what Iâd planned to say tonight,â he said, clinging to a post, eyes focused somewhere in the distant dark. âBut â¦â
Laura Annâs heart leapt with his first words, then died in the silence that followed.
âYou went to Morgantown in the middle of that insane snowstorm back in February. Remember? You told me then too that it was female stuff. I prayed all day, Laura Ann. Prayed for whatever it was that you felt you couldnât share with me, in hopes youâd be healed or cared for.â
Ian never moved from his post. âWeâve walked through some hard times since Christmas, but weâve been together every day, even if I had to work late. There was no doubt in my mind that weâre right for each otherâno doubt until today.â
Until today?
Laura Annâs heart raced, every fiber straining for her to lift a hand, move a foot, or say something to stop his next words before he could utter them. She turned to face Ian. She moved too late.
âWhen I realized you were on the ground â â His voicecracked and he turned away, drawing in another deep breath. âWhen I saw you there, I thought Iâd lost you. I drove like a madman across the field to get to you.â He wiped at his own eyes and walked away to the end of the porch.
Laura Ann followed, holding her distance. Wars raged inside her to run and wrap her arms about him.
Ian turned back to face her, welling tears reflecting in the dim light from the living room window. âI didnât plan to confront you with this, but the stranger you act, the more distant you become. This secret of yoursâwhat you call âfemale stuffâ â is coming between us.â
He drew in a deep breath and stepped toward her, raising a hand in her direction. âI love you, Laura Ann.â He stood there, waiting for her response, then continued. âBut I hate secrets.â He coughed, and then added, âI have my reasons.â
âThink, then speak,â Daddy used to say. She measured her next words, desperate to scream them.
âIâm sorry, Ianâbut itâs my business.â
âItâs
our
business, Laura Ann. Whatever this is about. Iâve been here every day helping you to keep the farm afloat.â He paused. âI thought we were a team.â
âWe are. We were â,â she said, choking on the last word.
âWere?â he blurted out. His footsteps were the only sound in the silence that followed. He approached and put a hand on her shoulder, tugging at her to turn.
Laura Ann backed away, bumping into the porch rail. She could run no further, withering in the face of the first anger sheâd seen from him in months.
âThe farm â,â she began.
Ian cut her off. âNo! Iâve heard all about your dreams, and know just what problems weâre facing.
We
are facing.â
âIâd do anything â â
âOld news, Laura Ann. Tell me something I donât know.Youâre going to the doctor, or at least you say you are. I want to know what ails you â and thatâs where I canât tolerate secrecy.â He lowered his eyes a moment, and then looked back up. âIâm sorry. I just want to help.â
Ian backed away from her, gritting teeth that clamped down on words she was sure heâd swallowed. âIâve hidden nothing from you, Laura Ann. And I donât ever intend to.â He gulped and looked away.
Whip-poor-will.
The bird cried out, the echo of its song muffled in the fog. No bird called back. Solitary. Isolated. Alone.
She gripped the porch rail behind her, backed into a corner she could not escape. âIâm not exactly sick, Ian.â
âThen?â
âA gynecologist in Morgantown has me on some strong medications to regulate my cycle.â
âThatâs all?â he asked, a nervous laugh mixed in the question. He laid his hands on her
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