said quietly, staring out of my window. "I feel like I'm giving you just as much as Muriel gives Phil and Veronica gives your brother, but I don't have what they have. Not even close. I only have pieces of you. Doesn't even make up a whole person."
He was silent for a few beats. I started to believe that was the end of the conversation.
"You know that I love you," he started.
"You really think that's enough," I gaped at him. "You really do. You think you can say that forever and not make any kind of committment. I feel like I'm in limbo."
"You're free to leave limbo and wander elsewhere," he said dryly.
"I'll keep that in mind, Rhys. We both know that is always an option for you ."
I popped my headphones into my ears to end the conversation. He must not have wanted to talk anymore either, because he left me alone for the rest of the ride home.
"Will you come tomorrow?" He asked when we pulled up to my house.
Typically, he would have stayed the night or we would have went back to his place, but he must have sensed that I wasn't having it.
"Sure," I sighed and got out of the car without even a small kiss. Even though it was my choice, it broke my heart a little bit.
So, I showed up to the game, even though I really didn't feel like being there. Every now and then Rhys would look my way and give me a brief smile or small wave.
"He's something, isn't he?" Nicole said, suddenly at my side.
I looked at her curiously for a moment before answering. I had gotten over my envy and jealousy of her, for the most part.
"Yes, he is."
"He sure does carry a flame for you," she said with a hint of sadness in her voice.
" Not really," I sighed.
"Sure he does. It's obvious ."
"Don't be ridiculous, Nicole," I snapped.
We were quiet for a few minutes. I felt bad for snapping at her. It really wasn't her fault I was feeling heart broken.
"Sorry," I said softly.
"Hey, I know how you feel," she said soothingly.
"How could you know?" I asked, trying to keep my tone even. "You're the one that got him to sit still for half a beat."
"Well," she shrugged. "I just think I was in the right place at the right time."
"What does that mean?" I stared at her.
"I caught him at a good time. For whatever reason, he was just ready for something steady, and he settled for me." She wore a sad smile on her face as she gazed across the field at Rhys .
"You're selling yourself short," I said.
"No," she shook her head and smiled a little wider, though it was still sad. "I'm not. I know my value, Lindsey. I love who I am and I have a lot to offer the right man, but he's not it - or I'm not for him. It's all the same."
We stood in silence for a few minutes, watching Rhys run around with the kids. It was warming and sad to watch. He seemed like he would make a great father figure, it just didn't look like he was going to father any of my children.
"Look, he loves you right?" Nicole asked, a little more chipper.
"That's questionable." I scowled slightly.
"He wouldn't say it if he didn't mean it," she sighed and I really began to feel bad for her. "Lindsey, he's probably just afraid."
" Rhys ? Afraid?" I asked doubtfully.
"Yeah, Rhys afraid."
I looked back at Rhys , who was now standing with a group of people, drinking a bottle of water, flushed from playing with the kids. His eyes met mine and he flashed me a quick smile.
"Is it just me, or is his smile an instant turn on?" Nicole asked.
"Totally," I said. "Oh, here he comes."
"He's really good in bed," she sighed.
"Fantastic actually."
"I'm going to need a cold shower."
"Bad idea," I warned. "You'll just be cold and horny with harder nipples."
She gaped at me and then suppressed her laughter as Rhys strolled up.
"What are you two smiling about?" He asked, stopping very close to me.
"About our girls night out we're planning," Nicole said, slinking an arm around my waist.
"Oh. Yes." I reciprocated, sourly noting how tiny her waist was.
"Is that all?" His eyes questioned me.
"Of
He was silent for a few beats. I started to believe that was the end of the conversation.
"You know that I love you," he started.
"You really think that's enough," I gaped at him. "You really do. You think you can say that forever and not make any kind of committment. I feel like I'm in limbo."
"You're free to leave limbo and wander elsewhere," he said dryly.
"I'll keep that in mind, Rhys. We both know that is always an option for you ."
I popped my headphones into my ears to end the conversation. He must not have wanted to talk anymore either, because he left me alone for the rest of the ride home.
"Will you come tomorrow?" He asked when we pulled up to my house.
Typically, he would have stayed the night or we would have went back to his place, but he must have sensed that I wasn't having it.
"Sure," I sighed and got out of the car without even a small kiss. Even though it was my choice, it broke my heart a little bit.
So, I showed up to the game, even though I really didn't feel like being there. Every now and then Rhys would look my way and give me a brief smile or small wave.
"He's something, isn't he?" Nicole said, suddenly at my side.
I looked at her curiously for a moment before answering. I had gotten over my envy and jealousy of her, for the most part.
"Yes, he is."
"He sure does carry a flame for you," she said with a hint of sadness in her voice.
" Not really," I sighed.
"Sure he does. It's obvious ."
"Don't be ridiculous, Nicole," I snapped.
We were quiet for a few minutes. I felt bad for snapping at her. It really wasn't her fault I was feeling heart broken.
"Sorry," I said softly.
"Hey, I know how you feel," she said soothingly.
"How could you know?" I asked, trying to keep my tone even. "You're the one that got him to sit still for half a beat."
"Well," she shrugged. "I just think I was in the right place at the right time."
"What does that mean?" I stared at her.
"I caught him at a good time. For whatever reason, he was just ready for something steady, and he settled for me." She wore a sad smile on her face as she gazed across the field at Rhys .
"You're selling yourself short," I said.
"No," she shook her head and smiled a little wider, though it was still sad. "I'm not. I know my value, Lindsey. I love who I am and I have a lot to offer the right man, but he's not it - or I'm not for him. It's all the same."
We stood in silence for a few minutes, watching Rhys run around with the kids. It was warming and sad to watch. He seemed like he would make a great father figure, it just didn't look like he was going to father any of my children.
"Look, he loves you right?" Nicole asked, a little more chipper.
"That's questionable." I scowled slightly.
"He wouldn't say it if he didn't mean it," she sighed and I really began to feel bad for her. "Lindsey, he's probably just afraid."
" Rhys ? Afraid?" I asked doubtfully.
"Yeah, Rhys afraid."
I looked back at Rhys , who was now standing with a group of people, drinking a bottle of water, flushed from playing with the kids. His eyes met mine and he flashed me a quick smile.
"Is it just me, or is his smile an instant turn on?" Nicole asked.
"Totally," I said. "Oh, here he comes."
"He's really good in bed," she sighed.
"Fantastic actually."
"I'm going to need a cold shower."
"Bad idea," I warned. "You'll just be cold and horny with harder nipples."
She gaped at me and then suppressed her laughter as Rhys strolled up.
"What are you two smiling about?" He asked, stopping very close to me.
"About our girls night out we're planning," Nicole said, slinking an arm around my waist.
"Oh. Yes." I reciprocated, sourly noting how tiny her waist was.
"Is that all?" His eyes questioned me.
"Of
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