all the time â to lock her right arm around his skinny neck. And still Joel fought her, lashing out with his feet. It was a full moon, and an eerie lambent glow bathed the canal and surrounding fields in a ghostly sepia gloom. Those few moments when they thrashed around in the dark chill of the English countryside seemed like an eternity until, in a sudden moment of apprehension, she understood that the boy wanted to die.
By this time Tom and the other children were crowding onto the deck. Some of the boys had leapt onto the embankment for a better view and stood shivering in their pyjamas. Tom, meanwhile, was kneeling on the deck, preparing to grab hold of Joel as Kirsten manoeuvred him alongside the barge. Assisted by Terry, he managed to drag the dripping Joel onto the deck and by the time Kirsten had climbed aboard they had wrapped Joel in a blanket. âHold onto him,â Tom said to Terry, and a look of grim understanding passed between them. Then, turning in consternation to Kirsten: âAre you okay?â
It was a feeble question and she resented it. If it hadnât been for him and his bloody excursion she would not now be standing here in a state almost of shock. âGo to the cabin,â he began, âuse my towel to dry off. Iâll deal with Joel and Iâll be along in a minute. Iâll get Ruth to make you a hot drink.â
âYou canât just leave him there unsupervised.â She was shaking violently.
âTrue.â He hesitated. âIâll probably have to sleep in there for the rest of the night. On the floor. But Iâll come back to the cabin first.â
Without a word Kirsten returned to the bat cave. Her eyes felt as if they were coated in icy grit and she had a headache from the chill of the water. From the neck down she was numb. Standing, dripping, outside the door, she stripped off and bundled her sodden clothes into a nearby bucket. Inside she towelled herself down as briskly as she could and put on her warmest gear. The torch had disappeared. Too shaky and exhausted to zip the doona up into a sleeping pouch, she wrapped it tight around her and then, almost falling onto the air mattress, she lay there bent in a foetal arc and could not control her trembling.
After a while Ruth appeared with a tin mug and set it down beside Kirstenâs head. âHere you are, Miss,â she said. âThey put Joel to bed in one of the bunks and Sir is lying with him soâs he canât move.â
âYouâd better go back,â Kirsten whispered. âIâll be okay.â But when she sat up and took a sip from the mug it was full of a tepid and sickly cocoa that made her gag.
Tom did not return.
In the morning the kids were mute as they packed up their kits and went about cleaning the interior of the main cabin. Joel had been placed under Terryâs watchful eye but for the moment he appeared okay; he had eaten some toast for breakfast and would nod when spoken to by Tom. Mostly the kids ignored him, deep in their own reluctance to leave the boat. They had the air of mourners in the wake of a funeral procession. As the barge glided and bumped into the mooring dock they gazed with blank, resigned faces at the big green bus that awaited them. Then, hoisting their packs over their shoulders, they lined up by the cabin door and awaited Tomâs command to walk the plank.
Kirsten felt like death. Her head throbbed, her throat was raw, her limbs ached in every muscle and joint and she knew that some bug or virus had ambushed her in the night. All she wanted was to crawl under a blanket but she knew she must stand and say goodbye to the kids. She waved from the open door of the bat cave as Tom stood at the end of the plank and shook hands with each boy and girl as they trooped off, and she saw a gruff male courtliness in her lover that she hadnât seen before ⦠but was too sick to hold this thought for long.
After they had waved
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