could live with. I’ll keep that to myself for now; no need to scare her away from the get-go.
Now founding her again, being a SEAL wasn’t what I wanted anymore. That feeling of excitement some of us get when going out on a mission, faded just a bit. In the light of finding Siddaleigh again, I made a promise to myself. No more adrenaline rushes, no more missions. I’d have to talk to my CO when I got back to Coronado. Maybe the guys at the base were right. I’ll do my twenty years. That meant going into the Navy Reserve for the last five of them. Nathan, my best friend since we were kids, was thinking about it, too. Maybe it was time.
Brianne was right. Maybe it is time to settle. And with Siddaleigh, I was ready. It happened too fast, but who cares when the one thing that’s mine and mine alone is staring back at you with soulful bedroom eyes.
My iPhone 5 lit up with an incoming call. My mother’s picture lit up the screen and I made myself suppress the groan wanting to come out. She wanted me settled, too. This time, I wouldn’t let her down. She’s going to get the daughter-in-law she’s been begging me for, and for at least the last five years, my mother had been begging.
Looking back in my rearview mirror, I saw Sidda on her phone. Seeing the smile on her face, made me realize that yeah, she was mine. I’ll do anything to make her happy. Just to see that blush that seemed to rush on her face and the sweetest smile I’d ever seen. I knew it would take some time, and perhaps some convincing. That was a challenge I would happily accept.
♥
..::Siddaleigh::..
Feeling like a teenager, a giggle passed my lips. Going with Konner was such a stupid idea, but I just couldn’t tell him no. Looking in his beautiful eyes, I knew I wouldn’t tell him no. Whatever happened tonight, I knew I was most likely risking my heart, but it might be worth it, to give in. Even if it was for only a night.
Driving behind him, I looked in my rearview mirror to make sure my face wasn’t splotchy or red. My face gets hot from this Houston heat. I was not made for the heat. I have always been what I called an ‘air-baby’, because if I didn’t get air, I was going to hyperventilate.
Hyperventilating and me just didn‘t get along. Not with my size.
As he said we’d do, we stopped at a rinky-dink movie renters shop, and picked up the movie. I was surprised they even had it. But as we walked through the aisles, I noticed they had a lot of old-timey type movies. I loved that. So vintage. As we walked back to our cars, he must have noticed my nervousness because we stopped when we reached mine. He lifted my face with the crook of his pointer finger. Just looking in his eyes seemed to make me relax. He always had that effect on me. Good thing that never went away.
“It’s okay, Siddaleigh. I will not hurt you, love. Never. No rush, no hurry. Lemme get to know you again, sweet love.” Just the lull of his voice seemed to melt the tension in my body.
“I know, it’s just I don’t do this. You know, being impulsive. Reckless.”
A helpless laugh came out of my mouth and Konner just shifted his hand past my face to my neck. He caressed the fast beating thump-thump of my pulse with his thumb.
“Don’t worry, álainn. It’s just dinner and a movie. You want more, you show me. I know the word no. A woman’s trust should be honored and respected. Besides, after eight years, I think my will power is strong. Hopefully.” Konner chuckled and released me with a tender kiss to my forehead.
Getting back into my car, and settling down into the cushion, I realized that he was right. I would have to make the first move. Showing him what happened to me would be agonizing but if it were to progress into intimacy, he would have to know the truth. The absolute honest truth; and that’s not something I think I can do. It’s bad enough I can’t look at my body in the mirror when I dress. Too many scars outfitted my
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