been an idiot to let her get away.
âIf Nuala was here, sheâdâa died in a fever, lying in her own filth, just like Jimmy and Mick done,â Liam said bitterly. âShe was lucky to go like she did. Better for her that way than this one.â
Hugh stared blearily at his eldest son, the boyâs yellow hair dark with filth, drooping across his sweaty forehead and into eyes blue and cold as steel, a boyâs eyes no longer. Liam was like his mam, too, but only the hard bits: the sharp tongue and harsh laugh sheâd acquired those last few years. The lad was so young to be so bitter. Margaret had been bitter, too, by the time sheâd died. Well, a hard life could do that to folk, and none so hard as Hughâs own. âAll gone,â he said softly. âAll gone and naught I could do.â Liam would be next, he thought, already mourning the son who stood trembling against the wall.
Something hit him in the chest, taking the wind out of him. His arms flailed, blindly grabbing the bucket that Liam had thrown at him. Hugh hadnât thought the lad would have the strength to lift so much as a handkerchief, never mind the heavy wooden bucket.
âHereâs something you can do,â the boy said, pointing to the bucket. âFetch some water, why donât you? The least you can do is clean âem up so they can be buried decent.â He dropped to his knees and waved the flies away from the blanket, carefully folded it down, every motion an effort for his shaking body. He exposed the ladsâ ashen faces, then their shoulders, the stench of their sickness, of their emptied bladders and bowels rising as he peeled the blanket back from their grotesquely distended bellies.
Hughâs stomach roiled and he clamped a hand over his nose and mouth to keep the reek out and his dinner in. He tried to turn away, but he couldnât stop himself from staring at the two obscenely inhuman things that used to be his lads. âI canât,â he protested, clutching the bucket to his chest as if it could ward off his dead sonsâ angry spirits, his living sonâs accusing eyes, his own shame and guilt.
Liamâs hands reached out and circled his fatherâs wrists like shackles. The anger and bitterness in his eyes dissolved into exhaustion and tears. âFor Christâs sake, Da. Please. I canât be doing this alone. I need you, Da.â He gestured toward the lads. âThey need you.â
Oh, yes, Liam looked like his mam all right. Like Margaret the day she died, her face pale and narrow and full of pain and terror, her grip on his arm suddenly so powerful heâd feel the bruises for days after. Then just as suddenly gone, her hands, face, eyes, empty as his heart without her. Hugh couldnât see his son anymore for his own weeping, weeping all the while he fled the shanty, the empty bucket falling from his arms with a hollow thud.
Chapter Twelve
Tuesday, September 10, 1839, Chauncey, Connecticut
â âTainât fair, Phizzy.â Billy pressed her legs tighter around Phizzyâs broad belly, urging him into a canter with calves and thighs and seat the way Mr. S. had taught her.
At first sheâd been thrilled when Mr. S. had rescued that gawky lad with the big ears. But now she wished the lad had proved to be a murderer and was locked safely away.
It had been bad enough that Mr. S. had invited that one to travel with them, but now the lad knew her secret. Any day he would tell on her and sheâd have to go back to being Nuala, and it would be that new lad traveling with Mr. S. instead of her.
It wasnât right. Wasnât this her true self, this boy sheâd invented? Wasnât Mr. S. more her true da than the one sheâd been given by mistake?
She leaned forward and wrapped her arms around Phizzyâs neck, burying her face in his coarse mane. The moment sheâd laid eyes on Phizzy sheâd known that she was
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