rid of my stuff. I need all of it.â
âThereâs a fine line between a collection and a pile of junk,â said her mother.
âHow can you call my stuff junk? Itâs unique and I love it. Every bit of it.â
Lizâs mom sighed. You could tell theyâd had this discussion before.
âAnyway,â said Liz curling her arms around a pillow. âClutter is my style.â
âI wish youâd get a new style,â said her mom. Then she turned to go. âSeeyou later, girls. And Renata, you really do have a lovely voice. You should do something with it.â
âSee,â said Liz. âI told you your voice was amazing. Now you have to try out for the school show.â
âI canât,â I said. âI canât sing in front of anyone else.â
âGuess what?â said Liz. âYou just did.â
chapter two
âOhmygod! Her motherâs a cleaning lady?â
I heard the words first, then the laughter.
I stared into my opened locker. I couldnât move. I couldnât let them find out I was here. I wanted to melt into the darkness inside my locker. I wanted to curl up in the soft cotton of the sweater sprawled across the lockerâsbottom and stay there until they left. Stay there forever.
I knew the voices. Darleen and Karin. Karin with an i instead of an e, and a smile as tight as a fist. Karin with her straight blond hair and her ring-covered hands. And Darleen, who never left Karinâs side, tall and gangly with long, pointy nails.
They were so different from me with my thick bundle of curly black hair and bitten-down nails.
âWhere did you hear that?â asked Darleen.
âFrom my aunt. Renataâs mother cleans her house,â said Liz.
âHow can her mother stand cleaning other peopleâs dirty toilets? Iâd rather be shot dead than clean my brotherâs bathroom. Itâs not fit for pigs.â
âI know,â said Liz. âItâs disgusting.â
Their locker doors slammed shut with a sharp twang.
âLetâs go. My momâs picking me up for a dentist appointment,â said Karin.âYou have no idea how much I hate the dentist.â
I listened as their footsteps echoed down the linoleum floor.
Silence.
I peeked from behind my locker. They were gone. The hall was empty.
I leaned against my locker door and tried to stop shaking. But the shaking wouldnât go away. Not on the bus ride home. Not until I reached our apartment. Iâd never told anyone at school what my mom did for a living, and now everyone would know.
Mom was home from her job uptown. I could smell rice and beans simmering on the stove. She was in the kitchen slicing tomatoes.
âRenata, I need you to call one of my ladies for me,â she said in Portuguese.
I had to phone people for Mom. Her English was still rusty.
âWho do you want me to call?â I asked.
âMs. Powell. I canât clean her housethis Friday. I have to take your brother to the doctor for his shot.â
I didnât understand why Mom called the women she worked for her âladies.â They werenât âherâ ladies. They didnât care about her. She wasnât important to them except to sweep, dust and wash their floors and sinks. Maybe her favorite, Ms. Lucy, cared a little, but the rest didnât. If Mom disappeared off the face of the earth, all theyâd worry about was finding another cleaning lady, especially Karinâs aunt, Ms. Powell.
I knew before I dialed that Ms. Powell would hate having her schedule changed. âWell,â she said, her annoyance crackling through the phone. âIf she really has to, I guess Iâll just have to manage, but I hope this isnât a regular occurrence.â
I imagined her face scrunched up like a prune. Mom said she wasnât so bad, but Mom always said that. Thatâs what made me so angry. Mom never complained.
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