teachers.â
âBut not any other Mr Eliases.â
Orlando looked at me oddly. âWho are we going to ask to your party?â
I didnât want Nicola to come, but Fiona had other ideas. âYou canât leave the girl out,â she declared, when I showed her my list. âIt would be unkind not to invite her.â
âI donât really want her to come.â
âWhy not?â
âSheâs . . .â Dangerous, was what I wanted to say, but if I did, I knew my mother would want to know what I meant. And I wasnât prepared to mention the shoplifting, or Bertram Yelland. Or the way she had tried to damage Sasha Elias. â. . . not really my sort,â I muttered.
âReally? I wouldnât have guessed.â Fionaâs glance was too shrewd for comfort. âI like her mother well enough, but I agree the girl is a bit of a menace. Still, since you insisted on being around her so much this holidays, you canât very well leave her out, so youâll just have to put up with it. Obviously weâll invite Louise Stone, and isnât there a brother? Maybe theyâll be able to keep some kind of a check on her.â
âCheck?â
âThis is your party and Iâm not prepared to accept any . . .â My mother wasnât usually at such a sustained loss for words.
âAny what?â
âAnything untoward.â
âWhat does that mean?â
âNever mind.â
âIf she comes, I shanât,â I said sulkily.
âDonât be silly, darling.â
âI mean it!â
But both of us knew that I didnât. Parties were a rare enough event in our lives; a party in our own house was unheard of. We were such a large group that we rarely needed further company. Julian, Nicola and the rest spent time in our house, as we did in theirs, but for the most part, we remained self-sufficient, disconnected from the world beyond our own. Even when my father was home from Oxford, we never had people to dinner. Occasionally one of his undergraduates would show up, taking a detour from cycling round Kent or visiting Canterbury Cathedral. Sometimes my big brothers would bring home a friend from university or medical school, and very occasionally my mother would suggest I might like to invite a girl from school down for part of the holidays. The girl was always Erin Carpenter, an American from Boston. She spelled a kind of freedom â one quite different from Nicolaâs wildness. I breathed more deeply when I was with Erin, saw the world in brighter colours, sensed wider horizons spreading below the edge of my own sea-encompassed limits.
âWow!â she would say. âGreat!â, âOk
aaaa
y!â, the second syllable floating endlessly from her wide mouth, giving it quite a different sound from the word we had been forbidden to use. Mediated through Erin, America with its spacious skies, its purple mountains, seemed boundless, munificent, a land of plenty.
But Erin was in California, staying with her divorced father, and wouldnât be able to come. A disappointment, especially since Fiona had promised that, as the party was partly to celebrate my birthday, I could have a new dress.
âCan it be pink?â I said.
âPink?â
âOh,
please
. . .â
âIâll see if I have something by me.â This was a good start: Fiona nearly always had something by her.
And indeed, a few days later, she showed me a length of pink silk brocade. âWhat do you think, darling? I saved it from before the war,â she said. âIsnât it a beautiful colour?â
âPink,â I breathed.
âNot pink, Old Rose.â
Old Rose. My motherâs words transformed the cloth into something magical, straight from the middle of a fairy-tale forest full of white harts and questing beasts, where a sleeping princess lay in a golden castle deep at its crimson heart.
âAnd Avaâs going to
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