the warmth of her smile, the sweetness of her personality. Nothing about her screams fame or fortune or ego. I enjoy her tremendously, and I’ve loved the time we spent together in the dungeon.She’s a complex woman who works at the top of her field by day, but willingly surrenders control in her personal life.
Under normal circumstances, I’d invite her to the dungeon to work out the frustration I feel about the situation with Addie. But I can’t go from the bed of the woman I love to the arms of another woman and find the peace that eludes me. That’s not going to fix what’s wrong withme.
“You up for playing tonight?” she asks.
“Nah, I’m cooked. One drink and out for me.”
Her lip rolls into an adorable pout. “What about my training?”
An odd pang that feels an awful lot like guilt takes root in my gut. The thought of touching Cresley—or any woman—after what I’ve shared with Addie makes me nauseated. I take a drink from my glass, and for once Pappy doesn’t soothe me. “Wemight have to put that on hold for a little while.” Just until I get my head together. I keep that part to myself.
She eyes me shrewdly. “How come?”
“I’ve got some stuff going on that’s going to require a lot of time and focus. Can’t afford any distractions.” I’m making this up as I go, but it sounds convincing. To me, anyway.
“I thought that was the whole point, to reduce stress by cuttingloose together.”
“I… I need some time, Cres.”
“How much time?”
“I don’t know.” I feel like shit for doing this to her when we’re already well into the early stages of her submissive training. With her crazy life as an in-demand model and the single mom to a son, she doesn’t take a lot of time for herself. This is important to her, and I hate that I’m disappointing her. But I can’t imagine touchingher now. As I stare into the eyes of one of the world’s most beautiful women, my cock couldn’t be less interested.
Fucking hell, is that what I’m doomed to now that I’ve had Addie? I can’t get hard for anyone else? Suddenly, I’m angry with Addie for doing this to me. For wrapping her sweet, sexy self around my soul and working her way so deep inside me I may never get her out. And fuck, I don’twant her out. I want more of her. I want her so badly, I burn with desire for her.
“I don’t know what’s going on with you, Hayden, but I hope you’ll call me when you’re ready to pick up where we left off.”
I don’t make promises I can’t keep, so I stick to safer ground. “Say hey to Ty for me, okay?”
She smiles at the mention of her son, but I can see she gets that I’m ending our relationship—orwhatever it was. “Yeah, you got it.” She leans in to kiss my cheek. “Take care.”
“You, too.” I’m incredibly relieved when she gets up and walks away. Most Doms, myself included, don’t like to share their subs with other Doms. But I hope that Cresley cuts her losses with me and finds someone else to play with. She’s a smart, savvy woman, so I’m not worried about her safety. Right now, I’m moreconcerned about my own.
“Did you really pass up a chance to play with Cresley Dane?” Sebastian asks when he makes his way to my end of the bar.
“So what if I did?”
“So you’re fucking crazy, that’s what. What’s up with you? You’re like a pent-up tiger looking for a place to rage.”
The thing about going way back with people is that they know you too well. At times like this, when I actuallyhave something to hide, I wish I could be less obvious to my friends. “I’m fine. Under a lot of stress at work to name a film that defies naming, among other things.”
“It’ll come to you. Always does.”
“Thanks for the vote of confidence. I’m going to head out.” I clasp Sebastian’s outstretched hand in a sideways bro shake. “Take it easy.”
“You, too.”
I feel his gaze on me as I wave to my partnersand head for the
Under normal circumstances, I’d invite her to the dungeon to work out the frustration I feel about the situation with Addie. But I can’t go from the bed of the woman I love to the arms of another woman and find the peace that eludes me. That’s not going to fix what’s wrong withme.
“You up for playing tonight?” she asks.
“Nah, I’m cooked. One drink and out for me.”
Her lip rolls into an adorable pout. “What about my training?”
An odd pang that feels an awful lot like guilt takes root in my gut. The thought of touching Cresley—or any woman—after what I’ve shared with Addie makes me nauseated. I take a drink from my glass, and for once Pappy doesn’t soothe me. “Wemight have to put that on hold for a little while.” Just until I get my head together. I keep that part to myself.
She eyes me shrewdly. “How come?”
“I’ve got some stuff going on that’s going to require a lot of time and focus. Can’t afford any distractions.” I’m making this up as I go, but it sounds convincing. To me, anyway.
“I thought that was the whole point, to reduce stress by cuttingloose together.”
“I… I need some time, Cres.”
“How much time?”
“I don’t know.” I feel like shit for doing this to her when we’re already well into the early stages of her submissive training. With her crazy life as an in-demand model and the single mom to a son, she doesn’t take a lot of time for herself. This is important to her, and I hate that I’m disappointing her. But I can’t imagine touchingher now. As I stare into the eyes of one of the world’s most beautiful women, my cock couldn’t be less interested.
Fucking hell, is that what I’m doomed to now that I’ve had Addie? I can’t get hard for anyone else? Suddenly, I’m angry with Addie for doing this to me. For wrapping her sweet, sexy self around my soul and working her way so deep inside me I may never get her out. And fuck, I don’twant her out. I want more of her. I want her so badly, I burn with desire for her.
“I don’t know what’s going on with you, Hayden, but I hope you’ll call me when you’re ready to pick up where we left off.”
I don’t make promises I can’t keep, so I stick to safer ground. “Say hey to Ty for me, okay?”
She smiles at the mention of her son, but I can see she gets that I’m ending our relationship—orwhatever it was. “Yeah, you got it.” She leans in to kiss my cheek. “Take care.”
“You, too.” I’m incredibly relieved when she gets up and walks away. Most Doms, myself included, don’t like to share their subs with other Doms. But I hope that Cresley cuts her losses with me and finds someone else to play with. She’s a smart, savvy woman, so I’m not worried about her safety. Right now, I’m moreconcerned about my own.
“Did you really pass up a chance to play with Cresley Dane?” Sebastian asks when he makes his way to my end of the bar.
“So what if I did?”
“So you’re fucking crazy, that’s what. What’s up with you? You’re like a pent-up tiger looking for a place to rage.”
The thing about going way back with people is that they know you too well. At times like this, when I actuallyhave something to hide, I wish I could be less obvious to my friends. “I’m fine. Under a lot of stress at work to name a film that defies naming, among other things.”
“It’ll come to you. Always does.”
“Thanks for the vote of confidence. I’m going to head out.” I clasp Sebastian’s outstretched hand in a sideways bro shake. “Take it easy.”
“You, too.”
I feel his gaze on me as I wave to my partnersand head for the
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