feet.
âYouâre crazy!â he shouts. âWhen are you gonna grow up, Tonya ?â
Tonya?! Ouch. Not even Mom calls me that when sheâs pissed. Out of breath, Ollie examines a bloody scrape on his hand. I rub my chin, but my hands wonât stop shaking. I really need to punch something. Loch and Cowboy stare in disbelief, but I donât care what they think. I kick the basketball across the yard and hurry across the lawn to my house where I can feel alienated in a more familiar way.
Later that night, Iâm sitting in my driveway with a pile of colorful sidewalk chalk stacked beside me. I shiver. The hood of my sweatshirt over my head, I draw a lake monster on the cement. The long neck, the small head, the round body, the black tail against blue water. I trace that tail over and over again until itâs a thick tunnel of darkness.
The smell of chalk reminds me of Dad. He should be sitting across from me, adding to the picture, making it more beautiful and unique. He was such a good artist. I pause, short of breath, and close my eyes for a moment.
When I open them, thereâs a blue ice pack in front of my face. Loch plops down across from me and dangles the ice pack like a treat. I take it and press it across my wounded chin, which stings. I add rain clouds above the lake monster.
âWeâre in,â Loch says. âAll of us.â
âHuh?â If I responded like that at Winston, Iâd feel like a prize moron. But with Loch, it feels okay to be not-so-eloquent.
âYour business,â he says, pulling the sleeves of his sweatshirt over his hands. âPeople use each other anyway. Might as well get paid for it. For fake dates. Or whatever.â
I drop the chalk. âHow do I know Ollieâs not going to mess this up? These girls are my peers.â
âHe hates to admit it, but he does need the money,â Loch says. âCowboy does, too. He thinks the way to the heart of Katie Morris is planning an epic prom night for her.â
I hesitate, doubting all of this. I thought the guys would immediately be excited about the business, but the showdown with Ollie proved otherwise. Maybe thereâs too much resentment to be working together. And Iâm hurt they would discuss the business without me. It was my idea. Why leave me out?
âI donât know,â I say, biting my bottom lip. âMaybe we should forget it.â
Loch scoots closer and asks, âWhat are you so afraid of, Toni?â
Iâm afraid my friends are all leaving me behind. Iâm afraid they donât accept me anymore. Iâm afraid of becoming the girl hung out to dry. Iâm afraid to be different from them. Iâm afraid that, without them, Iâll become unrecognizable to myself. Of course I say none of this.
âOllieâs just trying to move on,â Loch adds. âI wouldnât take it too personally.â
âMove on from what though? A lifetime of friendship?â My voices rises. I swallow the lump in my throat. âWho would want to move on from that?â
âYeah. I donât know.â Loch fidgets with his shoelaces. I color the rain clouds blue, fighting back tears. Loch picks up a piece of chalk and adds a bright yellow sun above my drawing of Champ. We sit like that, coloring, until my hands grow numb.
Brianâs voice cuts through the silence. âToni? What are you doing out here? Itâs late.â He stands underneath the porch light, the brim of his baseball cap shadowing his face.
I wave. âIâll be right in.â
Brian lingers. Watches. Cracks his knuckles. I think about what he said about Loch being my boyfriend. I wave again, irritated, and he finally goes back inside.
Loch and I stand, surrounded by dark sky. My breath is a puff of white fog between us. The lawns around us are crunchy and yellowed, tipped with frost.
âSo are we open for business?â Loch asks, hopeful. His features
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