One Voice 02 - Here Without You by Mia Kerick Page B

tongue, and explored the inside of his mouth as he pushed himself into my hand. Soon Nate’s movements became frenzied. Before I knew it, both of my lovers were grunting and then groaning. I recognized the sounds as those of both physical satisfaction and emotional fulfillment.
    When it was over, I snatched up the towel beside us on the bed and cleaned my lovers. Then they cleaned me.
    “You didn’t get inside me, Zander.” Nate looked almost guilty.
    Zander and I both looked at Nate, but Zander was the one to respond. “We have the rest of our lives for me to get inside you.” He said it with such confidence, such sureness, that his words caused goose bumps to rise on my arms and chest. The smile that spread across Nate’s face—and I mean, it lit up his whole face—made Nate appear more stunningly beautiful than ever before. Then Zander added, “And Casey, you haven’t topped either of us.”
    “I don’t want to.” If I couldn’t be honest with these two men, I couldn’t be honest with anyone. “It’s just not… not me.”
    Both men nodded, accepting my decision easily.
    “If ya change ya mind, just scream,” Nate instructed me with an adorable directness.
    Zander and I smiled at Nate.
    “You guys will be the first to know if I change my mind.”
    Zander yawned and sort of pushed me and then Nate onto our backs. I knew he was tired and ready to sleep. Like always, I ended up in the middle, and both of my lovers crowded in on me. I stayed on my back, and they faced me on their sides, curled against me, our feet tangled together in a way that I loved.
    “I love you guys.” It was all I could think of to say. It sounded so good, we let it ring in the darkened room as the last words of the night.
     
     
    Z ANDER Z ANE ’ S One Voice Blog Spot—by invite only
    Your host, Zander Z
    *** Note to self —remove before setting blog to public
    This is a private post. Dan, since you’re my only follower right now, I’ll post it here. But before I let the public read my blog, I’m gonna take this one down. Too personal.
    So yeah, dude, this post is gonna be like the old days back in high school when I sent you all of those TMI e-mails. And this one is gonna live up to the old “TMI way.” Enjoy if you can get through it without too much “ewwww.” LOL.
    You are talking to your now nonvirgin little brother. Yup. You heard me right. Nate came for the weekend. And we “did the dirty deed” several times over. And there was nothing dirty about it. I am so glad we waited ’til we were older and out of high school— really ready—and that we waited to make love until a day when we had time to spend alone with each other before, during, and after the big moment. You know?
    I just love those two guys so much. I know I’m only eighteen, but I see a real future with them. It’s like we fit, just the way you and Abby do. It’s real. Incredibly real. And I need you to understand that. I need you to respect our relationship and to accept it as much as I accept your relationship with Abby. You’ve never said anything to me to lead me to believe that you have a problem with the three of us being together. But not saying anything negative is not enough, Dan. I want you to love Nate and Casey as if they were two more brothers. The way I love Abby like a sister.
    I feel relieved that I just put this all out there for you to read. It’s been on my mind for a while now, and writing it here will give you a chance to read it and then think it over. Maybe you can call me over the next few nights, and we can talk.
     
     
    O KAY , SO back to One Voice business. For reasons that I’m sure you can figure out from reading what I’ve written so far in this post, I am more committed to One Voice than ever before. On Sunday, all three of us attended the One Voice meeting, and it felt so right. But first let me tell you about how we met up with these two girls from One Voice, Anna and Claire, for dinner.
    Anna and Claire