trainingafewtimeswithBethy.Shit. Ishookmyheadandwavedheron.Ididn’twantadrinkfromher.Shesmiledbrightlyand droveontothenextstop. “It’shotouthere.Yousureyoudon’twantsomething?”Meg’svoiceaskedandIglanced backtoseeherwalkingupdressedinawhitetennisskirtandpolo.She’dbeenbigintotennis tenyearsagotoo. “Wrongcartgirl,”Irepliedandwaitedonhertocatchuptome. “Youonlybuyfromone?” “Yep.” Meglookedthoughtfulthennodded.“Isee.Youhaveathingforacartgirl.” ‘Athing’didn’tevenscratchthesurface.Ipulledmygolfbaguponmyshoulderandstarted walkingtothenexthole.Iwasn’tgoingtorespondtothatcomment. “Andhe’stouchyaboutit,”Megquipped.Thatannoyedme. “Orit’sjustnotyourbusiness.” Sheletoutalowwhistle.“Soit’smorethanathing.” Istoppedandleveledmygazeonher.Justbecauseshewasmy irstfuckdidn’tmeanwe hadanykindofbondorfriendship.Thiswaspissingmeoff.“Letitgo,”Iwarned. Megputherhandsonherhipsandherjawfellopen.“Ohmygod…RushFinlayhasfallenin love.Holyshit!IneverthoughtI’dseetheday.” “Youhaven’tseenmeintenyears,Meg.Howthehelldoyouknowanythingaboutme?” Theannoyedsnarlinmyvoicedidn’tevenmakeherflinch. “Listen,Finlay.Justbecauseyouhaven’tseenmeintenyearsdoesn’tmeanIhaven’tseen orheardaboutyou.I’vebeenbackintownseveraltimesbutyouwerealwayspartyingitupat casadeFinlayandscrewingeverymodelperfectbodythatcameyourway.Ididn’tseeapoint inshowingbackupinyourlife.Butyeah,I’veseenyouandliketherestofthistownIknow thatyou’rearich,gorgeousplayerwhocanhavehispickofthelitter.” Isoundedshallow.Ididn’tlikethepictureshepaintedofme.DidBlaireseemethatway? NotonlycanshenottrustmetochooseherandprotectherbutshemustthinkI’lljustmove onwhensomeoneelsecomesalong.Surelysheknowsthatisn’ttrue. “She’samazing.No…she’sperfect.Everythingaboutherisfuckingperfect,”Isaidaloud then shifted my gaze back to Meg. “I don’t just love her, she owns me. Completely. I’d do anythingforher.” “Butshedoesn’tfeelthesameway?”Megasked. “Ihurther.Notthewayyou’rethinkingeither.ThewayIhurtherishardtoexplain.There issomuchpaininwhathappenedthatIdon’tknowifIcanevergetherback.” “Issheacartgirl?” She was really hung up on the cart girl thing. “Yeah she is,” I paused and wondered if I shouldtellherexactlywhoBlairewas.Sayingitaloudtosomeoneandadmittingthismight helpmemakesenseofit.“SheandNanhavethesamefather.”Ihadn’tmeanttosayitlike that. “Shit,”Megmuttered.“Pleasetellmeshe’snothinglikeyourevillittlesister.” Nan had very few fans. I didn’t even linch at the accusation that she was evil. She’d broughtthisonherself.“No.She’snothinglikeNan.” MegwasquietamomentandIwonderedifthiswasasfarasthisconversationwasgoing to go. Then she shifted her feet and pointed back toward the clubhouse. “Why don’t we go havesomelunchandyoucantellmeallaboutthisverystrangesituationandI’llseeifIcan’t comeupwithsomewisdomorattheveryleastfemaleadvice.” IneededanyadviceIcouldget.TherewerenofemalesinmylifeIcouldaskforhelp.“Yeah, okay.Soundsgood.YougivemeanyadviceIcanuseandlunchisonme.” Blaire
This was the second day that I had woken up without getting sick. I’d even had Bethy cook bacon to test me out before I came in for the lunch shift. I figured if I could survive the bacon then I could do this. My stomach had rolled and I’d gotten nauseous but I hadn’t thrown up. I was getting better. IcalledWoodsandassuredhimIwouldbe ine.Hetoldmetocomeoninbecausethey were short staffed and he needed me. Jimmy was standing in the kitchen grinning when I walkedinthirtyminutesbeforethelunchshift. “There’smygirl.Gladthatstomachvirushasgone.Youlooklikeyoulosttenpounds.How longwereyousick?”WoodshadtoldJimmyandanyoneelsewhoaskedthatIhadavirusandI was recovering. I’d only worked two shifts on the course and I never ran into kitchen staff whileonthecarts. “I probably did lose some weight. I’m sure I’ll gain it back soon enough,” I replied and