cared about him and she believed that I was his sheeranla. I hoped that she would never do anything to hurt either one of us again.
"Do you remember something?" I said, breaking my own rule about not asking him.
He frowned.
"No. Nothing."
I nodded.
"Let's go. I wish I could forget what happened here, too."
He gazed at me intently but I turned away to get back into the hovercraft. I didn't want him asking difficult questions because I didn't feel like giving the answers.
----
Our final stop was the oasis. I had left it for last because I was avoiding it.
I didn't want to remember what had happened here. It was ironic that one of us was trying desperately to remember while the other just wanted to forget.
We walked through the warm, wet air enjoying the respite from the dry heat of the desert. I led him through the foliage until we came out at the spot where I had emerged alive having completed the ritual that would make me Susohnnan.
I looked around, feeling all the fear and despair that I had felt before â along with the courage and strength that I had gained in a test of my endurance and spirit. Absentmindedly, I rubbed my hip where the scar was located.
Then I glanced at Dar and realized that it had all been in vain because I had lost him anyway.
"I remember having a flashback in this place. But I can't actually recall the memory or anything about what happened here," he said, looking despondent.
"That's okay," I said and I couldn't keep the bitterness out of my voice. "You can make new memories here, with someone else."
"Kenna, please," he said, looking pained.
"Sorry. Sorry," I said, raising my hands in a gesture of apology. "Come on, there's one more spot we need to visit."
"Okay," he said and followed me.
It only took a few minutes to get to the cave entrance. It was right where I remembered it. I stepped forward and pressed the triangle. I glanced over at him. But he was completely surprised when the doorway in the rock opened up.
Damn. I thought that might jog something, but apparently not.
I walked into the cave, not waiting to see if he followed me. A few seconds later, and we were in the middle of a huge cavern that had beautiful colors flowing across the ceiling. I gazed up at the natural loveliness around me but I couldn't find it in my heart to properly appreciate it.
I was so bitter and disappointed, lately, that those feelings were pushing out any other emotions.
"What is this place?" he said, sounding as awestruck as I had been the first time he had brought me here.
"A safe haven," I told him. I was echoing back words he had said to me in the past.
I remembered how I had asked him why he was going to so much trouble for me. That was when he told me that he loved me.
"This place feels important, Kenna. Why?" he said, looking over at me.
I didn't want to tell him, but what if my knowledge could help him remember? I owed him that.
I met his eyes, swallowing hard.
"You told me that you loved me here," I said, trying not to think about how it had felt when he had said it. "Not for the first time, but it was special."
His eyes seemed fixated on my face and I couldn't look away.
"I said: But I haven't told you that I loved you back. And you said..."
"I never asked you to," he finished and for a moment his eyes changed. He was my Dar. He was back.
Then he blinked his eyes and everything was forgotten again.
----
"Dar?" I said, staring at him. He had just been here! Now he was only a stranger again.
"Yeah?" he said. "What were you saying? I blanked out there for a second."
I looked at him. This was too cruel. How would I get through this?
"Nothing," I said. "I wasn't saying anything. Would you like to move on now?"
"Sure," he said. "I'm not getting anything here."
We wandered through the caves further than I had gone before and I remembered what else had happened in here. He had made love to me and it was the first time I ever had two orgasms in a row.
"We should turn around,"
"Do you remember something?" I said, breaking my own rule about not asking him.
He frowned.
"No. Nothing."
I nodded.
"Let's go. I wish I could forget what happened here, too."
He gazed at me intently but I turned away to get back into the hovercraft. I didn't want him asking difficult questions because I didn't feel like giving the answers.
----
Our final stop was the oasis. I had left it for last because I was avoiding it.
I didn't want to remember what had happened here. It was ironic that one of us was trying desperately to remember while the other just wanted to forget.
We walked through the warm, wet air enjoying the respite from the dry heat of the desert. I led him through the foliage until we came out at the spot where I had emerged alive having completed the ritual that would make me Susohnnan.
I looked around, feeling all the fear and despair that I had felt before â along with the courage and strength that I had gained in a test of my endurance and spirit. Absentmindedly, I rubbed my hip where the scar was located.
Then I glanced at Dar and realized that it had all been in vain because I had lost him anyway.
"I remember having a flashback in this place. But I can't actually recall the memory or anything about what happened here," he said, looking despondent.
"That's okay," I said and I couldn't keep the bitterness out of my voice. "You can make new memories here, with someone else."
"Kenna, please," he said, looking pained.
"Sorry. Sorry," I said, raising my hands in a gesture of apology. "Come on, there's one more spot we need to visit."
"Okay," he said and followed me.
It only took a few minutes to get to the cave entrance. It was right where I remembered it. I stepped forward and pressed the triangle. I glanced over at him. But he was completely surprised when the doorway in the rock opened up.
Damn. I thought that might jog something, but apparently not.
I walked into the cave, not waiting to see if he followed me. A few seconds later, and we were in the middle of a huge cavern that had beautiful colors flowing across the ceiling. I gazed up at the natural loveliness around me but I couldn't find it in my heart to properly appreciate it.
I was so bitter and disappointed, lately, that those feelings were pushing out any other emotions.
"What is this place?" he said, sounding as awestruck as I had been the first time he had brought me here.
"A safe haven," I told him. I was echoing back words he had said to me in the past.
I remembered how I had asked him why he was going to so much trouble for me. That was when he told me that he loved me.
"This place feels important, Kenna. Why?" he said, looking over at me.
I didn't want to tell him, but what if my knowledge could help him remember? I owed him that.
I met his eyes, swallowing hard.
"You told me that you loved me here," I said, trying not to think about how it had felt when he had said it. "Not for the first time, but it was special."
His eyes seemed fixated on my face and I couldn't look away.
"I said: But I haven't told you that I loved you back. And you said..."
"I never asked you to," he finished and for a moment his eyes changed. He was my Dar. He was back.
Then he blinked his eyes and everything was forgotten again.
----
"Dar?" I said, staring at him. He had just been here! Now he was only a stranger again.
"Yeah?" he said. "What were you saying? I blanked out there for a second."
I looked at him. This was too cruel. How would I get through this?
"Nothing," I said. "I wasn't saying anything. Would you like to move on now?"
"Sure," he said. "I'm not getting anything here."
We wandered through the caves further than I had gone before and I remembered what else had happened in here. He had made love to me and it was the first time I ever had two orgasms in a row.
"We should turn around,"
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