or Iâll give them somethinâ to bawl about, but that donât do no good, anâ I run out the door to see where heâs headed, but heâs long gone. Pickupâs still in the driveway.â
Nak says, âYou git your hands on the note?â
âYeah, it was layinâ right there on his bed.â Elvis takes inventory of the faces again, and Nak gently urges him on.
âIt said, âThis hereâs the bullet they took out of our mommaâs brain, Dad. I thought you should have it toput in the scrapbook I hope youâre keepinâ to show how bad you messed up this family. Iâm tellinâ what you did to me, Dad. I have to. It probably means youâll go to jail. It wasnât right.ââ
Shelly scrutinizes Elvisâs face, now staring into the floor in the middle of the circle. Softly she says, âYou know what that means, donât you?â
âYeah,â he says without looking up. âIt means my olâ man done my sister. Whaddaya think, Iâm some kind of dumbshit?â
âNo,â Shelly says back evenly. âI just think it feels real bad, thatâs all. I know a thing or two about that.â
Elvis flares. âYeah, well, you donât know nothinâ about me.â
âI do now,â she says.
Elvis stands and starts to bolt out of the room, but Nakâs soft voice catches him midstride. âThis ainât about Shelly,â he says, âor any of the rest of us. No need to be runninâ off. Letâs finish this. You told us for a reason. What was it?â
âI donât know,â Elvis says, running his hand over his face in frustration. âI guess âcause my brother anâ sister are gettinâ hungry anâ Iâm tired of stealinâ shit to feed âem, âcause if I get caught, wellâ¦â Elvis appears desperate.
Nak nods.
âAnâ âcause Iâm feelinâ like killinâ my sister, but thatâs mostly âcause I canât find my dad to kill him.â
âYou want to talk a little about your dad?â Nak asks.
âNope. Iâm done talkinâ.â
JANUARY 3
Dear Larry,
This saga is taking some turns . We might have to upgrade it to a âKnots Landingâ spin-off. Maybe cable. Late night. Since itâs supposed to be a book about my rise to the top of the triathletesâ pyramid, I only wanted to include my training and what I think about during my training, but when Iâm working out, my mind runs wild.
Do you find it strange to know about peopleâs lives, Larry? I mean, itâs got to affect you to talk to a 1950s Miss America after you know her dad molested her, right? It changes things. Being in Mr. Nakâs group shows you whatâs below the surface of peopleâs lives. When youâre just trying to live your life, trying to get by, you tend to oversimplify things. You look at a guy like Elvis, and heâs just another badass making all us regular folksâ lives a little more risky, and Hudgieâs a loon and Shelly is there to make you ache below the belt, and Mr. S is there to help you, and Iâm justbreathing peopleâs air. But when you look below the surface, something else is true.
If I ever do really mail any of this to you, Iâll have to white a lot of it out, especially this next part because itâs confidential and the guy itâs about already thinks Iâm a major snitch, but writing it down might help me understand it. Today Elvis told us his older sister accused his dad of being a child molester. She sent him the bullet their mother killed herself with when she found out, as a little Christmas reminder that he drove her to it. Shuja was squirming like he was ten seconds from blast-off, and nearly everyone else tried to disappear to keep from looking at Elvis or have his story touch them in any way. But Hudgie was calmer than Iâve ever seen
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