canât always be home when your kids need you. Thatâs the way it is, if weâre going to have food on the table and a roof over our heads.â
Stevie said nothing. DeAnne had never seen him so unforgiving. In fact, she had never seen him act unforgiving at all. Maybe what happened at school today really was awful, so awful that Stevie couldnât forgive his father for not being there to protect him.
Well, sheâd find out soon enough now. âCome on, Stevie,â she said. âLetâs go to your room and you can tell me what happened.â
âNot in front of Robbie,â he said.
âOK, weâll go to my room,â she said. âStep, if you canât wait for supper, fix yourself something, but if you wait Iâll poach some eggs or something.â
Step nodded, learning against the bookshelves. As she followed Stevie out of the room, she thought she had never seen Step look so bent, so broken , in all the years sheâd known him. It made her want to go to him and hold him and comfort him . . . but she knew that Step would understand, would agree that it was more important for her to be with Stevie. The childâs needs always took precedence over the adultâs. That was the way it had to be, when you had children. That was the contract you made with the kids when you chose to call their spirits from heaven into the world, that as long as they were young and needed you, you did whatever you could to meet their needs before you did anything else for anybody else.
They sat next to each other on her side of the queen-sized bed that Stepâs parents had given them as a wedding present. âWhat happened today, Stevie,â said DeAnne.
Almost immediately, his face twisted up and the pent-up tears flowed again as they had flowed in the car. âI couldnât understand them, Mom!â
âWhat do you mean?â
âI couldnât understand what they said! To me, I mean. I could understand them mostly in class, when they were talking to the teacher, but when they talked to me I didnât understand hardly anything and so I just stood there and finally I said, I canât understand you, and they called me stupid and retarded. â
âHoney, you know youâre not stupid. You know youâre a straight A student.â
âBut I couldnât understand anything.â He sounded fierce now; much of his anger, she realized, must have been from the frustration he had felt, being unable to communicate with the other kids. âI asked them what language they were speaking, and they said âAmerican,â and then they started making fun of the way I talk, like I talked wrong or something. But I didnât say anything wrong!â
âHoney, youâve got to understand, this is a school in a fairly rural part of Steuben. A country school. They just have thick southern accents.â
âWell they understood everything I said.â
âBecause you talk normal American English. Like on television. They all watch TV, so theyâre used to understanding the way you talk.â
âThen why donât they talk that way?â
âMaybe in a couple of generations they will. But right now they talk in a southern accent. And besides, you did understand some of what they said, or you wouldnât have known they were calling you retarded and stupid.â
He began to cry harder. âI made this one girl write it down for me. Thatâs how I knew. And then they all wrote it down. Retarded and stupid. They wrote it on papers and gave it to me. All day. I didnât read them, though. I mean after the first couple.â
âThat was very wise of you,â said DeAnne. âAnd very cruel of them.â
âBut when I was leaving at the end of school I left all those notes on the table and Mrs. Jones made me go back and pick them all up and take them with me.â The humiliation of it made him shudder.
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