the trip?â
âThe trip will be the second week of July, with or without you. Weâd love to have you on board, Alex.â
âThat sounds really generous of you, Dr. Harding, and I will give this offer serious consideration. Iâll have toââ
âNo need to explain, but your being a mere secretary is such a waste of talent.â Dr. Harding walked away, shaking his head. âThink about it.â
I smiled as I swallowed my real dreams. Although most of my days were uneventful, they were productive. I fulfilled my duties with a certain level of dignity, and while I wasnât completely fulfilled, I did feel some measure of satisfaction. My real dreams, however, were lost in the abyss of misfortune.
When it was time for my break, I went across the street to McDonaldâs to eat a Big Mac combo as I contemplated the job offer again. Public relations wasnât my cup of tea. It wasnât fair that Taylor came home after a day of work, physically rejuvenated, energetic, full of passion, and full of exhilarating stories of her clientsâ progress. I wanted to feel connected to my clients like that, but my exhaustion and lack of enthusiasm always held me back. There was always a line I wouldnât dare cross. Unfortunately, the only thing about the offer that excited me was the chance to go to Kenya. Public relations. It wasnât a bad field. It just wasnât enough for me. I didnât know what I was supposed to do for a living, and I didnât know what I was supposed to do for God. I hated being indecisive. Please, Lord, fill me. Maybe this trip was what I needed to decide. Maybe I could spend the week in Kenya, away from Joshua, not only working, but also reflecting on my life and clearing my head before the wedding. The real question was could I live with myself if I married Joshua and didnât clear out the cobwebs of my past? Also if I did marry him, could we survive if he didnât face his own issues?
I picked up my cell phone and called Joshua. âHi, Josh.â
âHi, baby,â Joshua said.
I hesitated for a moment, not knowing how to tell him. âIâve got news.â
âReally? Whatâs going on?â
I took a deep breath. âIâll be going to Kenya on the second week of July.â
âKenya? What are you talking about?â
âRemember that position Dr. Harding offered me?â
âYes.â
âWell, heâs allowing me to test it out by doing one public relations assignment in Nairobe, Kenya.â I waited anxiously for his response. âIâm hoping to be able to do some missions work also.â
âI see.â
âItâs only for a week and umââ
âBut thatâs too close to our wedding date,â Joshua interrupted.
âItâs only for a week, and believe me, your mother has this wedding under control. Iâm sure everything will have been done by the time I leave.â
âThis is big news,â Joshua said, with a hint of surrender on his voice.
âItâs something Iâve been thinking about ever since Dr. Harding mentioned it.â
âI know that, butââ
âPlease donât make this harder than it already is. I need this trip.â In my heart I was pleading with him because I knew I needed this.
Joshuaâs tone was mellow. âIt is a great opportunity for you, so Iâll have to be supportive even though my heart doesnât want you to go.â
âIâll be back, Joshua.â I paused. âI love you.â
âI love you too.â
When I hung up the phone, I walked over to Dr. Hardingâs office and knocked on his door.
âCome in,â Dr. Harding said in his gruff voice.
I entered, but stood against the door.âIâve been thinking about what you said.â
âAnd?â Dr. Harding never looked up from his papers.
âAnd Iâll go on the trip to
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