about it, but Travis got it started today with his comments about using Audree; the last thing he had ever wanted to do. He knew she had stayed down at the barn preparing for the party longer than she’d needed to just so she wouldn’t be alone with him. He was both annoyed and relieved that she hadn’t come back, because then they would have just ended up in the same place they always did when they were alone, with him inside of her.
He took another drink from his bottle of beer and looked around the barn for Audree. He had seen her earlier talking to different groups of people. He liked watching her move around the crowd. He never really got to see her working her social magic; he knew she was social and loved being around people, especially kids. Except when he was around, then it was like she was a different person, much more guarded. He didn’t like it, but he understood it. She was doing the same thing he was, guarding his heart and keeping his distance-everywhere- except in bed.
Who the fuck is that! Gavin was instantly pulled out of his thoughts when he finally caught sight of Audree again. She was with some guy and he was holding her hand as they walked to the bar. He put his hand on her lower back while they stood at the bar with Ruby, Travis, and some other asshole who was eyeing Ruby like she was going to be his last meal. Good for Ruby, she is a great person and hasn’t had a guy in her life in a while. But his friend was touching Audree and that was not a good thing.
What the fuck is going on? I turn my head for a second and some asshat has his hands on my girl. My girl? Audree is not my girl, is she? She said it herself the day she left me standing in the barn. I didn’t claim her then and haven’t claimed her as mine since. We've never made a commitment to each other. We have a shared history, we have sex, but no real relationship. I don't have to explain myself to her or anyone else for that matter. Even without exclusivity she is the only woman I've been with in the last two years, but I'm sure as hell not going to tell her that. No one has asked my relationship status, if the did I probably wouldn't answer anyway. Let them think what they want.
She sure as hell wasn’t thinking of me when Brooks knocked her up. I don’t even want to think about her with another man, so I choose to be blind to the fact that … fuck, who am I kidding? It would kill me knowing she was with someone else. I would never claim to be celibate; there have been a handful of women in my bed, a couple in college after that night with Audree, and one after I found out about Eva. I stopped sleeping with her after Eva was born; I just couldn’t do it anymore. I realized I was only fucking her because I was mad at Audree for getting pregnant by someone else, but I sure as hell haven’t stepped up, so I figured I didn’t have a right to be mad at her. I can’t have her but what? I don’t want anyone else to have her? As wrong as it may be, no, I don’t want her to belong to anyone else but me.
We only started screwing around after she broken up with some idiot who let her get away after dating her for over a year and a half. I hated that guy. Travis said he was a good guy, but hardly ever around. Then he up and choose his career over Audree. Eva never even mentioned the guy except to say he was nice. I think Audree was just hanging with him to try to get me out of her mind. Just like I had done with Betty. Seemed it didn’t work any better for her than it did for me. So I came home. Eva was visiting Brooks for his or his girlfriend’s birthday. Leaving Audree and I alone. Audree was single, I was single, and we ended up fucking each other against the wall in the living room. Then we spent the weekend fucking in pretty much every room in her house, except her bedroom, a room I never took her in or spent any time in. A room no other man will ever have her if I have anything to say about it. Eva and Ruby’s room had been
He took another drink from his bottle of beer and looked around the barn for Audree. He had seen her earlier talking to different groups of people. He liked watching her move around the crowd. He never really got to see her working her social magic; he knew she was social and loved being around people, especially kids. Except when he was around, then it was like she was a different person, much more guarded. He didn’t like it, but he understood it. She was doing the same thing he was, guarding his heart and keeping his distance-everywhere- except in bed.
Who the fuck is that! Gavin was instantly pulled out of his thoughts when he finally caught sight of Audree again. She was with some guy and he was holding her hand as they walked to the bar. He put his hand on her lower back while they stood at the bar with Ruby, Travis, and some other asshole who was eyeing Ruby like she was going to be his last meal. Good for Ruby, she is a great person and hasn’t had a guy in her life in a while. But his friend was touching Audree and that was not a good thing.
What the fuck is going on? I turn my head for a second and some asshat has his hands on my girl. My girl? Audree is not my girl, is she? She said it herself the day she left me standing in the barn. I didn’t claim her then and haven’t claimed her as mine since. We've never made a commitment to each other. We have a shared history, we have sex, but no real relationship. I don't have to explain myself to her or anyone else for that matter. Even without exclusivity she is the only woman I've been with in the last two years, but I'm sure as hell not going to tell her that. No one has asked my relationship status, if the did I probably wouldn't answer anyway. Let them think what they want.
She sure as hell wasn’t thinking of me when Brooks knocked her up. I don’t even want to think about her with another man, so I choose to be blind to the fact that … fuck, who am I kidding? It would kill me knowing she was with someone else. I would never claim to be celibate; there have been a handful of women in my bed, a couple in college after that night with Audree, and one after I found out about Eva. I stopped sleeping with her after Eva was born; I just couldn’t do it anymore. I realized I was only fucking her because I was mad at Audree for getting pregnant by someone else, but I sure as hell haven’t stepped up, so I figured I didn’t have a right to be mad at her. I can’t have her but what? I don’t want anyone else to have her? As wrong as it may be, no, I don’t want her to belong to anyone else but me.
We only started screwing around after she broken up with some idiot who let her get away after dating her for over a year and a half. I hated that guy. Travis said he was a good guy, but hardly ever around. Then he up and choose his career over Audree. Eva never even mentioned the guy except to say he was nice. I think Audree was just hanging with him to try to get me out of her mind. Just like I had done with Betty. Seemed it didn’t work any better for her than it did for me. So I came home. Eva was visiting Brooks for his or his girlfriend’s birthday. Leaving Audree and I alone. Audree was single, I was single, and we ended up fucking each other against the wall in the living room. Then we spent the weekend fucking in pretty much every room in her house, except her bedroom, a room I never took her in or spent any time in. A room no other man will ever have her if I have anything to say about it. Eva and Ruby’s room had been
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