Own the Wind by Kristen Ashley Page A

to be cut and I felt the same.
    It was all good.
    My life with Shy hadn’t changed. We saw each other all the time, I ruined dinner, he took me out on his bike, we called each other frequently, and I laughed and smiled even more.
    And it had been weeks since I’d had a time where he needed to treat me as fragile and I no longer felt empty inside.
    That didn’t mean the sucker punches didn’t keep coming. I’d drive by a restaurant where Jason and I went, I’d remember, and my breath would leave me. Or I’d be blow-drying my hair, looking in the mirror and remembering how Jason used to come in, dip down, and kiss my shoulder. And going to bed and waking up alone day in and day out, I still wasn’t used to that.
    But I was no longer going through the motions. I was getting back to life, living it and not pretending.
    Thus I was out to lunch with Natalie and sharing with her my scheme.
    I looked into her pretty gray eyes framed by flawless peaches-and-cream skin and halo of fabulous ash-blonde hair with kick-ass highlights, and I narrowed my eyes.
    “You are,” she stated. “You are insane.”
    I leaned forward. “I’m not insane.”
    “Wrong,” she declared.
    “I didn’t say
I
was gonna go out and hunt down the man who killed Shy’s parents.”
    This was the reason Natalie thought I was insane.
    Although most of the time Shy and I were together I was blathering, there were some times when he talked. He shared. He laid it out. He was as comfortable giving it to me as I was giving it to him.
    He talked about his parents and brother a lot, which meant they were on his mind a lot. He did it often grinning, chuckling, natural, comfortable, but as time wore on, I saw this was all an act.
    Their loss bothered him.
    No, it didn’t bother him. It was coming clear it was eating at him.
    All his talk was understandable about his brother. He was in the Army and deployed in Afghanistan now, and I knew, even though Shy didn’t say it flat out, Shy was worried about him. I didn’t even know him but, for Shy, I was worried about him too.
    It was more than that, though. It was clear they had a good family, but it was a family interrupted, and the fact that the guy who murdered his parents was never caught and Shy was still talking about it meant he didn’t have any closure. He didn’t have a way to put it behind him, and I wanted to help him heal and move on like he’d done for me.
    So I figured finding the guy, bringing him to justice, if that could happen, would help Shy to heal. Or, at least, it wouldn’t hurt.
    “No,” Natalie cut into my thoughts, “you’re not goin’ to find the guy yourself, but that doesn’t mean you’re not insane.”
    “Why is finding that bastard insane?” I snapped.
    “How many reasons do you want?” she snapped back.
    “Five,” I retorted.
    She sat back in her chair, lifted her hand with one finger extended and launched in. “One, you’re hiring Lee Nightingale and, girl, you know, that dude has had books written about him. They were fictionalized, but he’s also in the paper all the time, so we both know whoever wrote that shit did not tone it down. He’s the badass to end all badasses. He’s
such
a badass, he’s the freakin’ definition of badass, and his team of badasses only exist to define alternate nuances of the same thing.” Her chin jerked out. “
Badass.
”
    “This is good in a private detective,” I pointed out.
    Natalie ignored me, lifted her hand again, and shook two fingers at me.
    “Two, he’s the best of the best, and the best of the best is expensive. You got a sweet gig as a nurse, but even so, you also don’t have that kind of cake.”
    I had to admit this was a concern.
    When I moved into my apartment, Dad and Tyra sprung for my living room furniture set, the brothers bought me a killer stereo, and the old ladies got together to outfit my kitchen with junk I could use to ruin food. I just had to buy my dining room table and bedroom furniture