everything enough to get by.
One day at a time. One breath at a time.
Chapter 16
Jace
Leaning against my locker, I watched the other students rush past while I waited for Aiden to put his books away. Violet wandered past, quickly glancing up at me before blushing and speeding up her pace.
I narrowed my eyes at her retreating figure. I’d heard about her Facebook post. The guys had given me all sorts of slaps on the back and high fives over that one. I didn’t know when this fuck fest was supposed to have happened. Just like the one I supposedly had with Kacey. Obviously I could be in two places at once. Fuck, I was good.
My mind wandered back to Mia. It’d been exactly a week since I’d heard from her, and almost two weeks since I’d had the pleasure of touching her. I didn’t know what was wrong, or if I was doing the right thing by giving her space, but that’s what Aiden seemed to be doing, so I just went with it.
When I woke this morning though, I’d decided enough was enough, so I texted her. It wasn’t much of anything, just a ‘hi’ with a smiley face, but it was now lunch time, and I hadn’t received a reply. It kind of pissed me off.
We walked out to the green, enjoying the fact that most of the rain seemed to have gone now it was spring , and camped out at our usual spot. I found Mia’s lonesome figure on the other side of the green, sitting in the sun with her legs crossed.
I pulled out my phone, ready to get this shit sorted.
Are you not talking to me?
I watched her intently , expecting her to look up at me, but she didn’t. She just kept her eyes on her phone. A few seconds later, my phone vibrated in my hand.
Uh…I didn’t really think there was any point. I’m assuming we’re done now…
What the fuck?! I looked up at her. She still wasn’t looking my way. My heart was going into a panic.
Why?
I held my breath while I waited for her to reply. She was taking fucking forever.
You know why.
No. I fucking didn’t know why!
No. I don’t. Explain it to me.
I told you I wouldn’t continue with it if you saw other girls.
Realization hit me like a fucking brick. Oh, fuck no. She thought I fucked Violet.
A tinge of panic swelled inside me. I’d already come to the realization that there were strings involved for me. Lots of confusing fucking strings , but I couldn’t tell Mia that. I couldn’t risk scaring her away. I just needed to convince her that I’d stuck to the rules. Running my thumbs over the screen of my phone, I shot off a quick text.
I’m not seeing anyone...
Her response was immediate.
Jace, I know about Violet .
For fuck’s sake. Why did shit have to be so hard? I was just trying to figure out how to word my defense when I heard Aiden talking beside me. Carly was asking about the tour we were scheduled to go on with The Dark Hybrid.
“...yeah, we leave just after grad. It’s going to be pretty intense. We’re going to be flat out for months...”
It hit me then just how selfish I was thinking. How many times had Mia told me she didn’t do crowds? We had three months before we were gone, and if everything went how Rich thought it would, we were going to be living in the spotlight. With crowds. The very place Mia didn’t want to be.
I had no idea what to do. For the first time in my life, I wanted to try with a girl and it turned out she couldn’t be with me the way I wanted her to. The way I saw it, I had two choices. I could set her straight and keep seeing her in secret until we left to go on tour, or I could leave her thinking I’d been with Violet and let her move on.
As much as it hurt to think, I knew the second option would probably be the best for both of us.
With a strange heavy feeling in my chest, I typed.
I’m sorry.
I s wallowed the lump in my throat as her answer came through.
Don’t be. You didn’t do anything wrong, Thank you for everything xx
Those little kisses at the end nearly did me in. I wanted to just
One day at a time. One breath at a time.
Chapter 16
Jace
Leaning against my locker, I watched the other students rush past while I waited for Aiden to put his books away. Violet wandered past, quickly glancing up at me before blushing and speeding up her pace.
I narrowed my eyes at her retreating figure. I’d heard about her Facebook post. The guys had given me all sorts of slaps on the back and high fives over that one. I didn’t know when this fuck fest was supposed to have happened. Just like the one I supposedly had with Kacey. Obviously I could be in two places at once. Fuck, I was good.
My mind wandered back to Mia. It’d been exactly a week since I’d heard from her, and almost two weeks since I’d had the pleasure of touching her. I didn’t know what was wrong, or if I was doing the right thing by giving her space, but that’s what Aiden seemed to be doing, so I just went with it.
When I woke this morning though, I’d decided enough was enough, so I texted her. It wasn’t much of anything, just a ‘hi’ with a smiley face, but it was now lunch time, and I hadn’t received a reply. It kind of pissed me off.
We walked out to the green, enjoying the fact that most of the rain seemed to have gone now it was spring , and camped out at our usual spot. I found Mia’s lonesome figure on the other side of the green, sitting in the sun with her legs crossed.
I pulled out my phone, ready to get this shit sorted.
Are you not talking to me?
I watched her intently , expecting her to look up at me, but she didn’t. She just kept her eyes on her phone. A few seconds later, my phone vibrated in my hand.
Uh…I didn’t really think there was any point. I’m assuming we’re done now…
What the fuck?! I looked up at her. She still wasn’t looking my way. My heart was going into a panic.
Why?
I held my breath while I waited for her to reply. She was taking fucking forever.
You know why.
No. I fucking didn’t know why!
No. I don’t. Explain it to me.
I told you I wouldn’t continue with it if you saw other girls.
Realization hit me like a fucking brick. Oh, fuck no. She thought I fucked Violet.
A tinge of panic swelled inside me. I’d already come to the realization that there were strings involved for me. Lots of confusing fucking strings , but I couldn’t tell Mia that. I couldn’t risk scaring her away. I just needed to convince her that I’d stuck to the rules. Running my thumbs over the screen of my phone, I shot off a quick text.
I’m not seeing anyone...
Her response was immediate.
Jace, I know about Violet .
For fuck’s sake. Why did shit have to be so hard? I was just trying to figure out how to word my defense when I heard Aiden talking beside me. Carly was asking about the tour we were scheduled to go on with The Dark Hybrid.
“...yeah, we leave just after grad. It’s going to be pretty intense. We’re going to be flat out for months...”
It hit me then just how selfish I was thinking. How many times had Mia told me she didn’t do crowds? We had three months before we were gone, and if everything went how Rich thought it would, we were going to be living in the spotlight. With crowds. The very place Mia didn’t want to be.
I had no idea what to do. For the first time in my life, I wanted to try with a girl and it turned out she couldn’t be with me the way I wanted her to. The way I saw it, I had two choices. I could set her straight and keep seeing her in secret until we left to go on tour, or I could leave her thinking I’d been with Violet and let her move on.
As much as it hurt to think, I knew the second option would probably be the best for both of us.
With a strange heavy feeling in my chest, I typed.
I’m sorry.
I s wallowed the lump in my throat as her answer came through.
Don’t be. You didn’t do anything wrong, Thank you for everything xx
Those little kisses at the end nearly did me in. I wanted to just
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