at the Pharaohâs as a guest, but soon found myself placed among the staff. I guess it was clear right away I wasnât going to be any good at smoking spliffs and sitting by the pool. âCome,â said Ras, as I stood awkwardly in the doorway of my narrow room that first afternoon. âYouâll see more of de place if you work a little. Weâll only give you chitty-chitty stuff to do.â
The gaming tent stood in the middle of the hanging gardens, which ran almost to the cliff in the southwest corner of the estate. The Pharaoh had built on a desolate stretch of coast about two hours from Portland, and at high tide I could hear the sea in all its violence. My week there was one of the most singular of my life, but few moments there thrilled me with as much consummate oddness as following Ras down a narrow stone path beneath dangling creepers, carrying gourmet BLTs on a blinding silver tray to men who sat in the hiss and boom of the seething Pacific, playing video games.
âDonât shoot that,â came Calyphâs voice. âThatâs not your range, boy.â
âI hit that all day.â
âNot on here you donât. They got you so you can barely make a damn layup.â
âNaw,â Belmont said, jockeying his controller around in unconscious compensation. âI show you.â He wore a bright white T-shirt and a modest gold chain, and looked hardly more than a boy.
They crowded the wide set, and the low stools they sat on leaned dangerously as they traded fast breaks. Calyphâs crutches sat against a nearby chair. Pharaoh lay behind them in a squat black chaise longue, watching indifferently. Only when we came beneath the tent did he grasp his cane to rise.
âBrick again,â Calyph chided. âBetter put Deron back in.â
âMan, you musta put it to Superstar.â
âI didnât put nothing to nothing, and youâre oh for six from deep. Youâre playing this game like you twelve.â
âIâm tellinâ you, they got me rated right . Ninety-five speed.â
âYeah? Pause it, letâs see. Letâs see what rating they got for
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