didnât matter how much my teachers loved me or how well I did, it all came down to the number of days. âWe love you, Trina, but youâve had too many days out. What can we do?â
The guidance counselor truly loved me. âTrina,â she said, âyouâre gifted.â
Yes, yes. I know.
âYou have a talent for beauty. Color.â
You canât miss that.
âIâve been talking to your teachers and we agree that you have an aptitude for art.â
No one had used a word like that for me. Aptitude. She didnât have to explain it. I got it. I have the habilidad . I am apt to make beauty and color.
âLook at this brochure. This is your new school.â Her last few words played like music. She said, âThey have an art program.â
The brochure was made of heavy, high-gloss paper. When the guidance counselor put it down before me, the crease made a loud croc against the desk. It was serious paper. Of course they show the school building and kids smiling on the cover, and now that you go here you know that those kids must have been cutting. And then you open the brochure and like the heavy slick feeling of the paper. It isnât throwaway paper. Inside they have all the high school things: the basketball team, the student government, the science lab, and tucked in the corner, the art program. A man with too much hair and a mustache is showing a girl how to draw. I didnât know at the time it was Mr. Sebastian, but I put my face where the girlâs face was. Next year some girl would see my face in the new brochure on serious high-gloss paper and wish she were me.
I knew this was the right place from the beginning. Everyone was like, âHey,â when they saw me coming down B Corridor. And the school has this art program where Mr. Sebastian calls the classrooms studios. C Corridor outsideour studio is the gallery. When weâre painting or sketching or sculpting weâre artists. When he needs to get us quiet we are âClass,â in that flat duck-quack voice. We like being artists. Itâs a different feeling than being a math or biology or social studies student. Mr. Sebastian plays music while we work. A lot of strings and horns and piano fighting for air, but weâre used to it. He gives us a different language in that class and he expects us to use it. Like, you canât say âThatâs deep.â You have to say âThat has textureâ and âThose colors are vibrant.â You have to use the artist language. âWhen youâre in Spanish class, you speak Spanish, yes?â he says. âWell, we speak art in the studio.â
It was hard, speaking art, in the beginning. The first few weeks when we were getting to know each other Mr. Sebastian stayed on my case for using âprettyâ and âcuteâ and ânice.â Pretty , cute , and nice donât belong in the studio. But I donât care. Iâm nice, I like pretty, and cute never hurt anybody.
âHey, Trina.â
Princess Di wave. âHey.â
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Ignore
LETICIA
Leticia: Its on.
Bea:Â Â Â Â OMG!!!
Leticia: At 2:45. Coming?
Bea:Â Â Â Â
Leticia: R U Coming?
Bea:Â Â Â Â Did U tell her?
Leticia:
Bea:Â Â Â Â Did U tell her?
Leticia:
Bea:Â Â Â Â TSha tell her.
Leticia:
Bea:Â Â Â Â TSHA!!!
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Bing, Bang, Boom
DOMINIQUE
B ING, BANG, BOOM . B ING, BANG, BOOM . Six triangles on my essay. Black ink dug deep in the margin. Bing, bang, boom. A chain of black triangles. Didnât know I was doing it. Making them. Linking them. Canât stop myself. Why stop now? Might as well go to the end. Down to the last line. Seven. Eight. Bing, bang, boom.
It doesnât matter which book we read. The Red Badge of Courage or Of Mice and Men . She asks the same questions. We write the same essay. At least I do. Itâs all the same triangle:
Point
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Stephen Kozeniewski
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Jani Kay
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Elle Harper
Joss Stirling